... it's now 0:40 am and i was kind of working and putting my new laptop into order. Don't felt like i was tired so i thought i would write something in my blogg. Sorry if i don't managed yet to put some pic's on from the game, i douwnloaded them at my office pc so i need to do that at the office(ofcourse ) I kind of feel absent latley (not onley on my blogg) but with my thoughts, hope you understand me what i'm trying to say. I think allot abbouth what i want and the goals i'm trying to get. But sometimes it's hard. It's like every step i take closer to my goals makes me go back two steps. I'm not 100% focussed i think and that's why i mean i'm absent latley. Don't know what it is and i'm trying to figure that out but it's not eassy. Who will give answers to my questions that i have besides the persons who know the answer. I think if i'm honnest with myself i'm yust affraid to ask them because of the answers i will get. Maybe the answers r not that bad ,but what if they r. Could i handel it?? So i'm walking arround in a world of thoughts and illusions for the moment and fantasizing abbouth the answers. May time will tell or will i find enough strengt to ask the questions. Sometimes i wonder if i'm the onley one who think the way i do, or if there r others thinking the same. kind of a strange entrey hé, but like i said yust thinking out loud i guess How do you deal with the choices you make in life? Some of them r essey to fix if you made the wrong choice but others..... they have great changes in life and affects others to, and if you chance the choice you made is it the wright thing two chance it?? (some of you must be thinking i'm crazy hé, well i think i'm becomming ) it's kind of a relieve talking here no1 talking back or arguing with me and it is kind of my chest for the moment. people choud be able to take a brake in life and do whatever they wanne do without consequences or having to make choices but i think that would be a mission impossible hé talk talk talk ..... whining and complaining.... thats me for the moment. I know some people who don't like that but .... ok it's yust for know , when i wake up tommorow i put on my mask again and the world think i'm yust dooing fine like they r used to of me.... they schould know hé.... Maybe it's time to let go of the past..., but i don't want to... i had to much fun then,don't wanne let go, not yet...., maybe never... well enough of the whining sh** , here is a song that i was forgotten for allong time, used to sing it all the time, and suddentley yesterday it came back to me, there r manny differents artists and songs abbouth it but they al meaning the same. Enjoy... SaM
19-02-2008, 01:20 geschreven door modig
14-02-2008
PSV -HIF
Well, tonight (yesterday evening) i went to see the game PSV-HIF. PSV won the game with 2-0 but in mine oppinion it wasn't earned. The pennalty the ref gave psv wasn't really a pennalty , but what can we do abbouth it. Hif got some nice chances to score the first half but.... I was hoping they would score atleast one time so that would be intressting for the game next thursday when psv needs to play at hif. I think Hif is gooing to win next week. So i'll try to put some pic's i have taken during the game on my blogg tomorow (if they where anny good pic's with it)The people who had invited me where teasing me because psv won the game and i tolled them i would prefer if HIF won. So Had a great time but i'm really tired know so Goodnight everry one
Greetz-
14-02-2008, 01:04 geschreven door modig
08-02-2008
it's a cruel world,,
I was a little absent the last few weeks 1 : beacause i have so much work i barley have time to do something else but working. 2 : I have much emotional stuf on my mind.
point 1 i'm not gooing to write much abbouth because i said that several times already that i have much working to do, onley this past few weeks it was a littlebit more than other times.
Point 2 is more of a problem i'm strugeling with now. Emotional problems if it is the wright word i' musing here. it's maybe hard to explain but i'll give it a try. Two friends of mine ar strugeling with cancer for several years now. It is difficult for me to deal with that because i've alreddy lost a friend who had cancer. And one of my other two friends died sunday night at his diseasse. His funeral is tommorow so it's not gooing to be a happy day. i really miss him, he played football in my team so we hang out quiet allot. He was onley 35 years old. it's not fair, but what can we do abbouth it? I guess nothing. He has a son who is 11 yeras old who know is left allone with his mom, terrible thinking abbouth it. My other friend has a brain tumor and is opperated for 5 time's and two weeks ago he got the news the docs could'nt help him annymore and he would life maximum annother 4-5 monts, so i'm not having a great time know thinking abbouth them. People say life go's on, that's true but it is always verry hard losing some1 close. Sometimes i don't know how to deal with the toughts not having them arround annymore. So i will be having this emotional stuf on my mind for a little while i guess. I would say things will get better but i guess that sounds a little selfish at the moment thinking abbouth my friends who will never get better.
