I see her face again, and I can see that she is proud of me. And she stretches out her arms and hugs me. "Its been too long again." I say, while hugging her. She doesn't say anything back, but that doesn't matter. "I'm proud of you." She says, "You've come so far." It felt so long ago that I could hardly remember the sound of her voice.

 I open the drawer, and pick up the letters. The letters that make me cry. The letters that make me feel sad and happy at the same time. They speak to me, as if in her voice:

"Make sure you are happy in your life. That is the most important thing, don't let anything stand in the way of that, and dont let anyone ever tell you that there is something more important in the world. I want you to be happy, as happy as I have been. I want you to find a purpose in your life, and make it matter. Live a healthy life, and dont work too much. Make sure you create the time to do the things you love. And above all I hope you find someone that makes you happy, dont you ever let something stand in the way of that. Promise me that you will do as I say, because I love you, even though I wont be there to be part of it, I will always be there with you."

There are no more tears in my eyes. Nothing but happiness overcomes me. I know I made her proud.

She lets go of me, and I know it is time to say goodbye again. "I see that you are happy." She tells me softly. "I am, for the first time in a long time I feel so happy. She makes everything so much better. Her eyes make me feel like I can take on the world, the way she looks at me makes me feel like I can move a mountain. I dont think I have ever felt this in love before. It feels so magical." And as I look up again, she is no longer there. Further up the darkness of the sky guides me, and light of the stars engulfs me.

As I open my eyes again, she stands before me in all her beauty. I love you, she tells me so playfully. The butterflies in my stomach make me feel lost. And I love her even more. Forever and always.