I went shopping today and I've got new clothes!!
The night before I scrubbed(?)my tattoo off bc it hurted ugh..so I decided to I'm going to buy real india ink ayy I'm so excited lol
I haven't really done anything yet since the summer vacation.so I wanted to at least do something worth doing so I am trying to play the piano lol yeah I'm doing the song young and beautiful by lana del godness.I started yesterday and I already can do the intro lol.I love playing the piano.
I'm going to shop for new clothes tomorrow.wow it has been ages(no not that long but whatever) since I properly went shopping.
oh yeah and friday at the beach was amazing ayy
I passed the exams!!!
But my best friend(aka ex boyfriend) didn't sigh that means that we won't be in the same classes will be next year.
I'm happy for myself but I feel guilty for being happy with him for some reason.
My tattoo is looking great haha and healing great too.
its oficially monday so ill talk like its monday(but its midnight)
I haven't done anything special (yet).
I will get my grades tomorrow.oh god I've been stressing bc of it so much even before the exams lol(not so much lol)
On friday I am going to go to the sea with a friend of me.we will need to go by train to get there and it will take 1hour.it will be fab with her.she's really happy.no I'm wrong she pretends to be happy but still she makes me happy so I wanted to her to come with me.
OHHH I forgot to mention I've made a new tattoo!!!!I don't have the others I did before so I hope this one stays.it says ''lonely''.its on my leg.I love it........
It has been raining like most of the summer already wtf??so I hope it won't rain on friday.
I will make another tattoo which will be saying '' Il pleure dans mon coeur.''
I don't know why that quote but I boroughed some poetry books from the library and that quote was in it.and I really loved it.so that's why I want it permanent on my body.
Schools out mf!!!
Oh. God finally.
So after the last exam I went home.my bus came later than I was done with school so I decided to walk in the park.I saw Q.(Boy who's cute and smart and ugh)I walked to him and said hi.and so we started to talk :))).
(Like before the exam he gave me help with learning the exam so yeah)
He's really sweet and open minded.
He knows I smoke.so he asked for a cigarette.he was like aw thanks but you could have said no.(Tbh I wanted to flirt with him so I said:but I could have said yes too)and his smile was literally bigger than his face aww.
We walked and talked about my best friend(u know my ex who's still in love with me) and about that girl who he fucked in the same park we walked in haha ironic isn't it.but aww he's so open minded.
We ran out of things to say(it wasn't awkward at all.it was a good silence basically lol)so I said we could talk about love.
He said there's no love in his live.
Let me change that ok
Haha at the he was like our rodes will stop from here or something like that??(It was way more poetic and romantic than what I wrote)
He thanked me for the cigarette and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
Damn boy u may kiss me hard on my face.
It was my dads birthday today.tomorrow we will have a bbq(its kinda a surprise bc he doesn't know who's coming)so there will be like a lot of people I haven't seen in a verrrrrryy long time,over 4 years.
I don't want to tbh.
I normally should work..I've explained it earlier.sigh I really need money.so tomorrow before everyone arrives I have to clean up and my mom wants to pay me for it lol.
C. Started to talk on tumblr ayyy.
Exams are almost over omg.
Only friday monday and tuesday to go.
Err yeah finally my tablet works again.so I can go on tumblr so much more.I think I'm driving my followers crazy cuz I'm blogging way too much lol.
Like yesterday my work called to say that I can't work until something isn't alright.and that fucked up thing could take up like 6weeks.
Well there goes my money to have a nice summer vacation :(
I was so excited to see my co-worker again sigh.she's beautiful I just can't.
I am totally going to fail math so much.I barely studied for it lol.
Sigh I really am.
My mom wanted to have a talk about everthing and yeah so I sat there listening,looking at the ground.she said that she thinks that I don't like them and not interesting in them.she was like or it is us or something is going wrong in your life.then my sister said its for sure not them.I just sat there saying nothing with tears in my eyes.
Basically she said that she understands that I'm a teenager with teenage problems and now I am in a stressful perios bc exams she said she understand lol no its not fucking that.
I've got more problems.in my head.I need fucking help.that's what went on in my head.but as the cunt I am I say nothing and stare.
My sister said that maybe if this will al go on we will need familytherapy.and then she just laughed it off.so did my mom.
I still stared at the ground.
I don't want it either bc I don't want to open up(especially to strangers)
Ugh I am useless.
Update of monday:I don't feel like sharing too much but my mom and dad punched me.
And I cried the whole night.I wanted to cut myself again(but I didn't??) Instead I burned myself.my french exam went good I mean like it wasn't hard and I've lived for 1year in france so yeah.
Update of today;my exam english went great.I didn't have any problems with like nothing.and I finished as first.but like that girl who doesn't even know the difference between to and too was done after me haha no sit your ass down lol.
I don't know what I'm going to do or how to act when my parents will be home sigh.
