August 16th.. is it already 19 years ago since I lost that one person that meant so much to me?
How time flies. When
I went to her grave today and looked her into the eyes it became clear
how much I missed her. She left a gap that can not be filled, there is
no-one that comes close to her. And I guess it's not meant to be
filled, that gap, that sorrow and yet also, the good things, the happy
years we had together. I remember them as well.
made me what I am today and I am still guided by her and what she stood
for. Her strong beliefs in love and doing well to others, her toughness
and stubbornness in pain and hard times are what I try to emulate and
even now, she gives me strenght . The strenght to face this sometimes
oh so cruel and egotistic world, where real feelings are a seldom
commodity and greed overrules all. Despite and despair, be gone ! But
then nature is like that. Sometimes beautiful, sometimes cruel and we
have to make the best of it, or die trying. Hope, Faith , Love .
did not want to ride out today, scattered rainshowers , wind and heavy
legs were begging me to stay inside. So I got onto the rollers.
Anastasia on the MP3 player and Stephen R.Donaldsons' last book of the
Second Chronicles of Thomas Covenant were there to keep me company
while I rode half an hour at exact the right pace my legs needed to get
rid of the pain, fatigue and lactic acid of last weekends' ride .
Ride Stats : 10K in 32mins
16-08-2007, 21:41 geschreven door Big Bad Wolf