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10-12-2015
Why do I keep falling for the wrong girls. Every time I can see it coming but every time I fall for them and get hurt falling for nothing.
Vroeger toen ik iets wou zeggen schreef ik gewoon een tekstje maar nu komt het er niet meer zo gemakkelijk uit...
Ik probeer u iets te duidelijk maar ik vind de juiste woorden niet. Waarschijnlijk is het gewoon omdat ik bang ben voor het antwoord. Maar toch...
Toen ik gedronken had ging het toch iets gemakkelijker maar toen had je het niet door of dacht je dat ik het niet meende door de drank, geen idee. Op dat moment wou ik eigenlijk maar 1 ding maar ik durfde gewoon niet. Dus heb ik u maar gewoon goed vastgepakt en lossen wou ik niet maar het moest wel.
I really don't know why but I can't get you out of my head. I know we've just met a couple of times. But it feels like I have known you for years. Every text I get, I hope it's yours. Luckily for me it is often you. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think. So please give me a sign.
I've been fooled before. And I don't want to be again. I don't know if you're just playing with me or if you don't see what's going on. I just know that I won't let it happen again.
Nu krijg ik u natuurlijk helemaal niet meer uit mijn hoofd eh. Ik heb het geprobeerd een plaats te geven maar het lukt mij niet.
Bij elke fiat 500 die ik zie rijden, bij elke mooie glimlach, bij het horen van "breakeven", bij alles schieten de gedachten van vorig jaar weer door mijn hoofd. Bij elke sms die ik krijg hoop ik dat jij het bent, ook al weet ik dat het nooit zo zal zijn. Het is echt moeilijk om niet toe te geven dat ik u eigenlijk gewoon zo hard mis. En dan wil ik u een bericht sturen, typ ik 5x een bericht om het 5x terug te verwijderen omdat ik weet dat ik moet verder gaan.
In days like these you know what you miss. When you feel lonely but you won't admit it. That you almost have to stay up so late you're eyes close from exhaustion or otherwise you just have to cry and think about everything that has happened and could have happened. The only thing i know now is that i have loved you and that because I've let you go.
We all have experienced a lot. One person more than the other. But we all have our demons. I'm willing to take mine into my own hands. And face whatever is waiting for me in my future. But sometimes that means leaving behind something from the past.
A lot of time has pasted and now finally there are some night i don't think about what happened. That i don't think about what went wrong. That i don't think about what could have happened. That i don't think about you.
I don't know why i still care but for some reason i do. Maybe it is because i know you that long or maybe it isn't, i really don't know. I think i have tried everything i could but even that was not enough. I guess there will be a reason for all these times you just let me standing and waiting somewhere. Probably even good reasons but one moment you just have had it. And it doesn't seems there is still a reason to fight for something that just came from one side. Friendship
I remember the first time we were put together in physics. We didn't really know each other. I randomly started to sing "breakeven" and at first you may have looked a little bit strange but in matter of seconds you sang with me. The moment a connection was made and some great moments began.
I know i may sound pathetic but i don't care anymore, i have showed and told you how i felt. I showed you the most vulnerable side of me and you showed me your back and left me for the piece of trash i was. I thought you were different from what everybody told me you were, but they were right. You're just another girl playing with my feelings.
I gave you my everything but i guess that didn't mean anything to you
I loved you just the way you are
And you just played me like the fool i was
I now start to realize that I didn't mean a thing for you, that everything was just a big act and that you wouldn't even mind if I wasn't there
Will it ever get better ? Will i ever forget ?
I would love to say yes but I know it will be hard
Because i promised myself a lot of times that i would stop caring but every night again it slips back inside my mind believe me i tried to forget but "what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?"
