I don't want to be in a relationship.I am not even ready to be in a relationship.
I am probs going to break up with my boyfriend.
He's my best friend so I don't know how ill tell him I'm not ready for a relationship.I will have to be an ice cold bitch lol.I don't want to lose him as my best friend...ugh I am confused.
I think I don't want a boyfriend but a girlfriend????
I still want my ex yeah
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I still look for your face in the crowd.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.
I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
My life has changed so much in a week like a week ago I was so unhappy, I was planning to overdose and just die..and now I feel ok and I've got a boyfriend who I love.I wouldn't say he has saved me because I didn't/dont want to be saved.I know my happiness won't stay but shall enjoy until it will go away like it always does.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
My life has changed so much in a week like a week ago I was so unhappy, I was planning to overdose and just die..and now I feel ok and I've got a boyfriend who I love.I wouldn't say he has saved me or something because I didn't want to be saved.
I've had a good week apart from the break down I had friday night.My laptop isn't working anymore since last week omg I though I couldn't handle not having a laptop but hey I can.Today I've baked cakes and stuff and it was really nice.I didn't think I would ever say/think I really love my boyfriend.I know it is strange(as I am).
Today i was with my boyfriend and a friend of him.M y boyfriend basically said just because hes in a relationship doesnt mean he cant look at others .I know it is true but still why did he even fucking said that?? Apart from that it was still a good day... ----------------------------------------The past week has been really great because i felt happy but yesterday night was just like it used to be;crying myself to sleep.I dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.i dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.i dont want to relapse and harm myself anymore.
