Next friday,lana del rey will be giving a concert where I live.
I don't have tickets and its sold out already al long time ago.
I've searched for tickets online to buy.
I found one who seems trustfully.But I bet my mom doesn't want to buy it.
Its one ticket so even if she buys it only I can go.I really love lana.ugh sigh I want to go :(
I am going to convince my mom to buy it by saying I will give you the money when I have money,I promise and stuff like you know how much I love her.if this turns out to be fake I've learned my lesson.please please.
But I know how my mom is,though.she will say no,no matter what.
I will give it a shot tomorrow(no today)bc its 1 a.m
Let's pray.
This morning I was stuDYING for the exams and my parents were food-shopping and they got an application for me to get a job!
I filled it in and went with my bike to the shop.Let's hope I've got the job.
Me and my friends were already planning to go on vacation(yes in our country but still cool)
I remember my big sister telling me you can thing that boys and girls are cute.that was 5 years ago.when I was ten.When we went shopping she said that she found that girl gorgeous and that they had nice hair and stuff.when I was ten,I thought that something like that didn't exist.but now,I think boys and girls are cute aswell.
Fact:the first time I found a girl really really pretty was when I was 11.she was my first girl crush.
My oldest sister and her boyfriend(almost 5year together)are here and her boyfriend michael is really rude to her..he sits with us talking and laughing mostly and my sister does the disher like wtf???doesn't you need to sit with us??
My heart hurted again.At lunchtime it started to hurt so much I barely could breathe.
Today was euh..okay?Nothing special.I feel like nothing can sheer me up.I discovered that the contest of going to a concert of demi on the 31 in this month ends thursday.So its good to know that I may have a chance.(I do hope I win)(I love her ay)
But I've come to the point that I realized that I need to study really badly for the exams if I want to pass it.
I would like to study for being a therapist,or something with language(I would like to be a writer,poet,..)Or I would like to be dead.Its one of those 3 things.I may pick the last one.
We had to do our exam french.Not the whole exam but just a little bit??.
Tomorrow,titanic is on the television.I'm excited to see the movie bc honesty I haven't seen the movie yet.But I've seen some gifs on tumblr.(Mmm leonardo is mmmmm)
My ex boyfriend (you see how I don't use best friend anymore??)has a new girlfriend lol she's like way too young for her and she's a grenade.(No this is not jealously)(if you think so you can fuck off)
Update:we still haven't talked.I like it that way.Now I don't get annoyed anymore.Even though I don't have any friends in my class.whatever school is almost over.
But my light of my blackberry is showing orange so that means my phone is almost dead.
It's also late,so I'm going to sleep.
Idk what to write bc my life is so bored.
I went to the library.I got a little book of all the love poems of william shakespeare!!
When I was there,there was this girl who was on the internet and she kept looking at me euh??She wasn't ugly but she basically ate me alive lol.
I still haven't talked to my "best friend".
I don't know how to tell my friends I don't go to lana del reys concert sigh.
I almost got tickets to see demi lovato on the same day lana del rey would be here where I live.but demi lovato gives a concert in london.it would have been awesome that I would be there cuz I do like demi her music(and her as a person).but no I never win anything,literally.
I don't have fags anymore and I neither have money oh,sad life
Oops I literally haven't talked to my "best friend" for 6 days.Well ok.At first I didn't make an effort to talk to him and wait for him when the class ends.And now he isn't.I don't mind.I am not the one who's trying to make the other jealous.lol.
I made macaroni today at school.I really like to cook but not to eat afterwards.I feel full so fast.
At the moment,I am trying hard to study for the upcoming exams and trying to fade my scars.I don't want them.I like them but I don't want them anymore.I will probably relapse again.* year ago or so I tried to recover.after 3 months or so I relapsed and to be honest I like my relapse scar the most..
I feel really tired but I can't sleep.??
I've been flirting with one of my friends(she's a girl.you know the girl I kinda like).ugh I try not to but I maybe think she has a crush on me lol idk I've been best friends with her for more than 3 years..she gives me so much mixes signs
