The moment i saw you

I saw something special, there was just something about you

Something mysterious, something beautiful

And first i didn't know what it was, but not long after that i discovered

It was the smile

A smile that said more than words ever could explain

A smile that since that day could light up my way

So tell me was i wrong ?

I thought that we could be something for real

You said your heart was broken so i almost gave you mine

Unfortunately we both have to go down our own roads and see where they will bring us

If our paths will cross another time is not sure

But know that you will always have a special place inside my heart

 And i will never forget you

Everyday i got remembered about things we did together or about something i did for you

I remember how you had cold and i give you my jacket, twice  

How i road more than an our on my bike just to say hello and how you were testing my by starting to cry to keep me with you

How we massaged each other after a long day

How i came to your room to say that i was sorry

And that is just a small piece of every memory i have about you 

When i lost you a piece of me died with it

The part in me that made me write text to express my feelings

With you, i lost my muse, my reason, my inspiration

It hurts a lot but from one point you have to move on and try not to look back

The first period it is difficult and you will look back

After a wile it fades away but you can't help it and will look back

But at the end it didn't kill you, it made you stronger

It made you till the person you are now

You were never supposed to mean so much to me

I thought that you would be some "normal" friend who i could laugh and chat with

But i was wrong you became someone i trusted 

Someone to who i became attached

Someone i couldn't miss

Now i have to miss you without any reason and that hurts

These days are the hardest for me to fall into sleep

I have to force myself to be exhausted before i can even try to sleep

Every evening i have to think about everything that has happened and how it went wrong

I still can't figure out why it all happened and that hurts

I gave up on you

You didn't want me to be the one for you

I would have done everything

Just to see that beautiful smile and to let your tears fade away

But now i know i have to let you go

And move on like a train leaving his station

Is begins slowly but it goes faster and faster 

You can blow up bridges and telling there is notting left

But if you really want something you can built up a new bridge so you can walk towards each-other to tell that there is always some ash you can rise up from

Even now i am still thinking about what we could have been

I can't explain why but you were someone special to me and you meant more then you will ever realize

I miss you so much

 

Love can be sweet

Love can be hard

It can break everything and drive you apart

But let it never skip a heartbeat 

Stay strong and carry on

Because you're not alone

I never thought that i would tell you but i have to be honest

I really thought that i could fall in love with you

I didn't but i could

You were the right girl and i believed that you could be the one that sets me free because i never told such things to anyone ever in my life

But unfortunately you only know you love her when you let her go 

I thought i knew the real you

The beautiful kind girl that was always ready to help people

But then i met the other part of you

The part that could make from her hart a stone and could blow me away like some dust in the air 

I am so sick of all this

My hart didn't break even

If you could see me now you would see how terrible i feel

Were did i go wrong ?

I lost a friend

Never ever would i have thought that i would let a girl into my hart again

You succeeded in opening that door and entering it

But you forgot that exiting it, is easy for you but the harder for me

So please stay inside

Like the stars can light up a night

You can light up my life

You can cheer me up at my saddest moments sometimes just with your smile

I will always love you my little star

Why am i always so stupid to try fix things when it is impossible

And when i try i often make it worse

I the problems are even bigger

Life is maybe too short to worry about everything

But it is long enough to not rush things

Sometimes you need to slow down and take a pause before you can move on

Why do i keep messing up things ?

I don't know what is wrong with me but for some reason i just can't hold a bond

I screw up things every time just like with you i had what i wanted and now there isn't something left of it