One future dreamt of a million times before 

Willing to share life, over and over again, 

Not just me 

Not the only one, 

Just one in the long line towards the end 

You don’t know 

You don’t see 

You think marriage will stop your ways 

You think hurrying into this will end your lies 

You’re wrong 

You must be 

How dishonest can you begin? 

I’m not the only liar here 

And I’m not a liar... 

I wish my touch could clear your head, 

all your worries, all your threads, 

I wish my smile could cure your pain, 

nevertheless I seem to wish in vain, 

nightmares reacurring in your sleep, 

make my heart ache and weap, 

for you deserve so much more, 

your happiness what I'd die for, 

I only want what's best for you, 

whatever that might mean too, 

I wish I could give you whole of the universe, 

I want to be with you for better and for worse, 

You've got my heart, my wits, the entire me, 

got nothing else to offer, I can only be, 

And hope that that's enough to make you stay, 

make you happy by the way, 

I wouldn't want you to stick around, 

if it's not love and happiness that has you bound, 

I'd do anything for your sake, 

even if it means to stay forever awake, 

keeping you safe warm and happy is my sole purpose in life's mess, 

for it's the only way for me to find my own happiness. 

Weak, wretched little girl, letting messed up dreams leave you in tribulation, 

poor creature, beaten down by a mere figure of your imagination, 

you ought to be stronger than this, 

you ought to be certain of your bliss 

why not listen to your heart that in every beat hurls that all dreams come true? 

Why not believe your soul that knows for sure this is meant for you? 

I do believe in you, in us, in the utter most happiness you grant me by loving me, 

I shall not stumble and perish again, not the scared little girl I used to be, 

This is so much bigger than I imagined, so much more than I expected, forgive me my sceptical mind, 

I’ve never felt closer to anyone, I’ve never felt anything of this kind, 

That’s what causes the anxiety, the fear and the prudence that makes me insecure, 

For you hold my very existance in your hands, I’m naked before you, giving in to the lure. 

I’m sorry for my weakness, I shouldn’t need any reassurance, I know you to be true, 

I’m sorry for everything, including hurting you, 

Thank you for answering inspite of the anger I caused you to feel, 

thank you for loving inspite of this weak appeal 

I love you so much it sometimes scares the crap out of me, 

for it makes me more vulnerable than you’ll ever see 

confidence takes time to grow 

I’ll get there, I am there, I know 

Love you, 

for ever, 

always, 

with all I’ve got in me... 

Someone loves you 

holds you in her heart 

longs for your presence 

longs for your touch 

misses you like crazy 

doesn’t want to be apart 

whispers yourname 

a thousand times a day 

wants to be near you 

when you’re far away 

I love you just words they so often seem 

If I ever fail you, I swear to redeem. 

Here again, as naked and vulnerable as before 

Confident this time, nothing frightens me anymore 

Tried defying myself, tried being as one should 

Failed at the attempt as I knew I would 

Aching beats emptiness by far 

My destiny I know lies in this war 

The gentle peace I’ve lived for a decade 

Never made my real goal fade 

I’ve come here to suffer whither and die 

Scream, scramble, fall down and cry 

I’m sorry for the pain I caused only  

because back then I was too small 

It’ll come back to haunt me, price’ll be paid after all 

I should’ve died a decade ago 

Without anyone to know 

Willing to set things right 

Oh please, please, let me die tonight? 

There you are, 

Tied up, naked, 

Awaiting the final ordeal, 

Your mind wanders off 

How did you end up here 

This could go on for days 

Torture, pain, fear 

Hoping the weakening of your body ‘ll pay off 

Can’t be that much strength left in your heart 

Surprised you lost the option of the easy way out 

You were so prepared 

Not knowing how much more you’ll have to endure 

Before it’ll give up life 

Longing for death as you always have 

The only thing no one counted on 

You’re not afraid of death 

You’ve wished for it for years 

Kill me, don’t hurt me, kill me... 

Ever so hard to see you take off 

knowing every second apart ‘ll be rough 

confident that you’re not really away 

that your departure merely means a little delay 

longing for the day our future ‘ll take flight, 

nothing in my life has ever felt so right 

as gazing into steelblue eyes 

made my heart realize 

that I belong to you 

want to share my everything with you 

how shallow words might sound 

not able to truly describe what I’ve found 

A friend a soulmate a partner in life 

the only one I’d be proud of to be called ‘your wife’ 

saying I love you doesn’t cover half of the load, 

you’re everything, with you I’ll be happy to share.... 

Huntress, 

Restlessly searching 

but one goal she pursues 

one soul worthy 

understanding her clues 

do not fail me 

this time I might not survive 

grant me the one thing more precious than life 

a heart touching mine 

setting my mind at ease 

unconditionally giving 

not aiming to please 

don’t try to capture a heart by playing nice 

she needs you to be true, sees through every disguise 

don’t spare her your torture for the more you try to hide 

the more you’ll push away 

the huntress by your side. 

Counting seconds of endless days 

writing your name in countless ways 

no greater agony I’ve known than to be apart from you 

no deeper longing than to long for you 

for it is sheer torture that hits me every second of every day 

fear pain and emptiness when you are away 

thus id do realize that one step at the time 

you gave me your heart and you captured mine 

i love you ever dearly and madly if you will 

even when we’re not together, my heart is with you, still... 

At night my dreams bring me close to you 

arms wrapped around me 

gentle words whispered in my ear 

daylight breaks and leaves me empty 

alone and trembling 

I long for you my love 

with every beat of my heart 

eery breath that fills my lungs 

I hate us being apart 

half empty 

my mind wandering off to where you are 

not living 

I merely exist, barely exist without you 

The heart ache cutting me in half 

I long for you 

For the day we will never have to say goodbye again...