Love and Water

When you say love is all, then you also say it's not always 'all good'

You also say it's the one thing we certainly have in our life, it keeps us growing

That might be true, for just a few, not for me, I can't find real love, I wish I could

You say love is life, but in my eyes, love is like water, it keeps on flowing

I say love is water, a constant, a must

It's always around and inside all of us

Be sure that I can't live without water

And be sure I need some love in my life

But I'm not sure that both of 'em are things you can really trust

Because both of them are causing all this hurt and all this strife

Water these days is flowing like never seen before

Normally it's flowing peacefully, then nobody cares

The water is giving us this message we can't ignore

Flowing from the rivers to the ocean

Passing by cities, damaging life

Damaging families and homes

'Cause of this I got this notion

These two things that are inside all of us

These two things that are part of us all

Love and water... Are full of mistrust

Both of them have the power to heal

But both of them keep on hurting us

It's life that they can both steal

Sometimes what seems peacefull

What seems safe and sound

Can turn out to be cruell

So love is like water

You can always get stuck in it

You can always get drowned

(January 2011, Benjammin Hb Parker)

Stagnate

This is the evil that woman do

What they do? 

Make you blue

They act a fool

That was what you did

Stepped aside, stepped on my heart

Was it worth all of this? Was I so unfit?

Why did you do what they do?

There was so little restrain

Left home, waiting in pain

It drove me insane

Why did it have to be you?

Like them, you were cold as ice

From then on out, you paid the price

From then on out, it was never the same

Why did you treat me that way?

Why did you decide to go astray?

What did I ever do to lead you away?

Now I can't convert

I remain the same

Lived in shame

It's insane, I can't change...

You were my Queen, there was nobody but you

There was only you and other invisible woman 

You could have done anything

But you just had to do

The only taboo

Being so untrue

Lying about it so bluntly in my face

And you know this is true, it was love

Yeah, I would have done anything for you

Such a disgrace... 'We only went first base...'

Wish I never found that shit out

Maybe we would still be together

Well, hell, we'll never know now

After all, this shit was tough

But in me there's still love

It's the same for you

When you feel alone

You always look above

You're looking at the stars

I know you're crying when you look up

While you're living behind your golden prison bars

You were my Queen of Hearts

You almost got crowned

But you lied

And I cried

So our love was never really found

I wanted to find love, my love, real love

But time and time again, I got fooled

What did I ever mean to you?

Because of you I wear these fucking chains

Now there's ice-water runnin' through my fucking vains

Now I can never trust a woman again, always living in doubt

A heart hard as a rock, keep on living with these growing pains

This is how you made me

This is what you created

My heart on lock

A detainee

Am I manic-depressive?

Dad, that's a lil' exessive

Yeah, I'm living with highs and lows

I just can't find my peace of mind

It's all about disappointments

Nothing else than low blows

Nobody to talk to about it

So the fucking anger grows

I can't afford a psychologist 

I have to deal with this shit all alone

A boy, wanting to be a man

I wan't to change... but I can't

I'm still the boy nobody can stand

Willing to change but I'm still stagnet

Why can't I just change and just run with it?

I just keep attracting bad luck like a fucking magnet

Just wanting this life to see

What kinda man I could be

The kinda man I should be

Trying to get some emotions from you

Real emotions, don't front

I won't be fooled

Like I'm a fuckin' retard, treatin' me like a toy, a fucking bumb

I'm smarter then you think girl, sometimes I just act dumb

Ain't gettin' no love, just wanting respect

Already 25 years old and still a boy

Another misfit of society

A fucking reject

Love never worked

Work never loved

Al this shit I had to swallow

Made me dead inside, made me hollow

I'm not a piece of shit you can play with

You make me feel like that

Feeling like a real Joker

Gambled and got broker

You make me feel like a psycho, feeding my killer instinct

Never wanted this, but I'm startin' to think

I might really be sick

A career in evilness, lookin' kinda good to me

All I ever wanted was a normal life

A career, some kids, a wife

That was to much to ask

Sometimes I'm tired of trying

Sometimes I feel like dying

Russian roulette... Wanna play?

