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An insight in my troubles, love, frustrations and my Soul... Be warned... Some texts might be offensive...
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  • Love and Water
  • Stagnate (explicit)
  • Smile
  • Mr. Nice Guy
  • Birds Falling High
  • The Devil still Dances
  • Angel in Disguise
  • Love changed
  • Stay together for the kiss
  • I Walk The DreamLine
  • The strenght in me
  • Homecomming
  • Back in The Lion's Den (explicit)
  • Lost Crown
  • Cyclone Drone
  • Bohemian Sin4Me (explicit)
  • The Time Is Now (Part I)
  • Bitch Ass Friends (explicit)
  • Iron Lion (explicit)
  • Lil' Fly, Don't Die
  • Autumn Shine
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    14-09-2011
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    I don't wanna feel this way

    Do I have love to give?

    Will I try again?

    Will I go astray?



    I don't wanna feel this way

    Do I have love to lose?

    Will it be familiar feelings I'll relive?

    Will I refuse?


    It's the same old song

    Confusion's messing with my head

    Will I be weak, will I be strong?

    Will love stay, will it be gone?

    To whom do I belong?

    Should I go ahead?

    Or will I stay alone instead?


    Staying alone made my heart turn cold

    Made emotions go away

    Made for a darker day

    Guess all you need is love

    That's what I've been told


    Never found it easy to love

    Always found it hard to try

    It always ended with this thought

    'I'm feeling trapped, smothered and caught'

    It was the unconditional love I couldn't supply


    Never found it easy to love

    Always found it hard to try

    It always ended with this scene

    Me and the girl

    So unforeseen

    A torn dream

    A talk, a kiss and a cry


    I want it to be easy to love

    I want it to be easy to try

    Would it be you I belong to?

    Would it be you that I'll stand by?

     

     


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    14-09-2011, 00:00 geschreven door Sixty Sicks  
    18-01-2011
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    Love and Water


    When you say love is all, then you also say it's not always 'all good'

    You also say it's the one thing we certainly have in our life, it keeps us growing

    That might be true, for just a few, not for me, I can't find real love, I wish I could

    You say love is life, but in my eyes, love is like water, it keeps on flowing


    I say love is water, a constant, a must

    It's always around and inside all of us

    Be sure that I can't live without water

    And be sure I need some love in my life

    But I'm not sure that both of 'em are things you can really trust

    Because both of them are causing all this hurt and all this strife


    Water these days is flowing like never seen before

    Normally it's flowing peacefully, then nobody cares

    The water is giving us this message we can't ignore


    Flowing from the rivers to the ocean

    Passing by cities, damaging life

    Damaging families and homes

    'Cause of this I got this notion


    These two things that are inside all of us

    These two things that are part of us all

    Love and water... Are full of mistrust

    Both of them have the power to heal

    But both of them keep on hurting us

    It's life that they can both steal


    Sometimes what seems peacefull

    What seems safe and sound

    Can turn out to be cruell

     

    So love is like water

    You can always get stuck in it

    You can always get drowned

     

    (January 2011, Benjammin Hb Parker)

     


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    18-01-2011, 00:00 geschreven door Sixty Sicks  
    15-01-2011
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    Stagnate


    This is the evil that woman do

    What they do? 

    Make you blue

    They act a fool

    That was what you did

    Stepped aside, stepped on my heart

    Was it worth all of this? Was I so unfit?


    Why did you do what they do?

    There was so little restrain

    Left home, waiting in pain

    It drove me insane

    Why did it have to be you?

    Like them, you were cold as ice

    From then on out, you paid the price

    From then on out, it was never the same


    Why did you treat me that way?

    Why did you decide to go astray?

    What did I ever do to lead you away?


    Now I can't convert

    I remain the same

    Lived in shame

    It's insane, I can't change...


    You were my Queen, there was nobody but you

    There was only you and other invisible woman 

    You could have done anything

    But you just had to do

    The only taboo

    Being so untrue

     

    Lying about it so bluntly in my face

    And you know this is true, it was love

    Yeah, I would have done anything for you

     

    Such a disgrace... 'We only went first base...'

