OMG YES PAULIEN WON !!!
And bastille was great omfg
This day couldn't get any better.I am so happy she won wow she really deserves it.
I went downstairs to tell my parent she won and I forgot to wear socks so they could see my tattoo on my foot.I thought she would have said something but she didn't.she problably thought I just draw on my foot lol
Well its midnight so I'm going to sleep.
Bastille is going to sing live on the radio/tv and I'm so excited ahhhh !!!
Today was better than yesterday cuz I tried not to bother and it worked most of the time.
I've talked a lot to my best friend today about us and his feelings basically.
I really can't figure out what to write in my title lmao.
Its the final of the voice van vlaanderen and I hope paulien is going to win bc she deserves it.she has a lovely voice!
I am really sad about the fact that I can't see lana del rey live,sigh..
I'm going to work out more bc people are calling me fat basically.they don't really say that I'm fat but they give me hints like If they poke me they are like wow uve got some fatty left from when u was a baby yeah thanks for the compliment yo.
Well I'm going to wait for bastille to sing yoooo!
Today was shit.
I couldn't properly fake a smile.so all my friends kept asking what was wrong,sigh.
And one girl kept saying that I was sad bc of the girl I've dated almost a year ago(I'm still not over her)
So I haven't really talked today.
My class is so annoying I just want to kill them all.They probs have a hard time coping with their teenage problems but whatever.I just don't like them at all.and I don't fit in.
At dinner my sister was talking about getting a tattoo and my mom was like hey don't you want a tattoo? And then I was like hehhe yeah maybe
Well that was awkward.
That guy I talked about a post ago or so(who was playing with me who's in some same classes )is becoming a really good friend cuddle a lot and he pokes me whole the time(I am ticklish so I laugh whole the time)but I don't want to love anyone am just not ready for a relationship don't think I will ever be.
And my best friend(who was my boyfriend) is jealous bc I don't spend much time with him anymore sigh.
My bff is listening to mumford and sons just because I love them to death nononono that's not what you're gonna do yo.They are my favorite not fucking yours.(Oops sorry for my language)
Remember I said I made a tattoo??
Well I made a second one.
The one that says 'I think I made you up inside my head' turned out to be pretty(wich is on my arm).the other one is on my right feet.its like a molecule that's important for your emotions and sleep and such and yeah I realllyyyyy love it.
Like a month ago I did it for the first time wich said 'healing' but it really hurted so I scrubbed(idk if it is the right word??) it off.
(Tomorrow we are going to cook at school so I am already excited yay.
Yesterday someone just started to talk to me and today we had to go to school even though it is weekend but whatever i saw that guy from yesterday again and i have got his number.When i went back home i sat down on a bench reading a book and an old man sat next to me.He tried to be poetic and stuff lol it didnt really work though.I tattooed myself today.It says; 'i think i made you up inside my head.
I don't know how to feel about the fact that I hurt my boyfriends feelings.I dumped him today and he almost started to cry wow.
Today there was an accident and all the cars had to turn back on the drive way omfg.
YAY its almost weekend! I can't wait for some reason.I am so sick of school.This guy in my class was flirting with me the whole time.I can't love him bc he's a player.And I don't want to get hurt all over again.I was really upset how my(now exboyfriend whom I will call him from now on my best friend) was hurt.
Well yeahh I have to do some homework
Yooo byee
Today I had detention(that's the word I forgot yesterday lol) and I talked to a girl who was sweet.I hope she will talk to me tomorrow.
I've got some good ass new music on my phone yay,I am going to school on bike because its really hot and when I go back home I'm going to break up with my boyfriend.
Today was so shit.I just couldn't fake a smile and my boyfriend only was angry at me bc I didn't let him show I loved him.he didn't fucking try to fucking cheer me up.
My friends have made me change my mind about staying in a relationship with him(Wich I understand ofcoure).My best friend is playing with my head woaaahh I would like to kiss her ok.(Don't judge me yoo)
So I'm gonna break up with my boyfriend in 2 days.I don't like him.
So I just going to be honest to him to keep him as my friend wow its going to be hard but yeah.
I have a 'strafstudie' tomorrow at school.that means that I have to stay for like 2 more hours than I should.
I don't want to be in a relationship.I am not even ready to be in a relationship.
I am probs going to break up with my boyfriend.
He's my best friend so I don't know how ill tell him I'm not ready for a relationship.I will have to be an ice cold bitch lol.I don't want to lose him as my best friend...ugh I am confused.
I think I don't want a boyfriend but a girlfriend????
I still want my ex yeah
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I still look for your face in the crowd.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.
I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
My life has changed so much in a week like a week ago I was so unhappy, I was planning to overdose and just die..and now I feel ok and I've got a boyfriend who I love.I wouldn't say he has saved me because I didn't/dont want to be saved.I know my happiness won't stay but shall enjoy until it will go away like it always does.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
My life has changed so much in a week like a week ago I was so unhappy, I was planning to overdose and just die..and now I feel ok and I've got a boyfriend who I love.I wouldn't say he has saved me or something because I didn't want to be saved.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
Today i was with my boyfriend and a friend of him.M y boyfriend basically said just because hes in a relationship doesnt mean he cant look at others .I know it is true but still why did he even fucking said that?? Apart from that it was still a good day... ----------------------------------------The past week has been really great because i felt happy but yesterday night was just like it used to be;crying myself to sleep.I dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.i dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.i dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.
