There are days when I don't feel like moving forward, too emotionally tired, depressed & psychologically exhausted dealing with my living & legal situation, just not sure things will get better. I really need an investigator to gather the information which supports how my trial attorney was ineffective! Have I shared the visit I had with my brothers & sister? They came to see me Feb.2, which is the same day my cage was searched! I was able to get out of this cage & take my mind off the mess I had to re-organize once I returned . Over the years I've learned to live in the moment. They always asked questions about my situation, which I explained, but I know once they're outside beyond these walls, everything I've explained to them is quickly forgotten...and they'll ask the same question the next time I see them. They're not able to help me, I don't take it personally, they could do a much better job providing moral support. I've learned to accept things as they come concerning my family. Do you recall, when I told you about the guards waking up prisoners at 2 a.m. ordering us to get out of bed & come to the door? They're now doing their roster count at 10:40. What made them change? I can only assume many complaints from prisoners. Anyway, we have now been made to shower inside a shower that only has cold water. many of us have complained. That's the only thing that's happening - we complain and the ranking officers say "I'll take a look, we'll get someone on it", but nothing changes. It has got worse since this new major took over. So much attention is focused on teaching prisoners who run the show, they forget all about teaching the guards! They're supposed to do their jobs as well, which they're not doing. It's becoming very difficult, just to get a shower that only puts out cold water, however, once I'm placed in the shower, it takes 45 minutes to an hour before I'm taken out, sometimes longer than this. Yes, this upsets me. All I can think about this: what have I done to deserve this madness? If it's not one thing, it's another. I'm a very happy person, ain't I?
28-02-2013, 00:00 geschreven door Sunshine 
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