Questions and concerns Deze blog is gestart om me te helpen met de vele vragen die ik heb. De vele dingen waar ik mee zit. Om zo mijn leven wat meer kleur te geven ;-)
Ik ben nog niet zo thuis in het hele blog gebeuren dus veel spectaculairs zal er hier nog niet te zien zijn :-P
Maar met de tijd leer ik wel bij en zal ik proberen deze blog wat aangenamer te maken ;-)
30-12-2007
Happy Newyear
The year is almost over. Tomorrow is my friends birthday. We're gonna leave for 2 days to the ocean. I thought it would be nice for him, that I'd do him a favor. But I get the feeling he'd rather stay home. Pff, why can't he ever enjoy my surprises? Why do I put so many time in trying to surprise him. I will be very glad if we can spend these few days without a fight...I wonder...
Finally! We moved into our new house! It hasn't gone without the necessary fights of cours Why do I always manage to pick out the most difficult guys in the world!? I know, you might get the impression I think highly of myself but there you're wrong... I'm definitely not the easiest person to live with, but the combination between our two caracters seems to be the perfect ingredients for a massive fireworks over and over again!
Yesterday, I had the time to read my old diary. I was shocked. So many depressions... Many times I wrote about the end, and killing myself. Where has my life lead to? What have I become? Why don't I feel better by now? It seems like I live from depression to depression. How long can I hold on to this? I read about Fred again. I even dreamed of him last night. Why have I never been able to forget about him? What has he done to me in the past? I still have that burning desire to see him onces more, to hear his voice one more time... Will I be waiting for that moment all my life? I hope not
Why do I always manage to pick out the most difficult guys in the world!?
