Love changed

It could be so easy

But you make it so hard

I might act like one sometimes

When I need to see you smile

But I'm not a retard

Not even a goodbye

Not a thing, not a word

Only left with selfpitty and pain

Didn't know you where leaving again

Not a kiss, a hug

Not even a goodbye

Is that what you said and meant?

Forever in your heart!

You're such a good guy!

Is that what you said and meant?

Or was it all a lie...?

How can I ever take you serious

You're so delirious

Thinking your feelings will ever change

Run, hide, begin all over, but it will never be the same

You know this and so do I

Now I insist, give me a reply!

We still got this connection

'Cause I gave you protection

I gave you the truth

And now I want your truth in return

No more lies, had enough of those

Now your truth is my only concern

I once saw a sad girl

I made her dissapear

'Cause when you were down

I made you feel you again!

And this is what I got in return

You made me feel invisible

When we were in the same room or miles apart

Seemed like you wanted me to crash and burn

Love was lost

Love was found

Love has changed

And by your blindness

Love has been drowned

You made me forget

What love can do

What love can mean

Now it means nothing

Time to come clean

Time to realise the truth

You ran away from me

I respected that

You needed time

And found a summer love

A new partner in crime

He was there when you where in need

I wasn't there, but how could I've been?

We had to give eachother space

As agreed... But now I plead

Summer's over

And reality has set in

Reply truthfully

From the heart

I only ask for the truth

If you don't know what to say...

You'll find my questions herein

Why do you live this lie?

Why make it so hard?

Open your eyes

Be smart

Why do you cry?

Why lie to yourself?

Why keep my love on a shelf?

Why be with a man

Who will never fully understand

Who you really are

Why you are a star

Keep living this lie

Give that life a try

And find that your starlight will fade away

A trickstar again

A million miles away

And there to stay

I broke it off

Sure, I made that call

But what you're doing now

Is making us forget about real Love

Unconditional Love, being together, standing tall

Lost all hope for something new

Maybe for us too

Will we ever know?

This time you chose to leave

Vendetta's relieve!

Did you choose well?

Only time will tell

But I'll tell you this

It's me you'll miss

Like I always miss you

You'll never feel complete

Until the end of time

Time and time again

Until our time is through

You'll live with this pain

I'll always be here

I'll be here where your heart belongs

'Cause it's your truthful heart I persue

I hope you realize what you've done

Not even a hug? All I wanted

All I wanted at that time

It was all I wanted from you

But it was too much

Pour V, pour vous

I know where you should be

And I'll be here where you belong

'Cause it's the truthful you I persue

I've waited for it for so long

Life is passing you by

Until you're home again

Now forever passing you by

Now you're lving safely

Without real love

Living safely

'Cause of my unconditional love

That you where deprived of

Life and love wants you to understand

That you're not living your own life

You're just giving it a try

But you and I know

That you're just playing along!

You keep on living painfully

Leaving yourself miles away

Left with nothing but your cries

Living painfully in your created world of lies

(December 2010, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

Stay together for the kiss

A fucked up day

Some morning Rain!

Had to face another day

Another day to face my pain

But that kiss

Didn't know why

It made me feel

So Alive!

I made her feel like a natural woman

Just with this simple kiss

But it carried so much bliss

I made her feel like a natural woman

And that's what she is to me

My Girl, my Star, my Diva, my Trustee

But what have you done to me?

I didn't want to feel this way

I never wanted to see this

Now I see it clear as day

Like me... You felt that kiss too

Don't act like you don't have a clue

I just wanna be close to you

I know you wanna be here too

Bring yourself back home

Back here where you belong

'Cause out there

You'll always be without me

You'll always on your own

(December 2010, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

I Walk The DreamLine

I had a dream last night

And you where there too

It showed me this love will never die!

Your mistakes God can always forgive!

But He hates when people lie!

Our dreams are made, used & tasted...

Nothing's ever wasted!

Tear your dreams apart

No shame in it... Stride!

Summer... It brought you love

Summer... Took my love away

Summer... Made you stay

It took my confidence

It took my pride

Leaving me alone in pain

Alone, without love

With no place to hide

Will it ever be the same?

The time is now

You know this, and so do I

This you can no longer deny!

If you don't want this love to get torn apart

Please girl! This is all I ask of you...

Open your eyes and be smart

(December 2010, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

The Strength in Me

Better days will come!

It might not mean much for some

But it means the world to me

I'll always be here

You'll see

You'll see I Will

You'll see I Can!

Be here, be there!

As long as I know

The simple fact that you still care

No one can keep me from B-in witchu...

Ok, it's alright

Lesson learned!

Got burned!

I'm sorry a 100 times and a 100 more...