So sorry if i'm a little absent for the moment.
Grts ME
08-02-2008, 23:48 geschreven door modig
22-01-2008
Weight repport 2
Oke, here is my second masurement of me "trying" to lose some weight.
So the past week was a little difficult. i know i don't have to come up with excuses but i was so buzzy i did'nt stick to my scaduale exactley as planned. That means the results aren't that what i thought it would be. I also had a party last saturday and oke i had some alcohol. Well here you have it, i'm not really proud of it. It's not that eat to much but but always late in the evening an pretty notthing during the day. I bust myself also each day of not drinking enough water. So i have to work on that also. But there is always next week
Here is my report from week 2
DATE
Kg/ weight
Borst/udder
Buik/ abdomen
Heup/Hip
Links bovenbeen
Rechts bovenbeen
Links Bovenarm
Rechts bovenarm
Totaal in cm
Lost CM
Lost KG
Left upper leg
Right upper leg
Left upper arm
Right upper arm
7/01/2008
131,3
129
128
119,5
70,5
70
40,5
42,5
600
14/01/2008
126,4
126
127
119
69
68
40
42
591
7
-4,9
21/01/2008
127
122
126
119
69,5
68,5
39,5
41
585,5
5,5
+0,6
TOTAAL
12,5
-4,3
Not that great he but ok it isn't bad eather
And off the record ,ok it was a spelling error but it was funny wasn't it
22-01-2008, 22:53 geschreven door modig
Great news :)
Yes Yes Yes,
Today i got a telephonecall from a supplier in holland(nederland), i will work pretty close with this supplier this year for selling products and buying exclusief products for the belgium market. So he invited me to go and meat his staf and visiting his business and go to a nice restaurant. But that wasn't all. Guess what, it will be on the 13th februari 2008 and it also happends that this supplier has business-seats in PSV and it also happends that that evening a footbalgame is played so he invited me to the footbalgame aswell. No big deal hé you think : But guess who PSV is playing against that evening........ taht's wright ----->>> HELSINGBORG
2008-02-13
20:45
PSV Eindhoven - HIF
UEFA Cupen Omg 16-delsfinal
YES YES YES..... i'm wondering if i will wear my jacket that i bought of HIV in helsingborg, i guess so... if i don't end up in a fight ....
Well, and tell now if i aint a lucky guy or not :)
Grtz ikke
22-01-2008, 18:33 geschreven door modig
21-01-2008
Music ....
I was listening to some music on youtube and ofcourse Rihanna's music is always great. So i found a new compilation of please don't stop the music. "the lyrics r yust great".
21-01-2008, 17:45 geschreven door modig
15-01-2008
My Weekly weight report : Report 1
Hello, i'm planning on giving you all a weekly report with my messurements and weight. Not that you can do something with that, but it is kind of a stimulant for me to keep up the good work. Wel, my first week was kind of tough, special when i go out to play football or darts. Normally there are some snacks and ofcourse beer. So i was standing there with my water or orangejuse and everybody was asking me if i was sick or on medication. No, i told them i am trying to get a littlebit of that weight off. But it was still hard. Last friday we went to this babyshower of a friend of mine and ofcourse the same thing , Chips and Alchohol, But not for me , No i have to hold this strikt otherwise it has no use. But it payed of. Here is my report from week 1
DATE
Kg/ weight
Borst/udder
Buik/ abdomen
Heup/Hip
Links bovenbeen
Rechts bovenbeen
Links Bovenarm
Rechts bovenarm
Totaal in cm
Lost CM
Lost KG
Left upper leg
Right upper leg
Left upper arm
Right upper arm
7/01/2008
131,3
129
128
119,5
70,5
70
40,5
42,5
731,3
14/01/2008
126,4
126
127
119
69
68
40
42
717,4
13,9
4,9
21/01/2008
I hope this is going to be like this next week but i doubt that, but you'll never know hé
grtz Me , Myself & I
15-01-2008, 18:13 geschreven door modig
12-01-2008
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ! ! !! ! ! !! ! ! !
