It was my dads birthday today.tomorrow we will have a bbq(its kinda a surprise bc he doesn't know who's coming)so there will be like a lot of people I haven't seen in a verrrrrryy long time,over 4 years.
I don't want to tbh.
I normally should work..I've explained it earlier.sigh I really need money.so tomorrow before everyone arrives I have to clean up and my mom wants to pay me for it lol.
C. Started to talk on tumblr ayyy.
Exams are almost over omg.
Only friday monday and tuesday to go.
Err yeah finally my tablet works again.so I can go on tumblr so much more.I think I'm driving my followers crazy cuz I'm blogging way too much lol.
Like yesterday my work called to say that I can't work until something isn't alright.and that fucked up thing could take up like 6weeks.
Well there goes my money to have a nice summer vacation :(
I was so excited to see my co-worker again sigh.she's beautiful I just can't.
I am totally going to fail math so much.I barely studied for it lol.
Sigh I really am.
My mom wanted to have a talk about everthing and yeah so I sat there listening,looking at the ground.she said that she thinks that I don't like them and not interesting in them.she was like or it is us or something is going wrong in your life.then my sister said its for sure not them.I just sat there saying nothing with tears in my eyes.
Basically she said that she understands that I'm a teenager with teenage problems and now I am in a stressful perios bc exams she said she understand lol no its not fucking that.
I've got more problems.in my head.I need fucking help.that's what went on in my head.but as the cunt I am I say nothing and stare.
My sister said that maybe if this will al go on we will need familytherapy.and then she just laughed it off.so did my mom.
I still stared at the ground.
I don't want it either bc I don't want to open up(especially to strangers)
Ugh I am useless.
Update of monday:I don't feel like sharing too much but my mom and dad punched me.
And I cried the whole night.I wanted to cut myself again(but I didn't??) Instead I burned myself.my french exam went good I mean like it wasn't hard and I've lived for 1year in france so yeah.
Update of today;my exam english went great.I didn't have any problems with like nothing.and I finished as first.but like that girl who doesn't even know the difference between to and too was done after me haha no sit your ass down lol.
I don't know what I'm going to do or how to act when my parents will be home sigh.
