I woke up early this morning with tired aching eyes. I felt lost because I felt dumped somehow. I wrote wrote wrote about 6 other pages in my notebook. I left to work and payed extra attention not to forget my phone.
I worked, was friendly as always to our costumers. I faked a smile every time I happily said 'Goodmorning! How can I help you?!'
Every now and then I checked my phone to see if there was a new message, but nothing came in. By the time it was 11.27 am my phone was making the noise of a text message comming in. I wasn't excited, because I taught I would have been someone, you know, not HIM. My boss said: It'll be him! Look at your phone!
She was right, it was him. This was what he wrote me: 'Hi! I couldn't text you yesterday because I had the brilliant idea to change my mobile subscription. :/ No worries! :)
I answered: Hi Y! glad to hear that! :) Beeing unreachable sucks indead. :/ Did you get some rest after your busy first week at your office? Happy Sunday! :)
And guess what. Ever since I've hit sent I didn't hear a message comming in. I feel lost again. I found a playlist on Youtube with sad violin music. It still doesn' to the thing, but it beats the silence a little. Maybe it was just too perfect to be true...
It hurts me so much because it was the first time I have ever felt so good on a date with a man. And not just a man. Y is as I wrote super handsome, clever, tender, gentle, ... He was everything I've ever wanted to see and have in a man. Yet it looks like the best thing I have never had, in fact. It also hurts because I have the feeling that I will never, ever find someone like him again.
So, this was my part 3 from a story that started so lovely with such a lovely man. It seems to end a bit more tragic for me. Don't tell me I'll find another one like him soon, or to get over it or to whatever what. I am a pisces, a very emotional one. So I'll need some time to cope with this. I also have the feeling that part 3 is the last part too though I hope so much I can write you and myself a happy ending in many many following parts in which we see each other again, go out, have walks, go to the circus and on holidays, ...
For that'll be the best thing I've (n)ever had.
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