Lately I feel like I don't fit in the world, or maybe I don't fit in, in the right world. My boyfriend has a totally diffrent friend-group, most of those people know who I am, but they can't seem to find a way to talk to me. And I don't mean, talking as huging me, giving me a meaningless kiss and leave again. They all do that, I don't really understand why. I guess it's a good start, they accept me. They are all younger than me and I can feel they are not in the same place as I am. I know I love my boyfriend very much, I want to marry him someday (I know, I changed my mind, a girl can do that once in a while). I don't need a lot of beer to have a good time, they certainly do. I don't want to tare them down, they are good people and most of them are really friendly. I begin to think it's my fault. I know I'm not the greatest speaker, I'm shy and sometimes I just don't care enough to open my mouth. Maybe things would be different if I talked more about silly things (people do that and seem to like it when other people talk silly back.). Enough of his friends, I'll let you know how I'll deal with that. 

About my boyfriend and the marrying-ussue. I love him, unconditionally. He's my rock, always. I know, sometimes I want to kill him, but overall he's the best boy I can wish for (here I am, with my wishing again). I  do want to marry him, eventually.