God I'm so tired.I barely slept this weekend bc saturday I had to go to work so I had to be awake at 6am.and today I had to wake up at fucking 10 am to eat while I went to bed at 3am.
But I kept thinking about my attractive co-worker and I feel like I have a tiny crush on her..
Idk it may be or not be but I feel like I like her bc I try to forget my ex-girlfriend.does that makes sense????ugh we will see.
I barely studied for my french exam llol ok
I've had my first day and it went great(idk if I said I hoped to get a good looking girl to help me bc I'm new)but I had a verry good looking girl.at first I had a women around 29 years old or so.(Idk she already had kids but she doesn't look old)but she had to go so someone else helped me.
She was really kind.ugh but yeah I hope I see her a lot.
My mom bought a bbq of 200 euros wtf???????????????????????????????????????? No I'm not confused I'm mad.
Oh god you don't even know how happy I am.
I hope I get enough money to but the things I want.I don't know if I still want to spend my money on going on vacation with my best friendooo.
My exams are going so far so good I guess.
Geographic was easy like haha I didn't learn cuz I knew we could use everything.I believe that my teacher is crazy and drunk.
And history went good because I learned much.idk I hope for the best.
But all that's going on in my head is what I'm going to buy lol.
Maybe a laptop or a phone or a guitar or an ipod.
And some albums but what I'm sure of is merch of bands omg yes.
I would like to have a boy or girlfriend for in the summer tbh omfg.that would be awesome..
My first exam went good.
When I got home I studied while I was laying in the sun.
I have self harm scars(from the past) and they are white again like before.ew.
I wore a shirt today at school.only in class though so noone could see my scars.and they wouldn't care if they saw.
My mom and dad and my brother are at a bbq with their friends(which is weird cuz do old people have friends???)But its almost 11pm and they aren't back yet.my brother is 11 so he has to go to bed bc school tomorrow.I'm like worried something is wrong.
Today in class a guy(who's really aggressive)punched me with my own hand like more than 30 times.at first it was soft but it always got harder.everyone off my class were just standing and looking and laughing.then there was this girl(who was laughing the most)decided it wasn't okay.so she got angry and made a scene lol what an attention seeker.like It was fucking me who got punched in the face for more than 30 times!!!
So he stopped and after class he was surprised why is was mad at him??
We had 4hours class.so we could go home before lunchtime.
I normally had to study for my exam tomorrow lol but I didn't do anything.like I ate and it was like 2o'clock.I didn't want to study so whatever lol
I went home from school and my sister(the one I don't like and no one sees her as family)was making a drama(again) of how I stole a fucking CANDLE of her fucking hell!!
My mom was helping her omg.
Its like my family has too much chromosomes of being two faced.
So they were starting to piss me off and I said to my ''sister'' that she doesn't mean a shit to me and that she should die.
I don't care.
She's a living lie.