GRRRR....... Today was one to forget pretty fast. I was working on a project in Antwerpen ,88km from my office. So this morning i drove to Antw. to start this project and to tell the installationpeople what to do. it took abbouth an hour so at 9 am i left towards a meeting with a new client nearby.(54km) After the meeting i went direction my office arround 11am. The people that i have who do the placements of the systems i sell, phoned me yust before i got home that the supplier delivered the wrong pieces, what means they couldn't work annymore. So i drove to my office to get the wright pieces in our suplie. Than i drove back so they can finished there job for today. It was terrible i planned my day so well to do things that has to done before the week-end is over and i ended up driving all day. I drove like 578km today yust because some stupid idiot made a mistake. So thiat means i have to work tomorrow as well. I'm really stressed out for the moment. It was a sh** Fu***** day . i hope i can relax tonight at the darts game i'm gooing to play tonight. Well that was my day , how was yourse
Grtz S-q
12-01-2008, 18:02 geschreven door modig
10-01-2008
Losing some weight
Finally , last monday i started to lose of that "to much" weight of mine. I have giving up everything : No more Chips, candy, sweet stuf, french fries(actually Belgium fries ,don't know why they call it french fries ), Alchohol ( my sweet beers ) etc..... So it already paid of , i lost 2.7 kg sinds monday so stil 27.3 kg to go. my goal is to lose those 30 kg in six months, before the summer. I know it is going to be hard (saying no to all those things) but that's my goal and i'm sure i will fix it. Time to get back into chape. The first 20kg will go pretty fast, but the last 10kg i know it's gooing to be hard. I'm also planning to go running 3 time's a week, for my healt and to relax from work. Wel keep you posted on the progress i make, normally i masure myself each monday-morning.
Bye , going to watch a movie with a healty Apple
10-01-2008, 20:57 geschreven door modig
08-01-2008
Repport from Germany
Hello, Finnaly, i can write something abbouth my trip to Germany. The trip with the car went well. I phoned my contact in germanny to ask if i need to change tires and had to bring snowchaines to travel true the snow. But yust like it is here there wasn't anny snow during the period we went. Luckely, i hate to drive in the snow. So we left at my place arround 9:45 am and arrived at 3pm we had no trafic jams so that was ok. Arround 3:30 pm i and my collegue had this meeting with my contact to discusse abbouth us working togheter and wich product we would be transporting etc.... this meeting ended arround 8pm. Than we had to pic up our woman and kids to go to this local restaurant. The food was really good, but you know me, i never complain abbouth food We had a great evening. The next day we went swimming in a swimpark nearby where we stayed in the hotel. The kids loved it, swimming and splashing into the water. I liked it too because there was these swimmingarea that also went outside to swim. the water T° was really hot, and the pool had those special waterjets where you could let you're body be massaged by the water. Great thing it was the first time i saw something like that. So normally we where supposed to go home that evening, but there were a few other things we would like to visit so we stayed onother day. So the next day we went to this big musseum with a 3D cinema inside, there where old army things, lots of plaines etc... Really cool (here is a link to the website for those who r intrested http://www.technik-museum.de/uk/sinsheim/ ). After that we went direction home. So concluding this: did great business and had a great time with everything = Great trip. In a few month's i need to go to Austria, thinking of making there also a smal busines-relaxation trip.
Well back to work, tomorrow i have another project on the field, brrrrr , thinking abbouth what happened last time
So grtz
08-01-2008, 19:43 geschreven door modig
26-12-2007
some time....
.... to wright something again.
