OMGG remember how I said it would take like 3weeks to get my new laptop???well,after working 12days (each day 5hours) I've got enough money ahhhhh.
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I'm going to the store on monday before I go to work omfg sooo sooo excited!!
Idk but whenever I gain a follower on tumblr I'm like sigh stop talk to me instead ughhhh
I just want someone to talk to me.
My sister(her boyfriend sleeps over)stole money from my mom again.and she knows how that was the only money they had for now.
She used to steal money from old people and me and her used to steal candy when we lived in france sigh
And my other sister is the source of all the drama at home.
I'm sick of it all.
I'm still busy with working!:))
You know I think I'm one of the only teenagers that are happy to go to work lol.
I get a lot of money and my co-workers are nice to me.so its fine to do.
I think I can buy a laptop at the end of july!!!
This girl at work,helen,I think I like her ha haaaa
Idk man she's nice and all but when she starts to complain about something,you can't let her stop ok.and there is this other cute girl,kim(she sadly only works one day in a week)is really stunning like woaah and I already saw her a couple of times when we took the same bus to home.but never spoke to her before,though.
The only turn off is,she likes justin bieber ugh.
Idk man when I work,time goes so fast.its great cuz it isn't that fun to do.and my co-workers are great too.
I'm planning to buy a laptop.I think I can buy it in like 3 or more weeks.at least I hope so.
My brother broke his arm saturday and now he needs help all the time,even at midnight.he wakes up crying all the fucking time and I haven't slept today ugh so I hope I don't feel too tired at work ugghhhh.
Ayy I'm going to work tomorrow!basically like almost everyday.it isn't what I really want to do as work but still,I'm getting paid.and I can use the money :)
We've got a pool at home so that's where I am most of the time.
My scars are fucking turning even more white ugh.I am still trying to play piano but I get tired of a song very soon so I always want to play another lol.I begun with young and beautiful then rivers flow in you then bel air and now fix you ughhhh
Why can't I stick to one song???
Sigh I went to the library today and I was like an hour too soon..
So I had to wait an hour in the fucking hot sun.
And my friend blew me off ok bye
And my mom threw away my indian ink ha ha ha u kno how much that costed u slut??????
Going to sleep over with a friend tuesday yay!!omfg finally tho bc I want to kiss her tbh..
Idk I sort of have feelings for her but I know she doesn't like me that way ugh at least I won't try to kiss her she has to kiss me first so I'm going to try to give her hints u kno
Ugh it will be a waste of time anyway???
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Like a week ago my ex girlfriend talked again.she basically said that she will be in the same classes ass me.oh wow thanks for ruining my feelings now I only think about how it will be lol
-----------------------------I feel like its getting worse with me.I can't do this.they broke me,darling.
So I bought indian ink and lol turned out to be that I already was using it.
When I went back home I saw one of my good friends.I'm going to sleep with her in a week.ugh u kno I like her ugh.ok no I'm not going to write like that.
I'm having a headache and period cramps sigh I barely can sleep
I went shopping today and I've got new clothes!!
The night before I scrubbed(?)my tattoo off bc it hurted ugh..so I decided to I'm going to buy real india ink ayy I'm so excited lol
I haven't really done anything yet since the summer vacation.so I wanted to at least do something worth doing so I am trying to play the piano lol yeah I'm doing the song young and beautiful by lana del godness.I started yesterday and I already can do the intro lol.I love playing the piano.
I'm going to shop for new clothes tomorrow.wow it has been ages(no not that long but whatever) since I properly went shopping.
oh yeah and friday at the beach was amazing ayy
I passed the exams!!!
But my best friend(aka ex boyfriend) didn't sigh that means that we won't be in the same classes will be next year.
I'm happy for myself but I feel guilty for being happy with him for some reason.
My tattoo is looking great haha and healing great too.
its oficially monday so ill talk like its monday(but its midnight)
I haven't done anything special (yet).
I will get my grades tomorrow.oh god I've been stressing bc of it so much even before the exams lol(not so much lol)
On friday I am going to go to the sea with a friend of me.we will need to go by train to get there and it will take 1hour.it will be fab with her.she's really happy.no I'm wrong she pretends to be happy but still she makes me happy so I wanted to her to come with me.
