Ik ging naar een feest/fuif/... en ik hoopte hem (B.) tegen te komen, we smsten en zo zagen we elkaar dan toch. Hij was stoned en lachte dus met zowat ... alles. Mijn beste vriendin en haar lief vonden hem niet echt bepaald goed overkomen. Na veel smsen omdat hij even naar andere mensen was gegaan komt hij terug.
We hebben heel de tijd buiten staan babbelen, hij een vriend van hem, een vriendin van mij en ik. Na zo'n paar uur gingen we de tent terug in, het was namelijk te koud. Bij het dansen had hij me heel de tijd vast, op een gegeven moment neemt een vriend van mij met zijn gsm daar foto's van. En toen hij wist dat ik weg moest gaan naar huis toen, hij had me al heel de tijd we in de tent waren vast, onze voorhoofden waren tegen elkaar en toen kuste hij me! Eerst toen onze voorhoofden tegen elkaar waren wist ik dat hij me ging kussen, maar die vriend van hem had me gezegt dat B. maar één doel had en dat was me versieren, of gewoon versieren! Ik week dus mijn hoofd af zodat we wang tegen wang waren, maar toen hadden we ineens weer de zelfde houden, en kuste hij le!
Dus voor hij me kuste wist ik dit al, maar ik wou het gewoon, dus deed ik het. Ik heb hem terug gekust!
I was thinking, and I thougt 'I schould stop talking to him, he would never like me! I saw it in other messages on msn' and now, all of a suden, he starts talking to me!
First he sended me a message on my phone, not an answaer on something else, but really a begining. And now he starts a chat with me! He had never ever done that! I honestly don't get it anymore!
I'm trying to make up my mind and then he starts talking to me!
I honestly was serieusly thinking about breaking with him! I don't want to lose a person, because that is what is going to happen if I break with him! If I break I'd never talk to him again and that's kind of losing someone! But I don't want to get hurt! I know that he is never gone like me as a serieus friend or in that sort, sow he would also never love me! Wich meens that I should break with him! But I don't want to!
I'm for a dillema! Do I break with him forever? Or do I go for it all the way? I know that he doesn't want me like I want him, so why should I put my heart out there? But I also know that I could never just ignore my feelings or desiers for him! The problem is, maybe I could say I'd never talk to him, but I know I couldn't keep that up! I said that if I don't see him saterday at the party (where we both are going to) then I break with him without a sound! But if I do see him, then I don't know it yet!
The problem is my friend said that if I don't see him that he probebly wouldn't contact me! I know she is right, but I don't what her to ben right! I don't wanne be right about him! I want him to like me! Even I do know that he doesn't see me like that!
I don't wanne be at the party with the hope, and then proven that I'm a fool! AGAIN!!! It's the second time I fell for him! I don't want to be at the paty all sad because he doesn't give a fuck about me!
My friend told me that she doesn't want to see me hurt, or that she doesn't want that I like him to much, because she knows that I would get hurt! But it's to late!
It's too late, Try to forget all the things that happened You said that I was wrong, thinking that we could always be together
And I guess that you were right, right about yourself You didn't even love me anyway, but I still love you, even if you slap me every day I'll do anything if only you were loving me forever
It's too late, trying to call you 'bout the things that happened you won't even listen was I that easy to forget forever?
And I guess that you were right, right about yourself You didn't even love me anyway, but I still love you, even if you slap me every day I'll do anything if only you were loving me forever
you told me I was beautiful, now was that a lie? I wish I was beautiful, cause if I was than maybe I could see your lovely eyes it's too late trying to remember all our moments together
Now what if I was right, right about yourself maybe you could love me someday cause I still love you and dreamed that I would kiss you today I'll do anything if only you were loving me forever
what if I was right, right about yourself maybe you could love me someday cause I still love you, and dream that I would kissing you today I'll do anything, if only you were loving me forever
After all the pain, I still want you! I still want your arms around me, I still want your lips on mine, I still want you! I don't know why, but something is still keeping me atracted to you! My heart is breacking, because you where so mean! You told me, with not al lot of words, that you don't want me, that I was just a flirt!
I don't wanne be a flirt, i told him that and he was like "what do you think of me" like it was an insolting, but after all he did it. He said he wasn't going to dump me when I would talk about being a bit more serious, and he did it. He dumped me, even when I was just testing him!
He did what he said he wouldn't do, he is what he said he wasn't!!