But I want to be free

That's what we're here for

But I'll always love you!

And I will be here

With sin4sexsecurity

(December 2010, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

Homecomming

I can't get no sleep...

Clouds, piss off!

You're clouding my vision

Just fucking get lost!

Was blind for so long

Now I'm trying to see

You Sawed, now I Reap

It Rained, took the Leap

I'm asking you just one question

Been asking it for so long

Are they mad at me?

For what I've done, what I've made?

It seems like they do want me here

But you're not here, I'm all alone

I'm left with nothing but hate

Still on my own

Wish you stayed

I've been played

I have prayed

For far to long

I remain

In shame

Still all alone...

There's one cry for love

That reaches me fully

That's fucked up

Intolerable cruelty!

My biggest problem

I love and respect all woman

Not just You & Me

An impossible Love...

Perhaps?

A lie?

The only thing I know now

This Romeo will never die

(December 2010, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

Back in the Lion's Den

This one goes out to all the heartless, smartless, jibbery fucks...

I'm like a  McDeluxe, you'se just a small frie... 'bout like three bucks

The Self-proclaimed King

I Disclaim your title

Think 'Benzene ring'

You don't know that?

Well that's what I'm gon' bring...

Fire... I'm the supplier

The one that lil' G's admire

Why? I'm totally screwed up

Don't be like me...Please!

Got weird brain-connections

Nothin' to aspire... 

Just be you and I'll be Me

I'll be Myself 2...

You're screwed!

I got My Third Eye on you!

When I get into someone's head they get scared

Don't care, I'm like 'laissez faire' Still gotta be aware

When I walk on by, people do tend to stare

Like they know me... But I don't know you!

Guess I have to live with this glare

Why did you say something to me man

I'm cool right now, Zen, I'm just fine!

But I always have a battle plan

Sometimes I hope they keep givin' me a hard time!

They I finally have a reason to take you out back

And break your fuckin' neck!

And don't you ever push me again!

I might really go insane

I kill 'cause I can!

I be on top of the World's food chain

Lil' frostbitten, Scroogy-snoozy, fat ass, no class, lil' dick out of luck-fuck

I'm getting the urge to pour anti-freeze over your nasty, wrinkely nuts

Light you up, call some friends

Have a B B Q with my TrenchTown crew

Yeah, that's what we gon' do...

Make a meal, that's cool!

Have a feast, yeah! We beasts!

Are we nuts? Nah! We just got violent minds! 

We just wanna see vultures crush your nuts

Open up your gut!

Your dick we'll grind

Not in the gay way

You sick fuck!

We'll ripp it up!

Feed it to the birds

Put your organs in a jar...

Yeah... How regal! Not by far!

If I do that it's like I kinda respect you!

Who knows... I might just have you fooled!

Always had a hidden secret

Never said a word in college

But I always was the class clown

'I didn't know you like this dude...'

Yeah, sure... who ever would?

I never said a word

I always kept it clean

But this is just another one of my Me's

This is Me being mean

This is Me being obcene

I tend to write what I feel

Yeah, some occasional smut

I love it though...

Makes me feel empowered like Jabba The Hut

I can get away with anything

Even when I'm stuck

But I really need to write how I feel

Otherwise I might just do the shit I write

Then you'll be out of luck

Let's get back to business

Where where we... 

Yeah! Beasts feastin' on your gut...

Stop screamin and take it like a slut!

Haha! Here I go again

You selfproclamed king-why-the-fuck-do-you-even-bother-going-against-me-lickety-cut-Tut!

Woops... When I'm on automatic, I just get estatic!

Actin' like an addict in chasin' a score

Thinkin' 'bout ways to kill you

How to treat you like a whore

Fillet you with a cutting tool

Gettin' al cinematic!

Class is in session!

This is private school!

You wouldn't dream 'bout what I'm into!

I'm The Eye of Ra, haha!

With connections from Tokyo to Bogata

I'm Raw... An inventive killer instinct like the dude from Saw...

Still a Law-Abiding-Citizen-Clockwork-Orange motherfuckah...

Imma Man-on-Fire your ass

A higher class

The nice weather man

And my forecast... 

Thunder and lightning

Electricity runnin' through your every fibre

So frightening!

Slowly burnin' your insides

But I won't let you die

That would be too easy

I'll try to keep you alive

For a lil' one on one fun

I'll be a Kung-Fu-Pepe-Le-Pew

Brake your every bone...

That would just be the steppin' stone

Get some pliars for this fuckin' liar....

I need some nice conducting wire!

String you up like the puppet you are... 

I never wanted to torture you in thoughts

But this is what you made me into!

The Renegade Painkiller, The Fallen Star

Had a nice ring too it

So I accepted that...