Cock that gun... Don't run

Give it to me please

Don't tease

You're making me take the fall

I've had enough, I'm off this

Pull that trigger

Don't miss

(January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

Smile

You can cry just for a minute

Or even for hours at a time

There's no shame in it

It's okay, it's just fine

But there's a limit to what you can take

So sometimes you just don't won't to awake

Sometimes it gets so hard that you just need a break 

Years of tears and sad blue eyes

They won't help you

I admit

I've been crying too

Angry at the world, thinking I could change it

I was wrong, got frustrated, got fooled

But I learned this lesson, bit by bit

The tears will help you

But only for a while

In the long run

Tears will make you drown

Tears will break you down

So dry them up

Dry your tears and give me a smile

I also had a hard time trying to find out why...

Why does it all fall down at once?

Why is this happening to me?

Why is this happening now?

That's why I shared something with you

To remember ourselves there's always someone out there

Someone with good intentions, someone true

Someone that will always care

And sometimes like you

I break down and cry

No shame about that

I'm an emotional guy

I cry for a minute

And then I think a lil' bit

I stop, stare and think for a while

I think about the small things in life

That's just me, that's my style

They might not be cool

But small things make me joyful

Like birds in the sky

I think about freedom

Like birds flying high

I think about hope

There's always hope

No matter what...

And there's so much hope for you

I can't even call it hope anymore

'Cause I know you'll make it through

I think about love

It's still all around

Whether it's unconditional, romantic or unbound

Sometimes you might still feel like crying

When you feel like all the love is gone

When you feel like you're all alone

When you feel like you wanna stop trying

When you feel like love is hard to find

Just think about me...

And I hope you'll have a change of mind

Your hope and love buried deep inside

Are two things no one can ever take away

When it's dark, they can be your light

These two things, I give to you

When you feel like you lost them

When you're feeling sad and blue

You can always count on me

It's me you can always come to

I might not always be around

But for you I'm easily found

You could ask me any day

When you're in need of a smile

For you I will always leave my isle

My comfort and protection will never be far away

All I want in return

A simple thing, that would always make my day

If you couldn't give this simple thing, that would be my only concern

All I want is your sweet little smile

So please, please make it stay!

(January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

Mr. Nice Guy

Hi, I'm mr. nice guy

Yep, always finish last

You'll be rewarded boi! Just act like a snake in the grass

Yeah son, didn't you know, you gotta be an asshole in this world

That's the fucking truth, the real truth, the truth unfurled

The fact that success is related to hatred

History's past, present, the way it's always been

Being nice, is this a new kind of sin?

I never wanted to act like an arrogant fuck

But it seems that's the way I have to be

Be like this boi, or you'll run out of luck

I'm just learning this now

I'm just starting to see

The way I was wasn't right

Tried to fight it off, using all my might

But now I know better, now I know the truth

And this is the shit I have to teach to your youth

I'm glad I'm off teaching, glad I was unfit

I'm glad I don't have to confront them with this truth

Because I wouldn't be able to stand behind this fucking shit

This world is a fucked up place, it's such a disgrace

Giving chances to people that ain't willing to change

Seems to me like it's not that hard, not even hard to pursue

It seems like it's impossible, this is my point of view

This fucked up way of living

To me this is just too untrue

I know I should

But I can't change

Not even when I try

When I try to estrange

From who I really am inside

It would help me

If I try to comply

But I just can't change

I still remain Mr. Nice Guy

(January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

Birds Falling High

Birds Falling High...

Wanna know how I feel?

I am concerned about the way things are going

Concerned about these strange events, this new deal

Concerned about the way things are headed

But still we keep lying to ourselves

These lies kept enbedded!

Why are the birds falling?

Is this fate calling?

Is this really the new deal?

Is this is a higher power trying to talk to us?

For me it's been very obvious, this shit is really real!

But people don't wanna see the truth

And we keep on concealing these facts from our youth

This is a higher power that's trying to get through

But it gets no attention from mankind

Actin' like this shit happens everyday

The people still remain untrue

Puttin' the truth on lay-away

The verity's long overdue

This power's legendary but they keep it secondary

The haters, the non-believers, they will fall

Just because they will never hear this call

This call that keeps on calling

So like the birds, they will be falling

And they'll be reminded of their mortal sins

Disrespecting nature, our home, killing off the Mother we all share

We're killing Her slowly and we still keep on living our lives, with smiles, with grins

They're all such tangible signs...

