There was another lockdown on October 12.
Ever since cell phones were discovered, now every 90 days regional guards are here to search through all death row prisoners' property. This is a big headache because I'm made to endure unit guards searching through my property. It's never any fun being removed out of this cage & returning with my property thrown everywhere. Now everyone is made to remain confined 24 hours a day until everybody has been searched. Sometimes it takes 2 1/2 weeks to do this. I'm going to enjoy eating out of the brown bags the delicious food comes in - I think I'm going to be sick just thinking about it!
I hate all of this, nothing about this life is exciting or motivating mentally. I have to fight to overcome so many psychological battles. Inside this cage I feel like an orphan who's searching for a family & love. Who understands how much I'm hurting & need to love someone?
I know it's difficult for most people to understand the abuse that goes on behind these walls, the energy & focus one must possess to get beyond this abuse. You see, it hasn't been 1 day nor 1 year I've had to endure this madness. It's been 21 years & counting I'm made to wake up to this...

20-10-2011, 00:00 geschreven door Sunshine