Now you accept your shortcomings

And we might talk again some day...

Not just now, now I must burn you!

Where's my lighter?

My Fire?

My Desire?

When I burn you

They'll never catch me

'Cause I'm in this Ti-Pi

Writing lyrics and plottin' crimes

And I get away with this shit

'Cause my intellect is to Freaky

It's so easy for me

Y'all don't even see, y'all so blind!

What goes through my mind?

Sick'n twisted rhymes

Like ALL the time!

Please stare into my eyes

I'm tellin' the truth

I always do!

Voice of the Youth

With a sweet tooth

Sex 4 Suga

Suga 4 Blood

Blood 4 Oil

And I'll kill 'em all!

Don't care if they lock me down...

'Cause when I'm locked away

I got my people who'll fuck you up all over again

I'll ask Yeezy, he's got a baseball bat...

He's like my Bear Jew

FUBAR... Bitch!

What a nasty point of view!

You're a small frie...

But I'm so happy to see you!

Gonna upgrade you to a happy meal

Turn you round like a busted up ferris wheel

Surreal... Feel like a transformer

Optimus in his prime

I'm on all the time

Kick Shockwave's ass

He'll reach an impasse when he takes on me

I'll be his little snake in the grass!

We could always make a new deal...

Repect me and all of my people

You're a trash can, I'm a steeple!

The man of steel!

And like 50 & Akon.... I Will Kill!

Surreal! The feelings that I feel...

But hey... I'm still, and always will

Be a real nice boi...

I just got send here to annoy!

And deploy these messed up rhymes

Taking your words and makin 'em mine

Traveling inside your head

Checking out your thoughts

And hitting rewind

Am I joking or being for real

Is this man feeling what I feel?

Who will ever know

Man, I just love to screw up your mind!

(December 2010, Pieter Gilis)

Lost Crown

You were fly, cool, tempting me with your eyes

Makin' me nervous, makin' me sweat

Was younger back then, naive and unwise

She wanted my crown, I wanted some head

I gave it up, she didn't, enough said

I lost my crown and I just fled

Lost my confidence, felt down

I was foolish, just had to say 'no, that's mine'

But I didn't, her smile was so benign

Felt manipulated, dubble crossed by a cutie pie

Sweet eyes turned red from desire

They were on fire

I'll never forget

This stupid regret

Just went home, hit the sack

Knowing I would never get it back

Can't believe that was the life I led

How did I ever give up a crown?

How did I ever back down?

I'm such a ghost town clown

Standing there, without any glare

Left standing... Alone... In doubt... In fear

Is this the man I'm becomming?

Never givin' it up again... I swear!

That's over now...

No one will ever just take my crown

Never again

No m'am

That's my main vain terrain

Just let it be...

Or I'll have to show you what you really don't wanna see

The agry side of me

I'll try to detain emotions

I'll try to restrain agression

But there'll be no more compassion

I know, it's a stupid obsession

With an ex-possession

It's just a lost crown

Taken from a stupid ass clown

But I know it's in good hands

Cute lil' redhead understands

What it means to me

Thanks for that sweet pea!

I don't need to be crowned

My feet are on the ground

No need to obsess

But nevertheless

I do need to feel love

Trust, warmth, affection

All of the above

Both unbound

So cutie, if you wanna give it back

I'm easily found

And you can always come around

(December 2010, Pieter Gilis)

Cyclone Drone

You're a cyclone, a clone, a drone, movin' with the flow

Outta controle, never stoppin', poppin', lockin', droppin'

Love to see you move, but stop it... (What?)

What am I sayin', go on, live it up, live that sexy sin!

Your love-less freaky-ness, your anti-stress-digress

Obsessed by the way you move

Here to prove she can dance like a calculated chess move

('Dogg, you seein' that bitch' chest move, see them titties, see em wigglin')

'Back off man, you desecrate the game with your sorry-ass scrambling'

Respect this bitch! Leave you fool... Gon' press the ignition switch!

Queen's puttin' me into check - mate - don't hate!

She's mine,  think I wanna procreate

Nah, that was a lil' misstate...

Let's pick up our heartrate

Stimulate and translate our feelings into actions

Only care 'bout the extractions

The body-chemical reactions

No more distractions... Only satisfaction!

Love to play this game

She's takin' me over, but what was her name...

Damn! Just call her BabyBoo, Babygirl, BabyBlue

We loved to use eachother, so there was no pain

That's over now, put back in my place

A certified check!

Left behind like a train wreck!

But hey, it didn't kill me

So the next babyboo's gonna trill me

Fulfill me, my every desire

My sexy pariah!

You make me wanna explode

Reload! Man, I'm so sold!

