What is it with attention? I have two moods, I can be very quiet or very open, but I never, and I repeat with a note of exclamation I never do something for attention. Some people scream for just one word. Today I met myself. I know I need drama in my life, who doesn't? But seriously enough is enough. A friend of mine said to the teacher 'I don't care, I'm leaving anyway', I'm sorry I just don't understand how people can be that way. They're so confident and sure. People always talk about what they want, need and dream about. But once they've got it, they want the opposit. All those people making up stories or just make them bigger. And the other ones laugh about every joke, come on people we all know that not every joke is funny. Why can't people just be thereselves? Everything would be some much easier. Maybe this is better, it makes life interesting.
I think today I just didn't understood the people around me and lived in my own little happy-town.
Well, here I am, 19 years old and most of the time my life is difficult and simple at the same time. Most people say I think to much, about life, school and boyfriends. Sometimes I will not be in the mood to write and sometimes I will not make any sence, but eventually, I do this for me and not for anyone else. Today I have not seen one episode of one tree hill, this is particullary strange for me. I think it's a great show and yeah maybe I do have an obsession. When I watch one tree hill I try and compare my own life with theirs. I know this is stupid and childish but hey I need a life...I do wanne be as independant as brooke, and as artistic as peyton. I know I can better be happy with who I am but...don't you ever wish you were someone else? Someone greater, better, stronger, faster? If I would be someone else, all of my memories would disappear and I would never have met the people I know. I don't think I could pay that price, just to be someone better, faster or greater. So just for today I think I'm quite alright.