And still they remain blind!

Rivers turned red

A natural disaster?

Not even close...

Open your eyes

And listen to your heart

Mother Earth has bled!

When the skies went open and streets turned to rivers, she wept

When hurricanes took over and oil got in the tide, She said

'Feel My pain, hear My cries' 

Nobody noticed, all unread

When the Earth shook and the dirt started to glide

It was Her heart that trembled

For us Her heart trembled with all it's might

It was all ment to be

They all were warning signs

She tried to wake us up, wanted us to see

You just gotta wake yourself up and read between the lines

Kept it to myself but I see the Truth

That's why I'll never take the fall

'Cause I still got faith in me

Other people have lost it

They lost it all

My eyes are open

My mind is fully clear

If this is only the beginning

We better respect our Mother, a simple thing

We can do this or else you'll have to start living in fear

She's hot enough to melt hell

When it finally freezes over

She will really exel

When you think 'bout why we're here

We're here to take care of her

My mind is very aware

Just by thinking 'bout past times

People wished and turned to prayer

They're trying to fix this mad affair

But it's gonna be hard to do

Armed with only words you won't get through

We've got to put words into action

Actions with a new point of view

After all the crimes we committed

After all, we did Her wrong

After all is said and done

She's still willing to accepts us

She's still willing to scrape along

Ignorance, violence and anger 

We, as a people

We take that strife

And all She ever asked us

Is to live as one with ourselves and with Her

Live together as one and keep on living

That's the good life

But people think they're smarter

Lying and deceiving

You could call Her a martyr

Why won't we see this calling

Isn't there any love anymore?

Why does everyone hate you Mother?

Why is it You they ignore?

Ignore Her will and try to defy?

Try to defy Her and you will see

She will reap

There will be reprecussions for all our sins

It won't come cheap

Why do you think birds are falling from the sky?

Maybe this is just how Armageddon begins

Birds fallin' down, wasn't exactly planned

That was a sign, an agressive demand

We have to pay for what we've done

How much more can we withstand?

She's just hoping everybody will finally understand

She's trying to show the world that it's all interrelated

But you're still to busy livin' disrespectfully

You're still telling Her all these lies

This is the shit your mother always hated

This is the reason why your Mother cries

(January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

The Devil still Dances

The Devil still dances

But she ain't here for romancin'

She's just here to have some fun

She's dangerous like a loaded gun

She uses her body so well

Putting me into a spell

Subtle smiles

Make her go wild

I kinda like you girl

And you kinda like me

You can dig this grown up child

I could tell when you gave me that smile

Maybe this isn't teasing?

Maybe this is you being you

Maybe this is you being true

You're so fucking appeasing

But I still don't have a clue

Is this really you?

That's the kinda girl I like

Lookin' for fun

Gettin' in to trouble

But still willing to fight

Fighting for what she believes in

Never a hopeless cause

No surrender, no withdraws

Fighting for what is right

But at night...

Just because she can

All part of the game plan

The Devil still dances

Hoping for some respect

That's what's she gets from me

That's why it's her I protect

Respect for what she's done

She doesn't want much

Just a lil' applause

All this lil' dancin' Devil ever wanted

Her props after she holds for that pause

(January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

Angel in disguise

A sweet lil' angel

Came out to play

Came out to tease

In search of a new pray?

Don't even care 'bout that...

She makes me feel at ease

Is she send here to please?

Or am I being decieved?

Is it all a game to you?

Or are you for real?

When I look at you

I can't even tell...

Well... It is a game for me

That's one thing I can guaranty

But in this loveless game

I will take you home

I'll take you anywhere

You and me... all alone

You got that certain

'Je ne sais quoi...'

Don't know just what it is you got

It's like you don't even care

That's what makes you hot

But I think you care, you do!

You care more then you ever knew

It's just hard for you to stay true

That I understand

You can't be together with just one man

That's never been part of your real plan

But hey, Imma fan!

You're still young

Experimenting and havin' fun!

Not running from your responsibilities

Still makin' time for less fortunates ones

An angel in disguise

Are you send here for fun?

With your sweet angel eyes

Will they be your demise?

'Cause your still searching for something

I can feel it when I'm near you

You're still on the run

(January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)