I'm sitting here on death row, trying to build up support, trying to convince people I'm innocent, fighting to hold everything together because sometimes the issues I'm made to deal with make me feel like I'm losing my mind. At the end of the day, I know I'm just sitting on death row waiting to grow old & die... Who will help me? Who will support me financially?
What is physically wrong with me? My back hurts from sitting in the same place/position, either I'm typing, writing or reading something. I guess back pain is one of the effects that come along with solitary confinement; there's no comfortable chair to sit in anywhere. The mattress I sleep on feels like I'm sleeping on the floor, so whenever I wake up, some part of my body hurts.
I went outside the other day, it was nice but hot! That didn't prevent me from doing a hard workout, I ran about 45 minutes in that heat. I'm trying to work off some of that weight I've gained! Now my knees aren't causing serious pain that prevents me from running like they used to. After running, the guy in the next yard to me did push up & pull up with me, it's not always I have someone to work with. The heat really took a lot of energy out of me. After returning to this cage, I felt this energy lost. I had to wait on the guards to come & take me to the shower - sometimes they take forever! I returned from the shower to wash the clothes I had on, this seems as if it takes forever! Once done I jumped into bed to rst my body. My mind fell into a deep sleep, Suddenly a loud explosion: bang! bang! bang! "Wheatfall you OK? What's your last three?" This is what the guard said, disturbing my sleep. Whenever the guards make their rounds, going cage to cage checking to see whether everyone is where they're supposed to be, this is what they do during their count. I was able to fall asleep once the guard was gone. After a few hours of rest I got up to focus on the book I'm writing, then a letter & my legal studies.

24-04-2012, 00:00 geschreven door Sunshine