I had a narcissistic mother. At a very young age I began to sense that my family was very serious and bossy all the time, and I sensed that a kid like me that wants to loosen up a tiny little bit, not always but sometimes, was not welcome in the family. I mean, I was too young to understand the possibility of not being welcome in the family. I was welcome, but I had to be stiff, you know, no laughter, no jokes. So, I was welcome, but, how should I put it? I was welcome, but not me, someone else. What do we call the people that don't live? That's right, dead people. I didn't want to join them, but they are my parents, there is no escape! I just started talking like I wanted to tell what I wanted to tell, because I surely had no intention to not tell what I was about to tell, and I don't know until this day what I meant to say that day, but if I had said what I intended to say, it would have been very interesting. I'm sorry but, I was maybe 6yo, I don't know, I don't remember, I was too young. But my mother interrupted me immediately, she was very angry, she said: 'Shut up! You're satan!' But I had just said maybe two or three words! Haha, that's funny. No, it's not, actually. She meant it. From that day on I knew every single word that's coming out of my mouth is a word of satan. It happened more than 40 years ago, I don't blame you if you don't understand, don't assume I understand, I don't, but I've learned a lot about grown up stupidity since then, this is stupidity at another level. Wasn't satan responsible for everything that led to the crucifixion of Jesus Christ, our Lord? Well, are you talking about the awful things satan is responsible for? Why aren't you? 99% of the people are avoiding the subject. Yes, I'm talking about satan. Society shuts me up, like my mother did. I'm still not aloud to talk about satan, I'm not aloud to judge satan. But who's responsible for what happened to me that day? I don't know him personally, but I think it's satan, and my mother! What I was thinking that day (at 6yo or so...) was I can actually talk about anything, name anything you want, I can talk about it! You know how kids can be. The world is open, at least sometimes. And then the word that came out of my mother's mouth was: satan! So I thought, hey I can talk about satan anytime I want to, as long as I want to, no probs! Well, I studied the Book of Mormon, but I studied the N.T. first, and the prophets meant everything they said. Jesus Christ meant everything He said. My mother meant what she said that day. When I say something I also mean it most of the time. There is no confusion, my mother is guilty, and satan is guilty as well, and I'm not allowed to talk about that because of her connection with satan.