I passed somme people and heard them say, you don't do that -no you don't do that. And the run was over. They were rigth I hadn't been paying any attention to Layki and this was too hard for her. I really did not think it was too hot. But it was for her, I called a vet to ask her and she confirmed I should not go running with my dog in this weather. I was pissed. I gave up everyhing for her and all I ask of her is that she goes running with me and now that was taken away. So my dog went form annoying to being the light of my life to being annoying again. And yes I know how this sounds. I am a spoiled little brat, a bitch, a terrible person. Realising that is no fun either. I actually started listening to the things being said in my head and I do realise I am a dreadful person, awful . I judge and I hate, but I am the worst of them all. So things werent't going my way and I was in fysical an emotional pain and so I went online to look. I didn' do it but I came damn close.

I need to learn to accept who I am, if I can't accept it, how can I expect others to accept me???

God damned. She went and told our superior. Of course she did. Rat that she is. 

I really do not like people and least of all those at work. I need to focus and just do my job and stop obsessing about my collegues. This is going to get me fired. I am going to get me fired. 

She 's always saying bad things about a collegue in regards to parking at work and every chance she gets she asks whether she can park inside. And then she complains about not being able to do any excercise, but it never occurs to her that walking from a parking space further from work to work also constitutes as excercise.