wat er in me omgaat , wat ik leer, en voel...
12-02-2009
today is my birthday!!!
i thought my boyfrend had to work all weekend and also today!
he had told me so...
yesterday he was free, and asked me if i wanted to go for a walk.
i said yes ofcourse, where do we go to , for a walk?
he said :" i donot know yet, but it has to be something that is connected with your personality."
so we get in the car and start driving....
i already had the idee that he knew verry wel where he was going to.
i said:" well where do we go to?"
he was driving the high way and i noticed he realy knew where he was going to.
we went to durbuy!
the smalest town in europe, but a verry cute one.
and i realy, realy, realy like it in that invironement.
we had something to drink on a terras, went for a walk trough the little village,
had some more to drink, and suddenly he said:
" lets take a visit to your mum, after all it is your birthday tomorrow, and we are in the neigberhoud."
so we went over there.
when we arrived my brother and sister where there to,
it was a great evening with all of us.
we had dinner together, talked about all kind of things, and had a lot of fun!
my brother and sister had not yet seen jerry(my boyfrend), and where positively surprised.
we could stay there to sleep so that was even more fun.
this morning we had breakfast on the terras .
it was a great surprise, and i dit not know a thing about it.
i yust thought we went for a walk!
stupid me!!!
12-02-2009 om 23:50
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today Shanti,
the little doughter of my boyfrend,
came to me.
she was almost crying and panniced.
I asked what was wrong, and she opened her mouth.
she told me she was playing with the lock of her earring,
and it got stuk between two of her teath.
damn,...
Its not my doughter, i didnt want to heart her!
i tryed to remove it with my fingers, but that didn't work.
so i sayd to her i would fix it, and told her to close her eyes.
i took a toothpicker and putted it under the little lock.
i had to use a lot of force,
but eventualy after asking for help to my higher self and all nature forces
the little lock got out!
you see, even kids can teachyou a lot!
12-02-2009 om 23:49
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Deliver me, out of my sadness.
sarah brightman & enya
12-02-2009 om 23:43
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love is beatifull,
love is warm.
it opens up your heart,
your mind and soul.
in love it's easy to give,
because of what you get.
in love anything is posible,
for you're never alone.
in love you feel special,
because you are special.
in love ,
life is the greatest reward.
12-02-2009 om 23:42
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i wanna tell everyone about life.
in my life there has been so much haertache and pain,
troubles and missery.
sometimes i thought why do i go on?
somethimes i hated myself.
but with all this ,
i never stoped believing.
once someone told me:
"miracles do happend, if only you believe"
well i got my miracle now.
i met a guy, he is more then i ever hoped for,
he treats me like a lady, like a princes,
he is nice and gentle,
strong and tuff.
he protects me, and loves me,
he is my prince!
so what i want to tell to everyone is:
whatever comes your way,
never stop believing,
once you will experience happines and joy.
because: "miracles do happend if only you believe"
12-02-2009 om 23:41
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a thousand raindrops comming down
falling on my head,
warm soft and
oohh so tender.
wather running down my fase
over my eyes and my cheeks.
rapped in a dress of wather
created by mother nature.
i feel the strength of it
cleaning my heart and my soul
taking all negativity
down to the earth.
where it is turned
in to positive energy.
so all menkind can enjoy.
suddenly i wake up
i was only in the shower.
felt just great.
enjoy it
12-02-2009 om 23:39
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Atra gülai un ilian tauthr ono un atra ono waise skölir frà rauthr
Atra esterni ono thelduin
Mor'ranr lifa unin hjarta ono
Un du evarinya ono varda
******
Moge geluk en voorspoed uw deel zijn en moge tegenspoed u bespaard blijven
Moge het lot u gunstig gezind zijn
Moge er vrede rusten in uw hart
en mogen de sterren waken over u
******
12-02-2009 om 23:37
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beeing ill is the worst thing in life.
no outside
only inside
and a visible ilusion of what you have to mis.
cant take it anymore
so open the window
the cold air surrounding me instantly
making my skin freez.
the sound of the wind in the trees.
tok, tok, a stick falling out of the tree
hitting him a few times
before touching the ground.
the grass , not completely green
but with the finest icecristals
knispering under the feet of a
small tiny rabit.
a shadow pasing bye
of a bird
kraa kraaa,
its a crow caling out to world
all of this
makes me wanna go out
go out and dance
in the warmth
of the soft rays of the sun
12-02-2009 om 23:36
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wi kan ik voor je zijn,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees ontvankelijk als de aarde
wees aanstekelijk als het vuur
wees verkwikkend als het water
wees zachtmoedig als de wind
wie kan ik voor je zijn,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees een zon die ijs doet smelten
wees een bloem die vreugde geeft
wees de lucht die alles zuivert
wees een meer dat rust verschaft
wie kan ik voor je zijn,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees een weg voor hen die dwalen
wees een brug die samen brengt
wees een huis voor hen die vluchten
wees een haard die warmte schenkt
wie kan ik voor je zijn ,
wat kan ik voor je doen?
wees een mens die blijft geloven
wees een mens die opnieuw begint
wees een mens die nog kan hopen
een mens die zondermeer bemind.
12-02-2009 om 23:34
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walking trough the mists,
of an early morning in the forest.
nothing to hear,
but my own footsteps
and sounds of nature.
a bird saying hello,
some foxes,
talking about last night.
and looking for a desert.
suddenly i feel company,
look around,
but there's nothing to see.
the mist is to thick
the sun,
doing everything to break trough
gets a reward for her labor.
she made a hole,
in the clouds,
and starts shining down on me.
nature is waking up.
