You asked me several time to take a picture and every time i had an excuse

You wanted that picture to put it on your wall full of memories

Memories you wanted and had with me

But we never took that picture

So you couldn't put it on your wall and there were no memories left

As a child somebody would enter your room to wake you up: "wake up sunshine" or "rise and shine beauty" both things refer to the first beautiful sunlight that will hit your eyes, the light that gives you a reason to wake up. And everyday there is a new chance to discover it.

I hope you woke up with this and has got a smile on your face

Good morning, rise and shine like never before, because you were my sunlight :) x

Still every night in bed i wonder why ?

Why did all of this happen ?

Why do i keep trying to text ?

Why do i keep looking for answers ?

Why oh why ?

I guess that i can say that i was stupid, stupid enough to let you go.

I always realize things when they are to late

Now i know i love you but you are already gone

So it's true you only know you love her when you let her go

Liefste A,

Ik weet dat jij alles anders ziet.

Dat je moeilijker iemand kan vertrouwen, dat je een slecht voorbeeld hebt gehad, noem maar op...

Ik dacht dat je me begreep en dat je wist dat je op me kon rekenen en me vertrouwen.

Ik heb je al gezegd hoe ik me voelde, dat er nog geen gevoelens waren maar dat ik er wel zou kunnen krijgen enzo, dat ik u om eerlijk te zijn 'wel zag zitten'.

Ik vraag me af of er dan helemaal niets was van jou kant ? Niets gevoelens ? Niet van mogelijkheden ?

Ik weet dat het hier eigenlijk te laat voor is maag ik zou hier heel graag antwoorden op krijgen. Moest je dit dus lezen alsjeblieft laat me iets weten.

Somebody you used to know

I wanted you

You got me, i didn't got you

I needed you

I helped you, you didn't help me

I waited for you

I kept waiting, you moved on

Now i lost you, you will never lose me

The moment i saw you

I saw something special, there was just something about you

Something mysterious, something beautiful

And first i didn't know what it was, but not long after that i discovered

It was the smile

A smile that said more than words ever could explain

A smile that since that day could light up my way

So tell me was i wrong ?

I thought that we could be something for real

You said your heart was broken so i almost gave you mine

Unfortunately we both have to go down our own roads and see where they will bring us

If our paths will cross another time is not sure

But know that you will always have a special place inside my heart

 And i will never forget you

Everyday i got remembered about things we did together or about something i did for you

I remember how you had cold and i give you my jacket, twice  

How i road more than an our on my bike just to say hello and how you were testing my by starting to cry to keep me with you

How we massaged each other after a long day

How i came to your room to say that i was sorry

And that is just a small piece of every memory i have about you 

When i lost you a piece of me died with it

The part in me that made me write text to express my feelings

With you, i lost my muse, my reason, my inspiration

It hurts a lot but from one point you have to move on and try not to look back

The first period it is difficult and you will look back

After a wile it fades away but you can't help it and will look back

But at the end it didn't kill you, it made you stronger

It made you till the person you are now

You were never supposed to mean so much to me

I thought that you would be some "normal" friend who i could laugh and chat with

But i was wrong you became someone i trusted 

Someone to who i became attached

Someone i couldn't miss

Now i have to miss you without any reason and that hurts

These days are the hardest for me to fall into sleep

I have to force myself to be exhausted before i can even try to sleep

Every evening i have to think about everything that has happened and how it went wrong

I still can't figure out why it all happened and that hurts

I gave up on you

You didn't want me to be the one for you

I would have done everything

Just to see that beautiful smile and to let your tears fade away

But now i know i have to let you go

And move on like a train leaving his station

Is begins slowly but it goes faster and faster 

You can blow up bridges and telling there is notting left

But if you really want something you can built up a new bridge so you can walk towards each-other to tell that there is always some ash you can rise up from

Even now i am still thinking about what we could have been

I can't explain why but you were someone special to me and you meant more then you will ever realize

I miss you so much

 

Love can be sweet

Love can be hard

It can break everything and drive you apart

But let it never skip a heartbeat 

Stay strong and carry on

Because you're not alone

I never thought that i would tell you but i have to be honest

I really thought that i could fall in love with you

I didn't but i could

You were the right girl and i believed that you could be the one that sets me free because i never told such things to anyone ever in my life

But unfortunately you only know you love her when you let her go 

I thought i knew the real you

The beautiful kind girl that was always ready to help people

But then i met the other part of you

The part that could make from her hart a stone and could blow me away like some dust in the air