witch i can not say for my friend :( i know i maybe should talked earlier abouth it but i yust couldnt. You know i had two friends who had cancer and one died like a few months ago, well my other friend died two weeks ago. It is hard for me losing people close to me. Keeps me thinking when my time will come.
But well.. Life gos on hé........;;
It has been a while sinds i put an entree but that has mostley to do with me beeing verry busy at work. i have allot of problems at work. I am short of staam people so i end up working 24/7 to get things runned and i had not such a nice financially thing going on for the moment. But i will spare you the detaills. It is making me sick and close to suicide so i wont bither you all with it.
So for the rest, not much has changed. Still the workholic i used to be, and in marridge things arent great eather. It seems like the harder i trie to do god the deeper things are gooing to get out. Don't know what it is, but i guess life sucks.
I am still wrestling with the same questions i did like a year ago, so i guess it is never going to be solved, and it seems like how hard i trie to forget it how harder it seems to not think abbouth it. Strange but i don't know how to solve it.
Maybe i am readdy to put away, you know with a white vest on i a nice white chamber yust talking to myself.
I am struggeling with the thougt of starting a new life, somewhere else, from ground zero..; but don't know if that will solve my issues.
Hope i can somehow somewhere releave myself from it.
Maybe a single trip to somewhere for a while will give me answers. Forgetting everything for a while.(except my two little angels, i neverwill hurth them and will do everything to make them happy)
Well, still the same old shit hé, not much have changed.
