There is always a reason for something nothing just happens

So i believe there is a reason for your holding back but i can't figure out why

I was really happy everything was just perfect for me and i thought/hoped you felt the same...

I am sorry to ruin that period i know now it was my fault and i hope you can forgive me :s

And i hope notting is/will change between us

I only write texts when there is somebody "special" to write for a muse

And you are my muse for the moment in the good moments but also in the bad moments but it helps

I hope one day you can imagine how much you mean to me

No words ever could describe that

And that is why you can hurt me more then everything else

I really don't know what to think one time you just want my attention and now you just can't look at me...

Just say what you want it is the easiest for both of us

The whole time i was searching for love you were just in front of me and i didn't realize it

But then we started to talk and it didn't take long for me to see that you could be the one 

I wonder if true love really exists or is it just a dream of everybody ?

But then i met you and you just proved it does exist

There is just something about you

Something i can't explain but it tells me that you are special

When you smile you make me smile

But when you cry there is just something that melts inside me and i want to stop it whatever cost

I thought that i was broken but apparently i was just bent 

You helped me to get back normal and i will always be thankful for that  

After everything i thought that i could trust nobody ever again

I think everybody has had such a moment but those moments can end

Those moments end when you just grab yourself together and just start to live again

I did that and look now i just found somebody i can trust

I just so fucking hate myself right now i never attended to hurt you but i did.

The thing for what i was trying to protect you for i did myself and i hate it !

I am so sorry ! And i hope you will forgive me !

When you trust somebody there are some things you got to know

I think I know some things about you but notting is sure...

But i do still trust you and care about you !

You really don't realize how much you mean to me.

There were only 2 others who knew the same things like you and now you are the only one i have left of those

I really care about you and just don't want to see you get hurt !

Maybe you don't know it maybe you do but more and more you are the why I smile

You are the reason to wake up

You are the one that I like

“ You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. ”

— Dr. Seuss

When i am desperate i just start writing texts to express my feelings but at the moment i just don't know what i have to feel 

I just feel a lot but i don't know how to express it 

you were the only one who tried to understand me, who was always there for me but now i am losing all of that and i just don't know how to handle that I just have to say one thing: bye