Here again, as naked and vulnerable as before 

Confident this time, nothing frightens me anymore 

Tried defying myself, tried being as one should 

Failed at the attempt as I knew I would 

Aching beats emptiness by far 

My destiny I know lies in this war 

The gentle peace I’ve lived for a decade 

Never made my real goal fade 

I’ve come here to suffer whither and die 

Scream, scramble, fall down and cry 

I’m sorry for the pain I caused only  

because back then I was too small 

It’ll come back to haunt me, price’ll be paid after all 

I should’ve died a decade ago 

Without anyone to know 

Willing to set things right 

Oh please, please, let me die tonight?