Today I had detention(that's the word I forgot yesterday lol) and I talked to a girl who was sweet.I hope she will talk to me tomorrow.
I've got some good ass new music on my phone yay,I am going to school on bike because its really hot and when I go back home I'm going to break up with my boyfriend.
Today was so shit.I just couldn't fake a smile and my boyfriend only was angry at me bc I didn't let him show I loved him.he didn't fucking try to fucking cheer me up.
My friends have made me change my mind about staying in a relationship with him(Wich I understand ofcoure).My best friend is playing with my head woaaahh I would like to kiss her ok.(Don't judge me yoo)
So I'm gonna break up with my boyfriend in 2 days.I don't like him.
So I just going to be honest to him to keep him as my friend wow its going to be hard but yeah.
I have a 'strafstudie' tomorrow at school.that means that I have to stay for like 2 more hours than I should.
I don't want to be in a relationship.I am not even ready to be in a relationship.
I am probs going to break up with my boyfriend.
He's my best friend so I don't know how ill tell him I'm not ready for a relationship.I will have to be an ice cold bitch lol.I don't want to lose him as my best friend...ugh I am confused.
I think I don't want a boyfriend but a girlfriend????
I still want my ex yeah
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I still look for your face in the crowd.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.
I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
My life has changed so much in a week like a week ago I was so unhappy, I was planning to overdose and just die..and now I feel ok and I've got a boyfriend who I love.I wouldn't say he has saved me because I didn't/dont want to be saved.I know my happiness won't stay but shall enjoy until it will go away like it always does.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
My life has changed so much in a week like a week ago I was so unhappy, I was planning to overdose and just die..and now I feel ok and I've got a boyfriend who I love.I wouldn't say he has saved me or something because I didn't want to be saved.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
Today i was with my boyfriend and a friend of him.M y boyfriend basically said just because hes in a relationship doesnt mean he cant look at others .I know it is true but still why did he even fucking said that?? Apart from that it was still a good day... ----------------------------------------The past week has been really great because i felt happy but yesterday night was just like it used to be;crying myself to sleep.I dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.i dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.i dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.