Was so cold

My fantasy is starting to unfold

Just stop for a minute girl, lemme behold

Your sweet suger lips, sexy thighs, long ass legs

Damn! It not hard for you to impress!

You could wear the skankiest clothes

And still have the whole room froze!

Cyclone drone... All alone... But not for long!

Fuck this song... Gonna make my move!

Back in check, now let's get into the groove!

Whatchu expect?

(December 2010, Pieter Gilis)

Bohemian SIN4ME (Part I)

A Dumbo, left in paradise, left to stumble... But he won't crumble, tumble, tries to stay humble!

Askin' questions, about his own actions, attractions, distractions and reactions

To obtain perfection, in order to give protection and affection

Effectin' your Kids... This might be a Fatal Attraction! 

Do you depose or impose 'everybody nose'...? 

Who knows?

I know... Not high now, stayin' low, in controle

Stardust seems to be on everybody's lips

I don't care about your lifestyle

Just make your life worth while

And come back to grips

Lil' kids lookin' up to me like I'm a Hero, but I'm not.

Sometimes I still feel weak! Will I ever peak?

What can I say and do? Can I even speak?

A laughingstock! Seem to be the talk of the town...

You all make me feel like this sorry-ass clown!

Am I mr. Frown...?

Am I going crazy?

Do I need to feel ashamed when I'm drunk or hazy?

It's you that's crazy.

Because this is how you raised me!

Do what you want

Live your own life!

All I ask you is to stop the fight

Communicate, integrate, enlight!

We all can live in peace in this Bohemian Sin4Me paradise!

Just show me love for who I am, not what I am or what I might be!

Don't gimme that evil stare!

Just wanna see you smile, it cost nothing, no denail!

But these days that's a hard search, it's unfair!

That's why I stop walking and stare

Back at you

Giving you a chance to give me just one smile

One smile, one love, that's all I ask

I never mean to scare

But I'm very aware

That people fear me when I feel like really hurting a man

Why?

Maybe because I will!

Maybe because I can!

I don't wanna go mind-evil on you

Just beware!

The words I'm spittin', my words, they're not just hot air!

Prepare to endure pain from this new school Voltaire!  

The Mack Daddy, The Informer, Fred Astaire!

Return of the Buffalo SoulYa

Within' a Green Paddy

Playin' along like a caddy!

Original in every way... Always actin'

Actin' like I don't care... 

So what if I love pop songs, disco and Disney?

Does that make you better than me?

Is lovin' all music worth a diss?

You fuckin' bitch!

I also love girls in thongs

The girl next door

The girl who sang that song

Nice girls! Nasty girls! Classy girls!

Thinking... 'Going Once, going twice...'

Lookin' at girls like an auctioneer

Will it be like this for the rest of my life?

So go on and hate me for that!

Afraid of water and still a water rat!

It's the way y'all look at me!

I'm just walking to the beat

When I don't wanna look at you?

I'll be looking at my feet

You think this shit is easy?

When I'm good, I'm breezy

When I'm pist I'm a a sinfull son of God

Frankensteins Monster! Unappeasing!

A freak... Unique!

Wrapped in all this mystique, still-mathicly lackin' the technique!

Yeah, I know you haters can't wait to participate verbally kickin' my ass on stage!

Don't waste your time...

The stage is yours

Lemme just chill right now

Don't playa-hate!

I'll concentrate

and blow this shit up

No, wait

Can't do that!

First I gotta get paid!

I know I'm a white fucked up kid with a messed up mind

Not refined, not signed... In your words... Undefined!

Fuck that for now, just let me unwind!

Lemme blaze up and get blazed!

Gimme the chance I know I deserve

and you might just be amazed...

I'm not comin' out of any closet

You fuckin' losers, I ain't gay

Got some close friends, yeah...

Don't you, you fuckin' bitch, don't give me that stress!

I love my friends, that don't mean I'll be wearin' a skirt or a fuckin' dress

I love my girls, girls, girls... All over the world!

They seem to kinda like me too...

They can't get enough!

Is that why you hate on me?

Sittin' in your Bentley or your sweet ass coup?

My mind is twisted, twirled

Y'all don't even know...

So much love to give...

To her, her, her and... your girl!

Makes me cold as fuck!

Is this the life I must live?

Makin' your girl's legs curl?

Don't fuckin' push me! 

Sometimes I'm so close to the edge I might unfurl!

Who knows what's gonna happen then...

Kinda curious 'bout it, I must say, but keep me Zen!

Keep me chill, keep me cool!

Keep on givin' me girls, make me drewl!

Make her drewl!

Not just talkin' bout her mouth you fool!

This is part of my Bohemian Sinforme

My ghetto symphony!

Not phony! I'm 4 Real!

(December 2010, Pieter Gilis)