You were never supposed to mean so much to me

I thought that you would be some "normal" friend who i could laugh and chat with

But i was wrong you became someone i trusted 

Someone to who i became attached

Someone i couldn't miss

Now i have to miss you without any reason and that hurts

These days are the hardest for me to fall into sleep

I have to force myself to be exhausted before i can even try to sleep

Every evening i have to think about everything that has happened and how it went wrong

I still can't figure out why it all happened and that hurts

I gave up on you

You didn't want me to be the one for you

I would have done everything

Just to see that beautiful smile and to let your tears fade away

But now i know i have to let you go

And move on like a train leaving his station

Is begins slowly but it goes faster and faster 

You can blow up bridges and telling there is notting left

But if you really want something you can built up a new bridge so you can walk towards each-other to tell that there is always some ash you can rise up from

Even now i am still thinking about what we could have been

I can't explain why but you were someone special to me and you meant more then you will ever realize

I miss you so much

 

Love can be sweet

Love can be hard

It can break everything and drive you apart

But let it never skip a heartbeat 

Stay strong and carry on

Because you're not alone

I never thought that i would tell you but i have to be honest

I really thought that i could fall in love with you

I didn't but i could

You were the right girl and i believed that you could be the one that sets me free because i never told such things to anyone ever in my life

But unfortunately you only know you love her when you let her go 

I thought i knew the real you

The beautiful kind girl that was always ready to help people

But then i met the other part of you

The part that could make from her hart a stone and could blow me away like some dust in the air 

I am so sick of all this

My hart didn't break even

If you could see me now you would see how terrible i feel

Were did i go wrong ?

I lost a friend

Never ever would i have thought that i would let a girl into my hart again

You succeeded in opening that door and entering it

But you forgot that exiting it, is easy for you but the harder for me

So please stay inside

Like the stars can light up a night

You can light up my life

You can cheer me up at my saddest moments sometimes just with your smile

I will always love you my little star

Why am i always so stupid to try fix things when it is impossible

And when i try i often make it worse

I the problems are even bigger

Life is maybe too short to worry about everything

But it is long enough to not rush things

Sometimes you need to slow down and take a pause before you can move on

Why do i keep messing up things ?

I don't know what is wrong with me but for some reason i just can't hold a bond

I screw up things every time just like with you i had what i wanted and now there isn't something left of it

Every now and then i think to myself why ?

Why do i live ?

Why do i exist ?

But then i see you and i know the reason

We often just joke about missing each other and thinking about the other at random moments 

like when i am training for example

Well actually i sometimes do think about you

Nothing special but you sometimes slip into my mind

You treat me like just another person

One like there are ten million others

But i try to be different

I guess that the others would have thrown their towel in the ring and had given up

But i am not giving up on you

And i never will

On the outside i may look like i am 10 feet tall

But inside me i am way smaller than you think

When you think that i am confident about myself but notting is more wrong than that