You are and will always be someone special to me

When we "started" talking to each other i thought i had passed a difficult period

But that wasn't true i didn't pass it, i was still in it

And maybe you didn't do much but just by listening you helped me through

There is just one thing to say

Thank you

Even that i know that there is no need missing you and our texting 

I still do and i don't know why...

I could be the one that makes you feel that way

I could be the one that sets you free

As long as you aren't the one that got away

You can always be the one for me

I wonder what would you say if you could see me know

Would you tap me on the back and criticize me for being back happy again ?

Probably not, you would just ignore me like you always did

But now it is different for me. You can't hurt me anymore.

I was become air for you but now you are just dust to me so i can blow you away straight down the drain

I don't know why but i can't sleep

And if i can't sleep i always start thinking about things...

Things that keeps me busy

So sometimes i am thinking about you and i come always to the same conclusion:

I love you

Once upon a time there was a mother who read to her children bedtime stories one time it was about knights and princesses

another time it was about animals and there lives

The times it was about princesses there was always the same end to it

A princess kissed to sleep by a nice man who loved her (not always a prince) and they lived happily ever after

The mother hoped by reading those bedtime stories the children knew that they would find someone and would live happy with someone they could love and loved them

Sweat dreams little princess ;)

I know you want to protect yourself for being hurt

That is maybe the answer why you keep pushing me away

I wish I could promise you i won't hurt you but I am more afraid to hurt myself

I don't want to let you down but for some reason i always succeed in it

I can't let you go unless you show me how

I just want to protect you not only for the world but for me

Like i already said a few times

I hate arguments with you

I care about you more then about me getting my right

So please lets stop with it and try again ?

I don't want to argue with you

I just can't because every time it gets serious I just want to take the blame because I want to end it

We both can be stubborn but i can't be it around you, you just make me weak and i don't know exactly why but possibly because i really care about you and our connection

"Missing someone who doesn't miss you,

Makes you feel like a complete idiot"

When you are ready to fall asleep there has to be a smile on your face otherwise you can't dream about tomorrow and the future and you are just stuck in the past and that would be a waste of time

So keep smiling even in bed

Sweat dreams

When the darkness falls at night i feel alone but then i got your messages and my whole life lights up and there is no darkness anymore

That is the only reason i don't fall a sleep crying and thinking about her but smiling and thinking about you and happier times

Just before i go to sleep i think about everything that has happened that day and about people that i care about, people that i miss or people i don't want to miss

So you are mostly i my thoughts

Every girl deserves to be treated like a princess

That is what purpose every man should have in his life

Maybe not because she deserves it but just because you love her

The sunlight in the morning is a beautiful thing when you see it you know there is a new day with new changes to make something right or just to try not to mess up something

That is why i can say

Good morning

You can call the night scary maybe just because of its darkness or because of the people that are on the street then

For me it is because of the memories that come up just before i go to sleep, not because it are bad memories, but because i know they will never take place again with her

When i lost her as a best friend it has hurt me so much

But now i am afraid that i get used to the pain

And that doesn't mean i care less about you