wat er in me omgaat , wat ik leer, en voel...
13-02-2009
two years ago i have been writing a lot about my appartment.
now it has been a while and looooots of things have been changed.
first of all, all my furnuture is here, it is realy nice . and i realy feel like home!
i made something cosy of it,with a lot of help and support of friends and family, and i ame proud if it!
but a few months ago i heared that it would be sold! and i started pannicking.
i didn't have work, i didn't have savings, ...
where would i have to go...???
the prices today for hiring an appartment are waaaayyy too high for me!
and buying this appartment, ??? no i did'nt think i could!
i was desperate and started looking after a new and cheep appartment for renting.
i got even more desperate, because the appartments i saw where verry expensive or to small for my toes.
I needed to earn more and sell a lot of my stuff.
i started giving up and tought "there will come something forward."
and that is what happened.!!!
someone helped me, i think i have a great gardian angel!
i got a job, as customer assistent, it is not a tuff job, but not easy !
i have good collegues , and we have a lot of fun!
and the job made it possible for me to get a lone .
but that was not the only help i got! i have my reasons not to tell who or what but (wie het schoentje past trekke het aan!)
i thank you!!!!
i realy realy do, no one knows how much this means to me!
finaly i'me getting at ease.
thank you! thank you! thank you!
and i say this to all the peoples who helped, supported and listened, in any kind of way!
13-02-2009 om 00:02
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'WIE EEN DUIDELIJKE VRAAG STEL T ,
KRIJG T EEN DUIDELIJK ANTWOORD'
'WIE EEN BELANGRIJKE VRAAG STEL T ,
KRIJG T EEN BELANGRIJK ANTWOORD'
'WIE EEN JUISTE VRAAG STEL T ,
KRIJG T EEN JUIST ANTWOORD'
DOCH
'WIE HET JUIS T E EN MOOIE
HERKEN T , BELICH T EN GENIE T ?
IN HEEL ZIJN WEZEN?
BEVEEL T ZIJN LICHAAM NAAR ZIJN GEEST'
uit EXCALIBUR
13-02-2009 om 00:01
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12-02-2009
could wish you all a merry christmass, and a happy newyear,
but this year i intend to tell you something else:
it is not by just receving luck ,
and good fortune,
that you will appreciate it .
it is by experiencyng the bad things,
that you see how lucky you are
with little good things.
it is by beeing sick,
that you will know how lucky you are
when you're healty.
it is in the dark,
that you will see how much lite
a small candle gives!
keep these things in mind,
for you cant see how beautifull
it is in the vally,
till you reach the top of the mountain.
in ethernal love and peace
elfke
12-02-2009 om 23:59
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I allways wanted to be rich,
but all i ever recieved was money.
I allways wanted to be lucky,
but all i ever got was luck.
I allways wanted to be a lady,
but all i was given was my body.
I allways wanted to be loved,
but all i got was love.
I always wanted to be free,
but all i had was freedom.
until i found you:
you made me an lucky lady,
who's free to love and be loved.
and that's the most precious gift in life
12-02-2009 om 23:58
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The Legend Of Avalon
Beyond the shadows of the sun
Mage and Lorelord combine their might
Before the radiant host they fly
12-02-2009 om 23:57
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comming home,
walking trough the feelds,
with a beautifull, colorfull,
and heartwarming sunset on the left.
Longing to be home,
wishing to hold you, to see you,
to care for you again.
Green feelds,feeding annimals,
and mistyc forests,
with red yellow and orange colors,
like youve never seen before,
all around me.
Some small white clouds,
looking like wool,
passing accross the fine blue sky.
Telling the birds to comfort me.
finely i eas up,
because after all....
