I'm feeling better , actually i was feeling better. I stayed from monday till friday at Tanne's place, so i didn't think about the bad things that happened everything went very well i felt better , happy and the reason of that was the support of my friends they made me laugh but not only my friends also one direction did alot for me , everytime i watch them or listen to them it makes me happy but also sad because i'm not able to go to the concert , speaking of the concert , Karolien said she might could get tickets for me and guess what , she can't so did she really had to make me happy to make me down again , and also the old story repeated himself , a week ago she was still crying about Djarno and now she had someone else that she knows for maybe 2 weeks , she didn't tell me i had to find it out on facebook , i texted her but she didn't reply the next day on school she pretended that she didn't saw me and i texted her again after school and she still hasn't replied , i'm just like , really ? where is your respect did our friendship even ment something to you? And apperently Jill and Tim are back together , ofcourse. My mom is coming back tomorrow finally! After this week i realized how good she is for us and how amazing friends i have , and i'm not talking about Karolien , she ruined it again it is never gonna me like before , never and i'm serious he can go find another doll to play with but not longer with me ! i'm done with this
17-11-2012 om 16:22
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
11-11-2012
sick of it
hello everyone , this week was jus awful. School started again after a realy bad vacation so i wasn't in a good mood anyways , apperently Tim wants Jill back but Jill loves somebody else , i mean like realy, are you serious? Figure out what you want and don't play with eachother. Also my mom left wednesday on vacation , for 10 days that's like super long and i miss her allready. I skipt school thursday and friday because i wasn't feeling well , Anke is like super nice to everyone and that's just weird , she is like an evil bitch and now she is like that it's really confusing. Friday i had to go to my dad's place , i just don't feel good there but after all it was oke at least he was happy to see us back. Also that competition from MNM wast saturday , but i didn't make it trough.I'm sick of it , sick of all those bad things. My mom calls me fat all the time , i'm never going to see 1D , i'm just broken at the moment. I even tried to cut myself , the first time in my life to just let all the pain away and to be honest it felt better.
11-11-2012 om 19:10
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
03-11-2012
worst day of my life
I cried like the whole day today but i'll first tell you what happened this week. Wednesday i went to Antwerp and i bought alot and i had fun. Thursday i went to Nicky's in the evening to have a dinner with Tanne and Milla also that was fun. Yesterday i went to a party but Jill was also there and she told Karolien that i was a bad friend and shit like that and i'm just like, realy bitch? I am i bad friend? What are you then? Jezus i hate her so much , and she said that Tim has a new girlfriend , like what? And now is she mad at him but euhm hello ? You kissed another guy when you just broke up? Who is the slut then. Than that awfull party and than today i can't even speek of it. The only chance that i had to see 1D and ofcourse i didn't get tickets , i did everything to get tickets no matter what but realy i'm in tears right now i would do anything , ANYTHING ! And now this my life just sucks. And also William didn't reply on my happy birthday text oke than i'm not gonna reply when i get a text from you , jerk.But yeah story of my life right?
03-11-2012 om 21:29
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
30-10-2012
here is the later
I could'nt wait to tell you all about my week so i went down to get the charger.So back to 1D, there is a contest from MNM where you get the chance to meet and see them in new york , crazy right? But is like a chance of one in a million but maybe i'm the lucky one , who knows. They are coming to Belguim in may and the ticket sale is gonna start saturday so i have to see that i'm on time for the tickets on the front row , hopefully when the concert is i'm early enough to stay on the first row. I'm allready looking forward to it. My vacation has been good allready , i went to Tanne and we had a girlsnight and i drunk a little to much , so i puked. First time i had to puke from the alcohol! But i had a great time. There was also a Halloween thing in my city and i also went to that , also that was fun. But the birthday party of me and my sister and brother was boring as hell , but the good thing was i asked my dad if he wanted to buy an appartment in London for me and guess what , he said yes ! I miss him and i feel sorry for him that i don't see him much , i want to change that but it's not gonna be easy , i'm still strugeling with the past but at the end he is and stays my dad and i love him.
30-10-2012 om 20:58
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
best week of my life
It's finally vacation , only for a week but yeah it's something right? Well as you allready now i always forgot to write things but i will do my best. I'm working at my body , i go to the gym and do more excercieses. But let's go to the real BIG news, ... ONE DIRECTION IS COMING TO BELGIUM!!!Sorry not sorry but i'm really excited ! i hope i'll get the chance to finally see them but later more because mu pc i gonna die now , laters!
30-10-2012 om 20:36
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
20-10-2012
long time no write
Sorry that i didn't write for a long long loooong time , but school is hard and their are always things in my mind. I'm gonna give you a quick update from what happend. So Bente is back with Micha , me and the rest of my class had i fight with Anke she broked up with nick but now they are back together.Karolien had a boyfriend but he is kinda using her and cheating on her, Jill and Tim broke up and Jill is now a bitch to Tim more than ever and i still haven't seen William and i'm also still upset with Niall from one direction.I'm also working on my health and weight. Almost every teacher in school don't like me because it is always me that does things wrong but i have to see that i'm always very loud , mostly you hear me before you see me. My friendship with Tanne Milla and Andrea is getting closer and closer, that is what i call real friends because they support me in my dreams and everything, the funny thing is me and Andrea both want to go to London and compete at the x factor together and hopefully we can do it as soon as possible, than i can check one thing on my checklist. Maybe i'm not gonna write very soon but when i can i'll do it, promise!
