I left my family 3 years ago, I quit my job 1 year ago, I've worked so hard, not only for this job, but also for my calling, I've been working really hard to communicate my testimony, my story. And of course they (family) would sacrifice their own lives to bar the way to prevent my story from becoming known, because they know very well that my story does picture them as evil people. And so they use the power of the church of my hometown (catholic church - Belgium), they always were in control and they always were very powerful because they used the protection of the pope, the protection that they received from church leaders when they became very influential in this church, and that's how they obtained a lot of influence in my hometown and how they controlled other people to pull their strings. I'm 50, and I've seen tower after tower. And towers aren't usually a good thing on this planet. They want to see me fall, but I know that the Lord will protect me, and it's more likely that the catholic church will fall as a whole than me. The m and the e, that's all I am, and that's how I feel today. Feeling like I'm under siege day in and day out. I know that we (they) will reach an end, somewhere, somehow, I don't know when, but we will reach an end at some point. I get targeted day and night, evil spirits slandering my name is something that I'm used to. They figured out that the best strategy to make everyone forget about the dirty dishes and pungent poison is to keep repeating the mistakes that I've made in the past to slander my name. Destroying my name is the game, and they will keep attacking relentlessly until they win at this game. And as long as they win at this game, people will not remember my name, and people will forget about my story. But these mistakes that I've made are not even a thing to me, in the sense that I'm not even recognizing that an apology means anything beside hypocrisy as long as everyone is in the grip of fear, because they all went for a big set up since I was so young that I didn't even know the full extent of the evil plans. They all signed in for evil manipulation plans to make me angry, and to make me do what people consider offensive, just to be able to throw dirt at me. The battle continues until one of us is either defeated or dead. That's not even a quarter of the story. The story's such a mess, it's such a mess boy.