The darkness of this environment influences all forms of rationality. As I stare at these goddamn walls I feel the rage & bewilderment felt around the world when the atom bomb was dropped. Over 100,000 dead & 100,000 wounded - how can this be ignored?
It's how I feel right now. Abandoned, disappointed & let down. Nobody has written. The games these people play by manipulating, delaying, controlling my mail has destroyed any attempt I've made to establish other outside connections. I feel trapped.
This place is coming down on top of me. I'm not doing anything wrong whatsoever but I'm being made to suffer over lies. I'm sick of this life, I'm sick of these people, their goddamn made-up rules & their hate for prisoners! I'm an innocent man. Most of all, I'm sick of the manipulation that these people do.
Life is starting to have no meaning for me; these people are going out of their way to cause me & other prisoners unnecessary pain. All I'm doing is watch myself grow old inside this goddamn hell hole hating every damn minute existing!

20-05-2011, 00:00 geschreven door Sunshine