It's an all out assault on prisoners'rights to exist until it's time to die on this end.

I'm just fine. However, I'm now housed on F-pod as level-2. What did I do? What do I ever do to receive a case? Nothing! I was returning  two books to the person they belong to, which is why I am on level-2! Hard to believe? By TDCJ standards, transferring a book means Trafficking & Trading. This is a level-2 offence, a minor infraction. Several prisoners were written disciplinary cases for some of the stupidest reasons (passing a paperback book, toilet paper, a magazine; one guy was given food and he was given 15 days'cell restriction for eating inside the dayroom)!
This is totally irrational, but this is the assault prison officials are exercising against death row prisoners. Denying razors, closing the slots on the shower door is just a psychological disruption - preventing that inner peace. Being back on F-pod has given me some inner peace, as if all my worries & concerns have been eliminated. I was upset when informed I would be moving, but they moved so many guys on March 28, it just didn't make any sense...
These are guys who haven't received a disciplinary case since they've been on death row (10, 15, 16 years). I haven't had a case in over a year. These people are going out of their way to create problems: they gassed some guy on the rec yard on the 29th. I was in the dayroom, when they carried him in naked from the yard, the gas followed them in. At first, it wasn't affecting me, then it attacked like a hungry animal! Striking at my eyes & respiration - to blind me & robbing me of my breathing. I quickly made protection.
The guy who lived next to me also was a victim. He's been on death row for 16 years, never had a case until now - this isn't a legitimate case.
I told him: "Seven days will not pass without someone being gassed. How much do you want to bet?" The next morning they gassed the guy on the yard; I was hollaing to him from the dayroom, he was ignoring me because he knew I was going to say that I told him so!
F-pod is where the rules are made up as the guards move through their day. The other day I was placed into the shower at 11.45p.m., the next day I didn't get a shower at all because ranking officers shut down all movement. Asd I write this, I'm waiting on a shower. I was placed inside the shower on March 30, I came out on the 31st: from 11:01 until 12:10 I was inside the shower; it's crazy, this life I'm living - that's the challenge for me not to become like this life.
On March 28 I awakened to what I thought would be a normal day. I made me a shot of coffee, sat back taking in the sounds of my environment, drinking my coffee. Then I shot my line to the dayroom to return books that didn't belong to me. Now I'm being punished for this.
What's a line? That's what we, prisoners, use to pass items from one place to another; nonetheless, please tell me, how unrealistic does it sound to punish a man for returning a book!

I'm under a lot of pressures living inside this environment - loving energy & support is what I need & loving energy & support is what I wish to provide, so I'll try to be more loving & positive...

10-04-2011, 00:00 geschreven door Sunshine