I don't know what to do.Everything is just not going like i want it to go. I don't know what i feel , what i want , what i wanna do and what i wanne reach. I tought being a teenager was fun, going to parties, drink , have fun with friends, do everything you want. But it is not like that , at all. It is painfull , people don't care about you the disrespect you and things like that. And offcourse you fall in love for the first time and your hart is gonna be broken but then you are closer to your true love. Speaking of love , i would kill someone to see William , i just miss him and the fact that Amber sees him everyday is not making it better. After school i saw Tim he said hye and i said hello and smiled , it is weard to explain what i feel i like him but it is not that i have butterflies in my belly , but when school is out i always hope that i see him. I don't feel butterflies with William eather but i do like him and maybe i get butterflies when i know him better , or maybe when i know Tim better. I tought it was just lie o i like him for 2 days or something but it is not , i keep thinking about them , about them both. That's the weard thing. Tim has a girlfriend and William thinks i'm to young and i moving to America next year , ofcourse this happens to me. Like always , hye karma what did i do wrong ?
11-09-2012 om 22:10
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
society sucks
I can' sleep , i keep thinking about everything. How much i miss William , i wanna see him so badly. How i like Tim , i'm not really sure if i like him like a friend or more but i don't wanna like him like more. And how badly i wanna go back to Turkey , to Hasari and Seyyar. How annoying Karolien is and how she thinks that she is perfect. About my future , and looks and weight. Just everything , it's so hard being a teenager.Everything is so difficult , everyone is judging you before they know you. People are hating people for no reason ,people think that they have it so bad while children are dying in Africa and living without parents. Life is hard for everyone , but why giving up while you have so much to reach? Why stop dreaming when it is the best thing that is on your mind? Why hiding yourself while the whole world would like to know you? All questions without any answer , and why? BECAUSE SOCIETY SUCKS !
11-09-2012 om 00:24
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
10-09-2012
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don't judge someone before you know them.
10-09-2012 om 19:20
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
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words can hurt , so think twice before you say something.
10-09-2012 om 19:19
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
school is cool
Today was school again , and to be honest i'm starting to like school. I just love my class ! Me Tanne,Andrea and Milla sneeked out of school when it was lunchtime and we eated some fries and went back. I'm a little sick so i look like shit . After school i saw Tim and Jill and when Tim saw me a smile came on his face and on mine to but i wasn't only laughing to him but at the little kid that walked with them so i don't know if he was laughing about that to or if he was just happy to see me. Sometimes is just think tings that aren't true or i don't dair to say to someone that i like him because i'm affraid of the answer. I had homework to today , not fun. I felt really bad this morning. Amber said that her boyfriend said that i look skinnier in real than on picture that wasn't bad but then she said that he tought i was fat. I was like why the fuck are you telling me this? Good start of a day right. I was hurted and angry and than Karolien started to say stupid things like it was his pc you aren't fat it was his pc. But it was on a tone like i'm skinnier than you and i'm perfect and you are fat .I was so angry at that moment that i just started to scream to her , i said you don't know anything about it you aren't fat you are skinny as fuck so stop talking shit because you can't talk about it because you don't understand ! I don't think she accpected that. Maybe i was overreacting but they just don't know how it is to be judged on weight and face , and be reminded of it everyday , every single day my mom says i have to lose weight. I'm trying , i'm really trying but it is really really really hard. I see people everyday that can eat what they want without getting bigger. It is just hard , i hate it.
10-09-2012 om 19:17
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
some girl in the universe