It' has been a dissaster last few weeks. I had allot to do before the christmas holliday started. People needing all sort of things, clients to handel etc... I was affraid i couldn't handel it but " i did it " I'm a little proud at myself. And on top of it all I was smart enough to invite the whole familly for christmas dinner yesterday , so i had to cook dinner for them all. I start cooking at 10am and at 5pm the familly entered, at 6pm we where eating, it was nice, again cooking, i like to cook, specially for Christmas. But it aint over yet. I still have to do allot of "field work" this week That means working on the projects wich i sold. Placing al those ventilation systems means hard fisical work starting in the morning at 6 o'clock and comming home at 19 o'clock. I hope i can manage that, i must admit it has been a while sinds i've been working on the field.
Next week i'm invited to go to Germanny, to a international client, i will leave 2 januari in the morning and comming back next day in the evening. It is like 475km from my place so i will go by car. I've reservated a big room so i'm taking my wife and kids with me. The first day i probebley gooing to spend most of the day with my client but the second day i have almost all day to visit the town and shops etc...
Well, keep you posted on the rest of things when i can. Grtz...
26-12-2007, 14:45 geschreven door modig
19-12-2007
ME@office part II
19-12-2007, 23:53 geschreven door modig
Me Working @ the office 1
So, here is a picture where you can actually see me in action. Not a pretty sight hé. To much mess on my desk and no time to clean things up. The onley thing missing here is a big asstray full with sigarette left overs, the koffie and mess is there alreaddy hihi.
19-12-2007, 23:51 geschreven door modig
yust funny
i was surfing some bloggs and came up with this So funny
19-12-2007, 00:46 geschreven door modig
18-12-2007
strange ......
how you think you know some1, but the opposite is true. You all know that i bought out the stockholders in my companny, wel we had several meetings before i did that and talked abbouth it for hours etc.. And everybody was cool with it and said it was ok. So i thought ok. Know i heared that they (and one in particular) are telling everybody what a dirty trick i played before so i could buy them out. It was my fold the costs where to hi in the companny and that we couldn't make enough profit out of things etc..... GGRRR.... Makes me mad, I , who was working day and night to make it all work. But i know why they say this kind of things. I was deeling with some serious projects and it took a while before those people discided if they will work with us or not. And the coincedence will be that sinds i am the onley stockholder and the BIGG BOSS ,to call it that way, 3 of the 5 projects i was working on discided to work with me suddentley. So it is kind of a jallouse thing, but what can i do abbouth it that they sicided to do it now and not before. So i was suprised how you think you know people and they turn out yust the other way. Kind of sad after all we have been true. But life go's on, ans so will i ...... Grts...
18-12-2007, 20:19 geschreven door modig
14-12-2007
de eindejaars drukte :(
I don't know how to say that in english but it's abbouth the rush that i feel in my work before x-mas and new year. It's like every year, al those people wanting there project handeld before x-mas, but what they don't understand is that i onley have 2 hands and feet to do all this. It is not that difficult to understand, or is it. So last week is the final week before we close for 2 weeks. So i probebley will be working 24/7 next week to get it all done. And then "R E S T" for 2weeks, not that i will stop working because there will be some serriuos things to be done before we open again the second week of januari 2008, but there will be no answering the phone, no clients to handle, so i can work relaxed. Whoho.
Some friends of mine are gooing to spend there vacation in Sweden to cellabrate New year. To bad that i can't go with them , i know they will have a wonderfull time there. But maybe some day i will have my chance to go back again.
I'm not sure what i'm going to do that day, probebley putting on a big fire outside and spend some time with the neighbours and family , fireing some firework and stuff. Drinking Jenever and eating al kinds of things. Should be fun.
Tomorrow one of my best friends is turning 40 years old. I hold my breath for tomorrow evening, komt nie goed(dosn't come wright), is how we call it --- still have to figure out a prank that i can pull with him --- ANNY idea's
I finaley pick-up my bas-guitar again. It was like 4,5 years ago that i stopped playing, I try to play everry-day for like an hour or so, to get back into it a littlebit. It helps me relax after a hard day at the office. I went to see a doctor because i had some stress, and he tolled me to play again to relax and it is kind of working. it is something you can do whenever i want, for as long as i want and i guess that is what helps to relax. I love to play the old songs i still know from "Rage Against The Machine" WHOOO Like it. i wil put my favorit here below.