12-02-2009 om 23:33
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A time of peace,
a time of joy,
happiness all around uss.
Familly and friends,
poeples we like,
we spend this time with them.
Beëing together,
round the fireplace,
preparing and having a wonderfull dinner.
Some peoples don't have this luxury.
some peoples have no family,
or dont have the monney,
to create a bigg party.
Some peoples live in the cold,
fight with friends or neighbours.
lets think of them!
And create a wonderfull, peacefull and
warm world for everyone.
right in the middle of our heart.
With love i create this place
for every man, woman
and child.
but also for every animal, plant,...
or lets just say:
for the whole universe.
happy elfke
12-02-2009 om 23:32
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light a candle in the dark,
let the light into your hart.
dont make a fist,
carres that what was hard.
light a candle in the dark,
bring peace there where you go.
spread your arms and listen
to the peoples in the flow.
light a candle in the dark,
honer what is fragile and small.
be patient tilll the end,
let love be where you are.
in love and light.
12-02-2009 om 23:31
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It's time for our 12-02-2009 om 23:29
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every day,
i grow bigger and bether
in every way
i ame
the love, the light, and the wisdom
that you are looking for.
look at me
and see the unit,
see the light of love
in yourself!
lots of love , peace and understanding
for this time of the year!
for every time of the year!
for always*
12-02-2009 om 23:27
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first snow came down.
tikkeling my nose,
and freezing my ears.
turning everithing white.
the little footsteps of a bird,
coming closer to peoples,
to be able to drink.
the sun standing low in the sky,
doing the best she can,
to give some heat,
to menkind and nature.
at night
when i look outside,
i wanna go out, bare foot,
and dance in the light of the moon.
thank you mother naure for this beatifull time of the year.
12-02-2009 om 23:26
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yesterday i went to the park with a frend.
there where some kids there, they had such a good time!
they started making a circle.
putted a candle in the middle, and started dansing and singing.
they sang a song for our mother, goddes, the moon and our father, god ,the earth.
they sang about autumn, the wind, the trees...
they were all dressed as witches, and blew some serpentine in the circle.
afterwards they took the ends of the papers and made a web,
over the circle.
conected ass they were they started dansing again.
it was beautiful to see.
it as so pure , and natural.
i loved it.
happy elfke
12-02-2009 om 23:25
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have been discovering myself lately.
i found out that i have some problems with love!
i always thought i did'nt give enough love , or the wrong love.
seems that that was not the problem.
i do give the right love and enough love and i do everything right,
but i think i do it wrong , and thats the reason for my failure.
the biggest problem is , i cant accept that someone realy loves me to!
and therefor i do not reseve the love,
i close myself or start creating problems so the person who loves me cant get the chance to realy show his love.
you probably think, why do you do this?
if i would know i wouldn't do it.
i think it is because of all i already experienced in the past, i think i'me frightened to get hurt again if i love someone.
therefor i wont let myself be loved or wont let myself love someone.
now that i know all this i can start working on it!
and i will.
i ame a nice and gentle girl who deserves to love and to be loved.
so why wouldn't i .
with love happy elfke
12-02-2009 om 23:23
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everuthing is os much more fun if you can share it!
that's why i now share my appartment with someone new in my life!
yes indeed you read it good! i got someone to live with me!
it is a man, he is 13 jears old and is oooohhh so nice to me.
you'll think, 13???
yeah it is a cat!
he loves it here, he is so sweet , his name is skunk!
a black and white cat! i'me so happy to have him.
and he needed a home so!
the more we share , the more we get!
if you share with love, (not in fear!), you'll see more luck komes to you!
you'll reseve more love, you'll get a great feeling and everithing goes bether.
whats fun if you can not share? not much i think.
you know, it even frightens me to think that there might be a time that i won't be able to share!
but ass fear is the worst guide in ones life , i do not listen to it.
i do listen to it but i transform it in love and trust!
more peoples should do so!
in love and light
with a sharing hart!
12-02-2009 om 23:21
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this morning i realized that it had been a long time since i wrote something for the last.
i almost got angry with myself but desided that it had been best like this.
i needed the time to adjust to my new home and several new sytuations.
i also needed some rest! after all the hard work!
and actualy i still need some rest, but not that much anymore.
i like my new appartment and i love the city life.
but when my mum came to tell me she and her boyfriend have bought a house in walonie,
i could not get a breath!
it was like: aaaaaaaahhhhh now there's no way back!
i paniced for a sec! but didn't show it!
i told her i was so happy for her, and hoped it would work out fine!
now well it did. two days later she had bought it officialy!
by that time i had had time to get used to the idee
Well i supose it has to be like that and everything turns out right the way it should.
in love and light
happy elfke
12-02-2009 om 23:19
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i'me now realy livving in my new appartment.
it is greart here, and i also have a pc, so you wont have to mis me anymore!
in case you did.
i' me bussy now to put the pictures i already have , on, my space, but it might take a while!
first have to install all the programs to put them on my pc, before i can put them on my space.
why do i tell you all this, you probbably know it all!
doesn't matther, i 'me bussy!
i want to do so many things at the same time!
and we can only do one at the time!
just a message to let you all know i me back in spaceland!
and i me happy about it!
love you all!
12-02-2009 om 23:17
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