20-10-2012 om 00:51
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
06-10-2012
so tired
Sorry for not writing , i can't say everything because i don't remember anything. The fact is i'm still in to one direction asspecialy niall , i still miss William , i still want to go to London and i still can talk well with Tim and Jill is still a jelaous girlfriend.Of school i don't remember anything so i'm gonna skip that . There was alot of drama after Luna Festa about Bente Micha and Daphne , yesterday there was a party and we all went to there Jill and Tim and Joke stayed for the night , Jill was beiing a jeleous bitch and i completely understand Tim, we were just talking and she was freaking out and on the party we were being crazy and Jill just stood there with a face that said stop cheating on me , but we were doing nothing? ofcourse there is some chemistry with me and Tim i mean not love but just good friends. Karolien has a boyfriend and she didn't tell me about him and she still didn't i think that i'm losing her.And the fact that William doesn't care about me doesn't make anything easier. I'm still hoping that i ever get to meet niall and the rest of one direction , i really wanna reach my dreams now , but people are laughing at me and that takes my mood down. I was drunk at the party and me and Karolien were being SO crazy , best party ever. I went to the estetica shop today and i am so tired right now , i feel like nobody cares about me and about what i want. This is not the place were i want to be this is not were i meant to be i feel it and i know it , but i'm scared so scared that i will break.
06-10-2012 om 21:46
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
01-10-2012
silly Andrea
Omg , i just had an amazing time today and yesterday. I went to Tanne for a sleepover and we lought our asses out , but this morning we were verry tired but ofcourse on school we laught again supe.r hard. Andrea sat on my knees but i opend them and she felled between them and her face was just amazing ! Haha , and also i was doing funny things in class with my bathjass.I asked Andrea if sha wanted to take guitar , piano and sing lessons and come with me to London and compete at x factor and i will marry Niall and she will marry Zayn , dreams are great but the tought that they might not become reality is just hard broken.
01-10-2012 om 21:30
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
29-09-2012
boring saturday
I didn't do alot today.I was up at lunchtime so i eated and getted ready to work in the icecream shop , i hate working there. When my mom was back from her beauty time my shift was over so i chilled untill 5 o'clock and then i went to Aarschot to get paint for my room. And guess what i bought , a strike plank with the british flag on ! I'm allready looking forward to live on my own in London and hopefully reach something their , something that i always wanted. But from now i just have to wait and keep hoping and dreaming that someday i will reach my dreams.
29-09-2012 om 23:17
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
late again
Sorry for the long wait , again. I'm not in the mood so it's not gonna me a long post. I told you monday about thinking that my mom could have cancer , we asked her about the messages and they where not about her , luckely. The rest of the week i had a normal time at school nothing special. I'm thinking to plan a trip to London and finally try to reach my dream and stop thinking about what other people think about me.I'm 15 now and i'm not gonna let them take me down. Me british english is going better so their would be a change that i'm going to london before i'm 16 and i'm gonna try to connect or find the boys of one direction and Tom Daley , as fan and maybe as a friend. Im gonna start thinking about myself to not only about others.
29-09-2012 om 00:43
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
24-09-2012
funny fact
if i had a british accent i'd never shut up.
24-09-2012 om 20:12
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
first 15 experience
It was my first full day as a 15 year old girl.Yesterday Tanne,Milla and Andrea staeyd for a sleepover for my birtdy we drunk a little and played the i have never game. We went to bed late but we had to get up early , we almost missed our buss. I had a great day at school , i laughed , i had fun etc. But yesterdag i red a message from my mom to a friend that said that she is sick and that she need a opperation and radiations and that she is very tired and things like that, it sounded like she has cancer. I don't wanna lose my mom , i love her so much. I dare not as her what she has because i'm affraid of the answer. I told Bente about what i red annd se told my grandmother they are now talking in the bathroom , i don't know if my grandmother knows but if it's bad i don't wanne hear it.
24-09-2012 om 20:11
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
23-09-2012
funny fact
Im' addicted to one direction and there new song , i love it !
23-09-2012 om 14:56
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
happy birthday to me
I'm finally 15 , 1 year closer to 16! But also is today the day that i had my last chance to see William , and i didn't take it. I think i should had send him a message or aks if we could go do something but i just didn't dare it , i'm such a pussy. He also didn't say happy birthday to me but the day isn't over yet. In 2 hours my friend Tanne Milla and Andrea are coming for a sleepover , i'm looking forward to it.I'll spee to you later today !
23-09-2012 om 14:54
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
22-09-2012
just 'hi'
In 28 minutes i'm 15, finally.But first let's talk about my day , my last post as a 14 year old girl. I was up very early and i was just chilling. Yesterday i said to my sister that i didn't want micha tomorrow here because it is my birthday. And this afternoon who walked in , ofcourse Micha. I was like oke today is fine but tomorrow naha. The rest of the day i just hanged out and watched tv. And than in the evening a couple minutes ago , the message where i waited a month for finally came. Mehmet and Hassari messaged me on facebook, they still remember me ! They didn't forget ! That means actually alot for me. Guys i still miss you and i will never forget you , i love you!
