I left this morning at 8u30am so I'm sorry for all those little and slow blogs ;)

I just came home about 45min ago so it was a pretty long long day and didn't had time to sit down tho.

I'm tired as F* but I slept pretty well, and I guess I will aswell today but that's just a guess. I'm feeling pretty well, just only about the fact that there is this girl, who really really can make me happy and she knows it. I know she is having problems of herself and she doesn't want to admit that she can make me smile. But she has to know it. And she reads this, I know that. So for everybody else, the girl I'm talking to is a very special and kind person, which I can't lose anymore in my life. She means alot to me, although she could think otherwise. Sorry if I ever make you feel uncomfy ;) 

I'm going to right some random self writen texts today since it was a very long day and didn't had any problems since i didn't have had any time to think ;). 

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Today I dropped a tear in to the ocean. This tear represents the love I feel for you. That one little tear of happiness, inside the big big ocean. And what if I told you that only when somebody finds that tear I will stop loving you.

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You can keep fighting and things can still go wrong. You can stop trying and nothing will go on. It's just about you wanting stuff to change. It's about you, who constantly stands up and retries. You have to be the one who keeps chasing your dreams. You don't have to fight for anyone else. In the end it's only what you feel that mathers, think about that. 

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Heey you, yea you. I just wanne tell you that I care and that I'll be the one who stays by your side. I won't be the one of your future nor the one of your past. Just let me be the one who walks besides you and gives you that hand when needed. 

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Some times can be harse and I could say  that I've been through some hard times. Not as hard as some other peoples but to me those were hard times. And for that I know life is hard and brings alot of difficult times with itself but know that you ain't alone. Even in the darkest places you'll be able to find someone, and if you can't find anyone, just call me and I'll be the one you'll find.

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If you need someone to yell at, just call me and you can yell as much as you want. If you need someone to talk to, call me and I'll be listing. If you need someone to cry with, call me and I'll cry with you. Even if you need someone, but won't say anything. Call me and I'll be the one that's quite with you. Whenever you'er down I'll be there for you.

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Heeey you who reads this I love you !! <3

and that special girl, to you I give you the most love of my heart now ;) 

Goodnight peeps