     

    Wish I never found that shit out

    Maybe we would still be together

    Well, hell, we'll never know now


    After all, this shit was tough

    But in me there's still love

    It's the same for you

    When you feel alone

    You always look above

    You're looking at the stars

    I know you're crying when you look up

    While you're living behind your golden prison bars


    You were my Queen of Hearts

    You almost got crowned

    But you lied

    And I cried


    So our love was never really found

    I wanted to find love, my love, real love

    But time and time again, I got fooled

    What did I ever mean to you?


    Because of you I wear these fucking chains

    Now there's ice-water runnin' through my fucking vains

    Now I can never trust a woman again, always living in doubt

    A heart hard as a rock, keep on living with these growing pains


    This is how you made me

    This is what you created

    My heart on lock

    A detainee


    Am I manic-depressive?

    Dad, that's a lil' exessive

    Yeah, I'm living with highs and lows

    I just can't find my peace of mind

    It's all about disappointments

    Nothing else than low blows


    Nobody to talk to about it

    So the fucking anger grows

    I can't afford a psychologist 

    I have to deal with this shit all alone


    A boy, wanting to be a man

    I wan't to change... but I can't

    I'm still the boy nobody can stand

    Willing to change but I'm still stagnet

    Why can't I just change and just run with it?

    I just keep attracting bad luck like a fucking magnet


    Just wanting this life to see

    What kinda man I could be

    The kinda man I should be


    Trying to get some emotions from you

    Real emotions, don't front

    I won't be fooled


    Like I'm a fuckin' retard, treatin' me like a toy, a fucking bumb

    I'm smarter then you think girl, sometimes I just act dumb

    Ain't gettin' no love, just wanting respect

    Already 25 years old and still a boy

    Another misfit of society

    A fucking reject


    Love never worked

    Work never loved

    Al this shit I had to swallow

    Made me dead inside, made me hollow


    I'm not a piece of shit you can play with

    You make me feel like that

    Feeling like a real Joker

    Gambled and got broker


    You make me feel like a psycho, feeding my killer instinct

    Never wanted this, but I'm startin' to think

    I might really be sick


    A career in evilness, lookin' kinda good to me

    All I ever wanted was a normal life

    A career, some kids, a wife

    That was to much to ask

     

    Sometimes I'm tired of trying

    Sometimes I feel like dying


    Russian roulette... Wanna play?

    Cock that gun... Don't run

    Give it to me please

    Don't tease


    You're making me take the fall

    I've had enough, I'm off this

    Pull that trigger

     

    Don't miss


    (January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

     


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    15-01-2011, 00:00 geschreven door Sixty Sicks  
    11-01-2011
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    Smile


    You can cry just for a minute

    Or even for hours at a time

    There's no shame in it

    It's okay, it's just fine


    But there's a limit to what you can take

    So sometimes you just don't won't to awake

    Sometimes it gets so hard that you just need a break 


    Years of tears and sad blue eyes

    They won't help you

    I admit

    I've been crying too

    Angry at the world, thinking I could change it

    I was wrong, got frustrated, got fooled

    But I learned this lesson, bit by bit


    The tears will help you

    But only for a while

    In the long run

    Tears will make you drown

    Tears will break you down

    So dry them up

    Dry your tears and give me a smile


    I also had a hard time trying to find out why...

    Why does it all fall down at once?

    Why is this happening to me?

    Why is this happening now?


    That's why I shared something with you

    To remember ourselves there's always someone out there

    Someone with good intentions, someone true

    Someone that will always care


    And sometimes like you

    I break down and cry

    No shame about that

    I'm an emotional guy

    I cry for a minute

    And then I think a lil' bit


    I stop, stare and think for a while

    I think about the small things in life

    That's just me, that's my style


    They might not be cool

    But small things make me joyful

     

    Like birds in the sky

    I think about freedom

    Like birds flying high


    I think about hope

    There's always hope

    No matter what...

    And there's so much hope for you

    I can't even call it hope anymore

    'Cause I know you'll make it through


    I think about love

    It's still all around

    Whether it's unconditional, romantic or unbound


    Sometimes you might still feel like crying

    When you feel like all the love is gone

    When you feel like you're all alone

    When you feel like you wanna stop trying


    When you feel like love is hard to find

    Just think about me...