OHHH I forgot to mention I've made a new tattoo!!!!I don't have the others I did before so I hope this one stays.it says ''lonely''.its on my leg.I love it........
It has been raining like most of the summer already wtf??so I hope it won't rain on friday.
I will make another tattoo which will be saying '' Il pleure dans mon coeur.''
I don't know why that quote but I boroughed some poetry books from the library and that quote was in it.and I really loved it.so that's why I want it permanent on my body.
Schools out mf!!!
Oh. God finally.
So after the last exam I went home.my bus came later than I was done with school so I decided to walk in the park.I saw Q.(Boy who's cute and smart and ugh)I walked to him and said hi.and so we started to talk :))).
(Like before the exam he gave me help with learning the exam so yeah)
He's really sweet and open minded.
He knows I smoke.so he asked for a cigarette.he was like aw thanks but you could have said no.(Tbh I wanted to flirt with him so I said:but I could have said yes too)and his smile was literally bigger than his face aww.
We walked and talked about my best friend(u know my ex who's still in love with me) and about that girl who he fucked in the same park we walked in haha ironic isn't it.but aww he's so open minded.
We ran out of things to say(it wasn't awkward at all.it was a good silence basically lol)so I said we could talk about love.
He said there's no love in his live.
Let me change that ok
Haha at the he was like our rodes will stop from here or something like that??(It was way more poetic and romantic than what I wrote)
He thanked me for the cigarette and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
Damn boy u may kiss me hard on my face.
It was my dads birthday today.tomorrow we will have a bbq(its kinda a surprise bc he doesn't know who's coming)so there will be like a lot of people I haven't seen in a verrrrrryy long time,over 4 years.
I don't want to tbh.
I normally should work..I've explained it earlier.sigh I really need money.so tomorrow before everyone arrives I have to clean up and my mom wants to pay me for it lol.
C. Started to talk on tumblr ayyy.
Exams are almost over omg.
Only friday monday and tuesday to go.
Err yeah finally my tablet works again.so I can go on tumblr so much more.I think I'm driving my followers crazy cuz I'm blogging way too much lol.
Like yesterday my work called to say that I can't work until something isn't alright.and that fucked up thing could take up like 6weeks.
Well there goes my money to have a nice summer vacation :(
I was so excited to see my co-worker again sigh.she's beautiful I just can't.
I am totally going to fail math so much.I barely studied for it lol.
Sigh I really am.
My mom wanted to have a talk about everthing and yeah so I sat there listening,looking at the ground.she said that she thinks that I don't like them and not interesting in them.she was like or it is us or something is going wrong in your life.then my sister said its for sure not them.I just sat there saying nothing with tears in my eyes.
Basically she said that she understands that I'm a teenager with teenage problems and now I am in a stressful perios bc exams she said she understand lol no its not fucking that.
I've got more problems.in my head.I need fucking help.that's what went on in my head.but as the cunt I am I say nothing and stare.
My sister said that maybe if this will al go on we will need familytherapy.and then she just laughed it off.so did my mom.
I still stared at the ground.
I don't want it either bc I don't want to open up(especially to strangers)
Ugh I am useless.
Update of monday:I don't feel like sharing too much but my mom and dad punched me.
And I cried the whole night.I wanted to cut myself again(but I didn't??) Instead I burned myself.my french exam went good I mean like it wasn't hard and I've lived for 1year in france so yeah.
Update of today;my exam english went great.I didn't have any problems with like nothing.and I finished as first.but like that girl who doesn't even know the difference between to and too was done after me haha no sit your ass down lol.
I don't know what I'm going to do or how to act when my parents will be home sigh.
God I'm so tired.I barely slept this weekend bc saturday I had to go to work so I had to be awake at 6am.and today I had to wake up at fucking 10 am to eat while I went to bed at 3am.
But I kept thinking about my attractive co-worker and I feel like I have a tiny crush on her..
Idk it may be or not be but I feel like I like her bc I try to forget my ex-girlfriend.does that makes sense????ugh we will see.
I barely studied for my french exam llol ok
