A certain woman keeps on talking to me and I haven't got a clue if I can trust her or not.
So often I have told her I don't want anything to do with the spiritual things she's in, because that's one of the things that got to me, making me feel as miserable as I am right now.

But she keeps on talking to me, even though I removed her from my friend's list.

I know she has been lying to me before, I know she has been bad-mouthing me.

I don't know why I keep talking to her.
I have met her in real life and she seemed like such a sweet woman, soft, warm-hearted. So it was indeed hard to believe she'd be involved in all the gossip that has been spread around facebook land about me.
I know she was involved, because I created a fake account, to overlook things, so I know.

Recently she broke up with her partner as well, around the same time as my relationship stranded.

For some reason, she seemed to think that I'd be the ideal person to talk to about her broken heart.
And I listened. I tried to make her feel better.
Didn't get involved in the 'he said - she said' things, none of my bussiness and I could care less why they broke up to begin with.

Recently she told me that she loved me, as a friend, I may hope off course!
Why would she do such a thing?
She invited me over, if I ever needed company.
Well, she already invited me over when she told me about her breake-up, so two women could cry their hearts out over a broken relationship, but honestly, I'm not in for that.
Sure, a good cry over something like that, can be relief and getting things of your heart, can be relieving as well.
But I didn't want to do that with her.

I'm just not sure if I can trust her.
Yet, I want to give it a chance.
Probably another very stupid move of me.
Because it gets to me.
Everything she says, gets to me.

And I wonder about the motives.
What drives people to do things like this?

But I could ask myself the same question. What drives me to stay in touch with her?

Probably I want to be proven wrong that some people are just plain evil and have no feelings whatsoever.
There must be some good in every person.
I met this person in Real Life and she felt very loving.
I guess I'm letting that cloud my judgement.

It all feels very contradictive.
A part of me wants her out of my life, the other part says: c'mon, she's nice and she needs you, don't be a bitch, be a friend, lend her the shoulder she needs to cry on, you've got too much free time anyway, give it to people who need someone else.

Time will tell if this will ruin me or if I made the right decision and give some of my time and energy to a person in need.