    And I hope you'll have a change of mind


    Your hope and love buried deep inside

    Are two things no one can ever take away

    When it's dark, they can be your light


    These two things, I give to you

    When you feel like you lost them

    When you're feeling sad and blue

    You can always count on me

    It's me you can always come to


    I might not always be around

    But for you I'm easily found

    You could ask me any day

    When you're in need of a smile

    For you I will always leave my isle

    My comfort and protection will never be far away


    All I want in return

    A simple thing, that would always make my day

    If you couldn't give this simple thing, that would be my only concern

    All I want is your sweet little smile

    So please, please make it stay!


    (January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

     


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    11-01-2011, 11:52 geschreven door Sixty Sicks  
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    Mr. Nice Guy

     

    Hi, I'm mr. nice guy

    Yep, always finish last

    You'll be rewarded boi! Just act like a snake in the grass

    Yeah son, didn't you know, you gotta be an asshole in this world

    That's the fucking truth, the real truth, the truth unfurled


    The fact that success is related to hatred

    History's past, present, the way it's always been

    Being nice, is this a new kind of sin?


    I never wanted to act like an arrogant fuck

    But it seems that's the way I have to be

    Be like this boi, or you'll run out of luck

    I'm just learning this now

    I'm just starting to see

    The way I was wasn't right

    Tried to fight it off, using all my might

    But now I know better, now I know the truth

    And this is the shit I have to teach to your youth


    I'm glad I'm off teaching, glad I was unfit

    I'm glad I don't have to confront them with this truth

    Because I wouldn't be able to stand behind this fucking shit


    This world is a fucked up place, it's such a disgrace

    Giving chances to people that ain't willing to change

    Seems to me like it's not that hard, not even hard to pursue

    It seems like it's impossible, this is my point of view

    This fucked up way of living

    To me this is just too untrue


    I know I should

    But I can't change

    Not even when I try

    When I try to estrange

    From who I really am inside


    It would help me

    If I try to comply

    But I just can't change

    I still remain Mr. Nice Guy

     

    (January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)


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    09-01-2011
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    Birds Falling High


    Birds Falling High...

    Wanna know how I feel?

    I am concerned about the way things are going

    Concerned about these strange events, this new deal

    Concerned about the way things are headed

    But still we keep lying to ourselves

    These lies kept enbedded!


    Why are the birds falling?

    Is this fate calling?

    Is this really the new deal?

    Is this is a higher power trying to talk to us?

    For me it's been very obvious, this shit is really real!


    But people don't wanna see the truth

    And we keep on concealing these facts from our youth

    This is a higher power that's trying to get through

    But it gets no attention from mankind

    Actin' like this shit happens everyday

    The people still remain untrue

    Puttin' the truth on lay-away

    The verity's long overdue


    This power's legendary but they keep it secondary

    The haters, the non-believers, they will fall

    Just because they will never hear this call


    This call that keeps on calling

    So like the birds, they will be falling

    And they'll be reminded of their mortal sins

    Disrespecting nature, our home, killing off the Mother we all share

    We're killing Her slowly and we still keep on living our lives, with smiles, with grins


    They're all such tangible signs...

    And still they remain blind!

    Rivers turned red

    A natural disaster?

    Not even close...

    Open your eyes

    And listen to your heart

    Mother Earth has bled!


    When the skies went open and streets turned to rivers, she wept

    When hurricanes took over and oil got in the tide, She said

    'Feel My pain, hear My cries' 