I'me coming home
12-02-2009 om 23:57
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The Invitation
It doesnt interest me what you do for a living. It doesnt interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
© Mountaindreaming, from the book The Invitation published by HarperSanFrancisco, 1999 All rights reserved
12-02-2009 om 23:56
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Antwerp was alive the past weekend,
we had a sultan for a visit!
it was not a normal sultan.
he has got an elephant as tall as a buildin of four high.
and a raket with a princes in,
who can travel trough time.
i went to take a look!
it was giagantic....
enormous! far above imagination!
for a moment i felt like a smal kid who listens to a fairytale!
it was as if i was a part of all what happened.
the elephant and the prinses where (mechanical) giants,
but it all feld ,for a breaf moment , as if it was real!
the little princes had been racing the elephant in the morning,
so she was verry tired when i saw here. she just sat on the slurf of the elephant.
i took a lot of pictures and ofcours you can look at them in my album
the pictures say nothing about the feeling i had!
i realy feld like a little kid!
just great!
12-02-2009 om 23:55
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when i dance,
i feel who i ame.
when i dance,
i come there where now words are.
when i dance,
i create.
in every creation is silence.
when i dance,
i feel silence move in me.
when i dance,
i feel life twinkeling in me.
when i dance,
i feel how heaven loves the earth!
12-02-2009 om 23:53
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yesterday i went to the park nearby,
it was already late when i arived there.
i wanted to drink something with a frend.
after talking a little and sitting on the terras,
i had to deside what to do, because we where getting cold.
go inside or taking a walk!
i realy don't like making desisions.
but i had to so i choose for the walk.
and we went into the park!
it was so much fun!
i hugged a tree and he gave me some of his heat!
he gave so much releaf,
my breath went slower, my heart went slower.
i could easily have felt asleep right next to the tree.
a little later we where walking again,
and i saw two trees
right next to eachother,
in perfect harmonie
each with his own space, without disturbing the other.
it seemed they had to tel me something.
we even saw an elfenseat!( thats how we call it!)
and a cat came to say hello.
it was a great walk, a perfect evening.
thx (wie het schoentje past trekke het aan)
12-02-2009 om 23:53
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While shanti( the doughter of my boyfrend) was here a frend of mine came by.
shanti asked here what is your name?
well my love she said, my name is nazha.
"Nazha? thats a strange name, i never heard of it before." said shanti.
she turned her head and started playing.
we where talking and she was playing, when suddenly
shanti came to nazha and said:
" Nazha and Sarah"
nazha was completely stuned.
she said:" why do you say that?"
" because thats a more easy way to remember your name " said shanti.
" well my love i will tell you something, you know there is a baby in my thummy,
and i had already been thinking of a name. sinds it will be a girl we thought of' sarah'.
thats why i was so surprised!"
"cool "said shanti.and she startedrubbing the tummy of nazha
i went almost creazy
12-02-2009 om 23:52
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today is my birthday!!!
i thought my boyfrend had to work all weekend and also today!
he had told me so...
yesterday he was free, and asked me if i wanted to go for a walk.
i said yes ofcourse, where do we go to , for a walk?
he said :" i donot know yet, but it has to be something that is connected with your personality."
so we get in the car and start driving....
i already had the idee that he knew verry wel where he was going to.
i said:" well where do we go to?"
he was driving the high way and i noticed he realy knew where he was going to.
we went to durbuy!
the smalest town in europe, but a verry cute one.
and i realy, realy, realy like it in that invironement.
we had something to drink on a terras, went for a walk trough the little village,
had some more to drink, and suddenly he said:
" lets take a visit to your mum, after all it is your birthday tomorrow, and we are in the neigberhoud."
so we went over there.
when we arrived my brother and sister where there to,
it was a great evening with all of us.
we had dinner together, talked about all kind of things, and had a lot of fun!
my brother and sister had not yet seen jerry(my boyfrend), and where positively surprised.
we could stay there to sleep so that was even more fun.
this morning we had breakfast on the terras .
it was a great surprise, and i dit not know a thing about it.
i yust thought we went for a walk!
stupid me!!!