But ok, i think i will put an end to my chit chat know , time to go eat something. My wife is going to watch a soccergame tonight "KRC-Genk" So i have to baby-sit. I love to do that spending some x-tra time with my kids.
So, talk to you soon and bye.
14-12-2007, 17:58 geschreven door modig
12-12-2007
Back from being gone :)
Hello,
I know, i know, silly for deleting my other blogg, but i wasn't that happy abbouth it that so much people where reading it. But ok i'm back , i really missed it putting out my feelings in writing and telling abbouth my everidge life. So , why this name for my blogg . Last weekend it was the eurovision song festival for kids and i was listening to it with one ear while i was working. suddentley my wife called me and said " hurry up, you're Sweden is abbout to sing"(she said that is was my sweden because i'm always telling what a great time i had there) so i went to watch that performance. The tittle of the song was " Nu eller aldrig" it was a great song and the girl who was singing it did it really well. I didn't know what happend at that moment but it brought some seriuos memories back to life. I really like that country, strange he, i think abbout it everry day, i had such a great time the two times a was there. Hard to explain. So i looked up the lyrics from that song, and it kind of discribes the feelings that i have. So i thought why not start a new blogg, new beginnig, like the tittle says "Nu eller aldrig" - Now or never, has a doubble meaning to me, The first you know discribes kind of what i feel, and the second is like it says Now Or Never, you know i sayd in my previous blogg i was thinking of buying the stockholders out of my companny and dooing it all by myself, well i did it cost me a fortune so for me it's like "Now or Never". I'm trying to build something in my life and i am giving it 100% for almost 9 years now, and now i' am at this point of giving it one last chance(not that it dosn't go well for the moment), and if i don't reach my goals like i want, i give up. Not that i'm a quiter but it's like a candle, it burns a while and it's ful of energy but there commes a time the fire is gone and this is kind of like me, I burn like hell but if there notthing left to burn for ...... you can fill in the rest. So new start, new hope and new goals. I'm Back and more dangerous then ever.
"The cards are on the table, it all depends now on how you play the game."
Grtz Me.............;;;
12-12-2007, 09:10 geschreven door modig
27-09-2005
AAAUUUWWW...........
Neen, uw blog moet niet dagelijks worden bijgewerkt. Het is gewoon zoals je het zélf wenst. Indien je geen tijd hebt om dit dagelijks te doen, maar bvb. enkele keren per week, is dit ook goed. Het is op jouw eigen tempo, met andere woorden: vele keren per dag mag dus ook zeker en vast, 1 keer per week ook.
Er hangt geen echte verplichting aan de regelmaat. Enkel is het zo hoe regelmatiger je het blog bijwerkt, hoe meer je bezoekers zullen terugkomen en hoe meer bezoekers je krijgt uiteraard.
) I kind of feel absent latley (not onley on my blogg) but with my thoughts, hope you understand me what i'm trying to say. I think allot abbouth what i want and the goals i'm trying to get. But sometimes it's hard. It's like every step i take closer to my goals makes me go back two steps. I'm not 100% focussed i think and that's why i mean i'm absent latley. Don't know what it is and i'm trying to figure that out but it's not eassy. Who will give answers to my questions that i have besides the persons who know the answer. I think if i'm honnest with myself i'm yust affraid to ask them because of the answers i will get. Maybe the answers r not that bad ,but what if they r. Could i handel it??
) it's kind of a relieve talking here no1 talking back or arguing with me
and it is kind of my chest for the moment. people choud be able to take a brake in life and do whatever they wanne do without consequences or having to make choices but i think that would be a mission impossible hé
taht's wright ----->>> HELSINGBORG 
Finally , last monday i started to lose of that "to much" weight of mine.
) etc.....
to get it all done. And then "R E S T" for 2weeks, not that i will stop working because there will be some serriuos things to be done before we open again the second week of januari 2008, but there will be no answering the phone, no clients to handle, so i can work relaxed. Whoho. 
, i know they will have a wonderfull time there. But maybe some day i will have my chance to go back again.