    Nobody noticed, all unread


    When the Earth shook and the dirt started to glide

    It was Her heart that trembled

    For us Her heart trembled with all it's might


    It was all ment to be

    They all were warning signs

    She tried to wake us up, wanted us to see

    You just gotta wake yourself up and read between the lines


    Kept it to myself but I see the Truth

    That's why I'll never take the fall

    'Cause I still got faith in me

    Other people have lost it

    They lost it all


    My eyes are open

    My mind is fully clear

    If this is only the beginning

    We better respect our Mother, a simple thing

    We can do this or else you'll have to start living in fear


    She's hot enough to melt hell

    When it finally freezes over

    She will really exel


    When you think 'bout why we're here

    We're here to take care of her

    My mind is very aware


    Just by thinking 'bout past times

    People wished and turned to prayer

    They're trying to fix this mad affair


    But it's gonna be hard to do

    Armed with only words you won't get through

    We've got to put words into action

    Actions with a new point of view


    After all the crimes we committed

    After all, we did Her wrong

    After all is said and done

    She's still willing to accepts us

    She's still willing to scrape along


    Ignorance, violence and anger 

    We, as a people

    We take that strife

    And all She ever asked us

    Is to live as one with ourselves and with Her

    Live together as one and keep on living

    That's the good life


    But people think they're smarter

    Lying and deceiving

    You could call Her a martyr

    Why won't we see this calling

    Isn't there any love anymore?

    Why does everyone hate you Mother?

    Why is it You they ignore?


    Ignore Her will and try to defy?

    Try to defy Her and you will see

    She will reap

    There will be reprecussions for all our sins

    It won't come cheap

    Why do you think birds are falling from the sky?


    Maybe this is just how Armageddon begins

    Birds fallin' down, wasn't exactly planned

    That was a sign, an agressive demand

    We have to pay for what we've done

    How much more can we withstand?


    She's just hoping everybody will finally understand

    She's trying to show the world that it's all interrelated

    But you're still to busy livin' disrespectfully

    You're still telling Her all these lies


    This is the shit your mother always hated

    This is the reason why your Mother cries

     

    (January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)


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    09-01-2011, 00:00 geschreven door Sixty Sicks  
    07-01-2011
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    The Devil still Dances


    The Devil still dances

     

    But she ain't here for romancin'

    She's just here to have some fun

    She's dangerous like a loaded gun

    She uses her body so well

    Putting me into a spell


    Subtle smiles

    Make her go wild

    I kinda like you girl

    And you kinda like me

    You can dig this grown up child

    I could tell when you gave me that smile


    Maybe this isn't teasing?

    Maybe this is you being you

    Maybe this is you being true

    You're so fucking appeasing

    But I still don't have a clue

    Is this really you?


    That's the kinda girl I like

    Lookin' for fun

    Gettin' in to trouble

    But still willing to fight


    Fighting for what she believes in

    Never a hopeless cause

    No surrender, no withdraws


    Fighting for what is right

    But at night...

    Just because she can

    All part of the game plan

     

    The Devil still dances

     

    Hoping for some respect

    That's what's she gets from me

    That's why it's her I protect

    Respect for what she's done

    She doesn't want much

    Just a lil' applause


    All this lil' dancin' Devil ever wanted

    Her props after she holds for that pause

     

    (January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

     


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    07-01-2011, 17:30 geschreven door Sixty Sicks  
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    Angel in disguise


    A sweet lil' angel

    Came out to play

    Came out to tease

    In search of a new pray?

    Don't even care 'bout that...

    She makes me feel at ease

    Is she send here to please?

    Or am I being decieved?


    Is it all a game to you?

    Or are you for real?

    When I look at you

    I can't even tell...


    Well... It is a game for me

    That's one thing I can guaranty

    But in this loveless game

    I will take you home

    I'll take you anywhere

    You and me... all alone


    You got that certain

    'Je ne sais quoi...'

    Don't know just what it is you got

    It's like you don't even care

    That's what makes you hot


    But I think you care, you do!

    You care more then you ever knew

    It's just hard for you to stay true


    That I understand

    You can't be together with just one man

    That's never been part of your real plan

    But hey, Imma fan!


    You're still young

    Experimenting and havin' fun!

    Not running from your responsibilities

    Still makin' time for less fortunates ones


    An angel in disguise

    Are you send here for fun?

    With your sweet angel eyes

    Will they be your demise?