12-02-2009 om 23:50
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today Shanti,
the little doughter of my boyfrend,
came to me.
she was almost crying and panniced.
I asked what was wrong, and she opened her mouth.
she told me she was playing with the lock of her earring,
and it got stuk between two of her teath.
damn,...
Its not my doughter, i didnt want to heart her!
i tryed to remove it with my fingers, but that didn't work.
so i sayd to her i would fix it, and told her to close her eyes.
i took a toothpicker and putted it under the little lock.
i had to use a lot of force,
but eventualy after asking for help to my higher self and all nature forces
the little lock got out!
you see, even kids can teachyou a lot!
12-02-2009 om 23:49
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Deliver me, out of my sadness.
sarah brightman & enya
12-02-2009 om 23:43
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love is beatifull,
love is warm.
it opens up your heart,
your mind and soul.
in love it's easy to give,
because of what you get.
in love anything is posible,
for you're never alone.
in love you feel special,
because you are special.
in love ,
life is the greatest reward.
12-02-2009 om 23:42
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i wanna tell everyone about life.
in my life there has been so much haertache and pain,
troubles and missery.
sometimes i thought why do i go on?
somethimes i hated myself.
but with all this ,
i never stoped believing.
once someone told me:
"miracles do happend, if only you believe"
well i got my miracle now.
i met a guy, he is more then i ever hoped for,
he treats me like a lady, like a princes,
he is nice and gentle,
strong and tuff.
he protects me, and loves me,
he is my prince!
so what i want to tell to everyone is:
whatever comes your way,
never stop believing,
once you will experience happines and joy.
because: "miracles do happend if only you believe"
12-02-2009 om 23:41
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a thousand raindrops comming down
falling on my head,
warm soft and
oohh so tender.
wather running down my fase
over my eyes and my cheeks.
rapped in a dress of wather
created by mother nature.
i feel the strength of it
cleaning my heart and my soul
taking all negativity
down to the earth.
where it is turned
in to positive energy.
so all menkind can enjoy.
suddenly i wake up
i was only in the shower.
felt just great.
enjoy it
12-02-2009 om 23:39
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Atra gülai un ilian tauthr ono un atra ono waise skölir frà rauthr
Atra esterni ono thelduin
Mor'ranr lifa unin hjarta ono
Un du evarinya ono varda
******
Moge geluk en voorspoed uw deel zijn en moge tegenspoed u bespaard blijven
Moge het lot u gunstig gezind zijn
Moge er vrede rusten in uw hart
en mogen de sterren waken over u
******
12-02-2009 om 23:37
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beeing ill is the worst thing in life.
no outside
only inside
and a visible ilusion of what you have to mis.
cant take it anymore
so open the window
the cold air surrounding me instantly
making my skin freez.
the sound of the wind in the trees.
tok, tok, a stick falling out of the tree
hitting him a few times
before touching the ground.
the grass , not completely green
but with the finest icecristals
knispering under the feet of a
small tiny rabit.
a shadow pasing bye
of a bird
kraa kraaa,
its a crow caling out to world
all of this
makes me wanna go out
go out and dance
in the warmth
of the soft rays of the sun
12-02-2009 om 23:36
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wi kan ik voor je zijn,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees ontvankelijk als de aarde
wees aanstekelijk als het vuur
wees verkwikkend als het water
wees zachtmoedig als de wind
wie kan ik voor je zijn,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees een zon die ijs doet smelten
wees een bloem die vreugde geeft
wees de lucht die alles zuivert
wees een meer dat rust verschaft
wie kan ik voor je zijn,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees een weg voor hen die dwalen
wees een brug die samen brengt
wees een huis voor hen die vluchten
wees een haard die warmte schenkt
wie kan ik voor je zijn ,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees een mens die blijft geloven
wees een mens die opnieuw begint
wees een mens die nog kan hopen
een mens die zondermeer bemind.
12-02-2009 om 23:34
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