22-09-2012 om 23:40
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
21-09-2012
pc and personal problems
Sorry ! I that didn't write in like 5 days but my pc died so i had to whait until he worked again. I stayed home from school and nothing special happened also the rest of the week was just normal. But yesterday and today was all drama drama drama. Amber a friend of Karolien lied about having sex , and than she said she did had sex? I mean don't lie she even don't love the kid she is just using him for sex.And than Tiffany smoked for like 3 months , dude why do you smoke ? You can smoke but when i smoke for like one time on a party stop saying shit about me. She is also so selfish, there are 100 lockers in our school for over 300 students and she was on the front of the row fighting for a locker while she doesn't have stuff for work lessons i mean whole my class could use a locker we have to take havy stuff to school every day and she even doesn't have stuff , let the people with stuff first and stop being selfish! There was also a little fight at school today , someone of my class Sabrina said some really mean things on facebook about our class how much she hates uss and things like that. We didn't do anything wrong to her , we talked about it at lunch but that wasn't going well in like 2 seconds the whole school was around us . So we did a class conversation. My birthday is sunday and the ice cream shop is closing than so i'm probably not gonna see William anymore , i really am not liking that !
21-09-2012 om 20:56
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
16-09-2012
i love my mom
I had to wake up at 10 in the morning. I had to go to a fashionshow to help with the make-up and hair. Our teacher told us that we were getting money for the work but we didn't, first thing that wasn't going well. We started to do the models their make up and there was just a really annoying infriendly woman that tought she was the best and tought that she could say wath we had to do and how bad we were doing it but honestly , her make up skills were just under zero. I mean really? blue blush , seriously? And the models with red lips just looked like clowns. After we did all the make up we were able to watch the show. After that we went back to the staion were my grandma was pikking me up. I had to do a lot of homework but i was so tired that i had to lay down and just watch a bit tv , just chill a little. I started with my homework but it was so many and so difficult that my mom said you can stay home tomorrow and than we can make it together than we have al the time because it was very late at that moment.I have just one thing to say about that: Mom, i love you.
16-09-2012 om 23:33
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
party hardy
I had a exhausted day today. I had to clean the bathroom and needed to get ready for Luna Festa. At Luna Festa i was first with my sister and her boyfriend after that i was with Amber and we were just hanging around and than i saw Kevin and Micha they pulled me with them so i hanged around with them and danced on hardstyle and laughed with them. Also Michas ex was there so i had to catch an eye on them. Lukely he didn't do anything wrong but Bente was overreacting. I went to the dupstep stage to chear her up and we stayed there.It was cold and boring and i wasn't in a good mood because William was there to but i didn't saw him.When it was almost time to leave i went to Amber. She was drunk , but i don't think the real drunk i think she was acting a little. And also Micha told me that he readed my blog. I hope for him that he shuts his mouth because i'm not gonna let him go away with that!
16-09-2012 om 02:20
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
14-09-2012
i love mommy
Omg , i'm really freaking out right now. I thinks my sister saw my blog and told her boyfriend about it. Her boyfriend nows Tim , i don't wanna start a fight or rumors. Because i don't love Tim! He is a friend that's it , ofcourse i like him but not like that! William was tagged in a picture with a girl sitting on his legs , like what? You don't wanna give me a goodbye hug and touch me but some random girl can go sit in you? And also i'm not gonna see him this weekend , he is on a party right now and maybe is that random girl there. But also something good happened i had fun in Leuven with Andrea , Tanne and Phillip. I'm at my dads plays now i don't like it here. I wanne go to my mom !
14-09-2012 om 23:12
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
13-09-2012
same old story
Sorry that i didn't post anything yesterday but i actually forgot it. Don't know what's wrong with me but i'm always tired, after school i sleep 2 hours and when it's 11.30 i go to bed and when it's 12 o'clock i fell asleep and the next morning i'm still tired. Maybe i'm just lazy idk. Yesterday was i day like usually , i laught at school had fun and at home i did homework , it are the first 2 weeks of school and they are overlating us with a bunch of tests. I also had a talk with my mom , Jill and Tim came to eat ice cream but i didn't saw them. My mom came to me and said the same thing as me and Karolien,Tim lies below the silt , they aren't a good couple they aren't made for eachother and the relationship is not gonna last longer. Just like me and Karolien tought about the situation. I told her the story from when they stayed for a sleepover and my mom was shocked , she said you never slap someone in the face even if they cal you a stupid bitch , poor Tim. After a while she said is Tim maybe something for you , you to would be a better couple. I was so shocked that she said that but also happy , i just answered it with no and made a weird face with it. I don't wanne tell anything to anybody because it would make problems and i don't want that. I'm at my grandmother's house right now because i have to , and i don't like it at all, if my brother was here it would be cooler but he is with his mom she is a whore just saying.
13-09-2012 om 20:56
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
some girl in the universe
