That's my one big question today. A friend had a photoshoot today. It meant the world to her. 'Cause she'd lost about 20 kg's last few months and after the break-up with her boyfriend she finally starts to feel better again. She got herself a lingerie shoot to celebrate her life. Awesome idea. She came to me in the morning to help her get ready, to polish her nails, ... Than we drove to the hairdresser. I sat there waiting on her for about 1,5 hours. Than we drove to the photographer. We were a bit to early so waited for about 20 minutes in the car. We headed to the first location somewhere into the woods. It was cold. My muscles sore from my Viking Run yesterday, but I held up all the things. Helped her changing and posing, ... It was great to see how comfortable and at ease she felt again -after a LONG (!!) time - in her own skin again!! She felt more and more comfortable during hair and make-up. Again; gorgeous to see. We had the opportunity to work with a very good photographer too, so that made a huge difference too.
But than I got mad. I had to help her climb in trees, go up and down again to give other shoes or bra's or whatever and the only I could think was: 'WHY?'.
Why is there NO ONE around when I'm doing such things? Why do I have to do all these things by myself, from deciding what to wear, to getting it, to close my own zipper? Why do I have to carry ALL MY weight TOGETHER with someone else's? Why is it so obvious that everybody can rely on me? Why is there NO ONE around to massage or tape my sore muscles? Why do other people act like this is completely normal? Why do I have to keep up with myself ALL THE TIME? Why? Why?
Oh God, please. I just can't understand today. I know I seem so strong sometimes. But at heart I have to face as many fears as EVERYBODY else has to. People say that things are easy for me. But that's not. I even wonder why they think that too.
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