Questions and concerns Deze blog is gestart om me te helpen met de vele vragen die ik heb. De vele dingen waar ik mee zit. Om zo mijn leven wat meer kleur te geven ;-)
Ik ben nog niet zo thuis in het hele blog gebeuren dus veel spectaculairs zal er hier nog niet te zien zijn :-P
Maar met de tijd leer ik wel bij en zal ik proberen deze blog wat aangenamer te maken ;-)
10-01-2008
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Why do I even write happy, positive things...they don't last anyway! It's like a curse. If I dare to write something good...bad things will happen instead I give up ...although that's not what I would normally do. I've been waiting for 30 years for some good luck...I'm still waiting!
I keep thinking this relationship was a big mistake. All I wanted was someone to love and someone who could love me back. Is that so much to ask for?? The moment I said yes to his proposal, I've been doubting if this was the best we could do? Every day it gets more clear to me that getting married is the worst thing we could do! Isn't happyness, love and trust the number one condition in a relationship? If we don't have that...then what will our marriage be based on?
I keep thinking what more I could do to make things better. To stop these arguments, fights, discussions... The answer is simpel: NOTHING!! S has a mind of his own. When he decides to be angry, he will. When he decides to start a fight (no reason whatsoever) he will! I'm really wondering what I did or sad wrong this time. Well, screaming up and down, not even normal. He goes up, takes a bath, and suddenly: nothings' wrong!! Nothing happened!! Pfff, he made me mad and he'll feel it all night long. I don't have the need for this meaningless discussions. If he wants to fight, he'll have to fight with his dog! If he wants to argue, he'll have to argue with his dog! If he wants to get married, he'll have to marry his dog!
I'm feeling a litlle bit better. Not much news at the moment. Tomorrow the house will be sold for good! No more misery of that!
Work is going great. Feeling good again. Lots to do and lots of appreciation from boss and collegues....does the trick any time
Love....can't really talk about that. I have no idea how I feel, how I should feel. The same really...hope it will change some day or that I can find a way I won't have to change anything about it
Pfff, he made me mad and he'll feel it all night long. I don't have the need for this meaningless discussions. If he wants to fight, he'll have to fight with his dog! If he wants to argue, he'll have to argue with his dog! If he wants to get married, he'll have to marry his dog!
No more misery of that! 