    'Cause your still searching for something

    I can feel it when I'm near you

    You're still on the run


    (January 2011, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

     


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    26-12-2010
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    Love changed


    It could be so easy

    But you make it so hard

    I might act like one sometimes

    When I need to see you smile

    But I'm not a retard

     

    Not even a goodbye

    Not a thing, not a word

    Only left with selfpitty and pain

    Didn't know you where leaving again


    Not a kiss, a hug

    Not even a goodbye

    Is that what you said and meant?

    Forever in your heart!

    You're such a good guy!

    Is that what you said and meant?

    Or was it all a lie...?


    How can I ever take you serious

    You're so delirious

    Thinking your feelings will ever change

    Run, hide, begin all over, but it will never be the same


    You know this and so do I

    Now I insist, give me a reply!

    We still got this connection

    'Cause I gave you protection

    I gave you the truth

     

    And now I want your truth in return

    No more lies, had enough of those

    Now your truth is my only concern

     

    I once saw a sad girl

    I made her dissapear

    'Cause when you were down

    I made you feel you again!

    And this is what I got in return

    You made me feel invisible

    When we were in the same room or miles apart

    Seemed like you wanted me to crash and burn

     

    Love was lost

    Love was found

    Love has changed

    And by your blindness

    Love has been drowned


    You made me forget

    What love can do

    What love can mean

    Now it means nothing

    Time to come clean

     

    Time to realise the truth

    You ran away from me

    I respected that

    You needed time

    And found a summer love

    A new partner in crime


    He was there when you where in need

    I wasn't there, but how could I've been?

    We had to give eachother space

    As agreed... But now I plead


    Summer's over

    And reality has set in

     

    Reply truthfully

    From the heart

    I only ask for the truth

    If you don't know what to say...

    You'll find my questions herein


    Why do you live this lie?

    Why make it so hard?

    Open your eyes

    Be smart

    Why do you cry?

    Why lie to yourself?

    Why keep my love on a shelf?


    Why be with a man

    Who will never fully understand

    Who you really are

    Why you are a star


    Keep living this lie

    Give that life a try

    And find that your starlight will fade away

    A trickstar again

    A million miles away

    And there to stay


    I broke it off

    Sure, I made that call

    But what you're doing now

    Is making us forget about real Love

    Unconditional Love, being together, standing tall


    Lost all hope for something new

    Maybe for us too

    Will we ever know?

    This time you chose to leave

    Vendetta's relieve!


    Did you choose well?

    Only time will tell

    But I'll tell you this

    It's me you'll miss

    Like I always miss you

    You'll never feel complete

    Until the end of time

    Time and time again

    Until our time is through

    You'll live with this pain

     

    I'll always be here

    I'll be here where your heart belongs

    'Cause it's your truthful heart I persue


    I hope you realize what you've done

    Not even a hug? All I wanted

    All I wanted at that time

    It was all I wanted from you

    But it was too much

    Pour V, pour vous


    I know where you should be

    And I'll be here where you belong

    'Cause it's the truthful you I persue

    I've waited for it for so long


    Life is passing you by

    Until you're home again

    Now forever passing you by

     

    Now you're lving safely

    Without real love

    Living safely

    'Cause of my unconditional love

    That you where deprived of


    Life and love wants you to understand

    That you're not living your own life

    You're just giving it a try

    But you and I know

    That you're just playing along!

     

    You keep on living painfully

    Leaving yourself miles away

    Left with nothing but your cries

    Living painfully in your created world of lies

     

     

    (December 2010, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

     


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    21-12-2010
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    Stay together for the kiss

     

    A fucked up day

    Some morning Rain!

    Had to face another day

    Another day to face my pain


    But that kiss

    Didn't know why

    It made me feel

    So Alive!


    I made her feel like a natural woman

    Just with this simple kiss

    But it carried so much bliss

    I made her feel like a natural woman

    And that's what she is to me

    My Girl, my Star, my Diva, my Trustee


    But what have you done to me?

    I didn't want to feel this way

    I never wanted to see this

    Now I see it clear as day

    Like me... You felt that kiss too

    Don't act like you don't have a clue


    I just wanna be close to you

    I know you wanna be here too

    Bring yourself back home

    Back here where you belong

    'Cause out there

    You'll always be without me

    You'll always on your own

     

    (December 2010, Benjammin' Hb Parker)

     

     


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