I was starting to recover. But then he looked at me again..
What's missing in your life?
Everyday, I feel like something is missing. Or maybe.. Someone is missing. I feel like there's a part of me that needs to be completed. Im okay, not happy, not sad. Just okay. Do I need someone here? Do I have anybody? Should I look for someone? I dont know,but, honestly.. I hate this feeling. The empty feeling.
Love is deadly
You know whats the most terrifying thing about admitting that youre in love?
Youre just naked. You put yourself in harms way and you lay down all your defenses. No clothes, no weapons. Nowhere to hide, completely vulnerable. The only thing that makes it tolerable is to believe the other person loves you back and you can trust them not to hurt you.
Laying under a blanket, cuddling close to him, feeling his breath on my skin,taking every sense that he has within. His lips touch my shoulder, kissing me so sweet, making my heart skip every other beat. I want that.
Fear
Dont let fear keep you from making choices that need to be made. It may be hard to swallow it. But you could just end up saving a life, you could end up making your life much more richer, you could be changing things for the better, making you a happier, more satisfied person, depending what the situation is and what decisions need to be made. So dont let fear get in the way of your success. There are ways around fear, loopholes if you cant break through it. Theres always a way. Sometimes, you just have to look for it, to find it.
Rejection
Rejection,the worst feeling. When youve grown to like someone and develop strong feelings for them and they dont feel the same . When a person is always on your mind when they never think about you at all . When you make so much effort to try to make them happy when they dont even notice it . When you say ''I like you'' and they dont return the same words..
Suicide.. This word is on everyone's lips. It shouldn't. Todays society, Pathetic. Every decision you make, you get judged for it. People committing suicide because of being bullied.Teenagers being depressed because they feel like no one cares. Using drugs, smoking, cutting,to make themselves feel better when they feel like breaking down. Grades going down because they feel like they dont have a future. Scared, because theres no one that will listen.
Every child deserves the chance to live life abundantly . Every mother deserves to see their children grow and be happy. There are kids who have lost their chance to live When will people realize That this is a matter of life or death ? How many parents have to bury their child because of the hurtful words someone else says to them? When will this stop? These kids gave their lives because they wanted it to stop.
Reading
I read because one life isnt enough, and in the page of a book I can be anybody.
I learned that everything happens for a reason. I think the reason why so many people are unhappy is because they are waiting for a time when everything is perfect. They are waiting for a day when they wake up and everything clicks, where nothing is going wrong. That day won't ever come. There will always be suffering, things will always be going wrong. That isnt a reason to be upset. You dont wait for all the suffering to be gone, you find happiness through the suffering.
Obsessed
I can honestly say that I am obsessed with love. I dont pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; Love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into the room and smile at you.
Jealous
Im jealous of her. Not because of her looks, her brains, her personality, or her material possessions. Im jealous of her because she holds your attention.
I wish I had the guts, I wish I had the guts to tell him how I feel.Pour out everything. Every detail how I feel about him. I am tired of keeping it all to myself.I am tired of feeling hurt and ignored by him. I wouldnt know how to start
Letting go
Think about it. If someone keeps hurting you, dont ask yourself Why are they doing this to me? Ask yourself Why am I letting them do this to me? Theres a difference. Be the wiser and mature person and realize whats best for you and let go.
Alone
Those minutes where Im alone, just me and my pillow, I think. A lot. I think about everything, anything. It varies from, What am I doing with my life? to Did I have homework? The room is so silent, but my mind is so loud. It drives me crazy because the things I would never think about, I think about. Sometimes I hate it, because it brings up things Id rather never think about again. The split second before I go to sleep is the most active second of my life.
Youre so cute Every thing you do makes me smile. Every thing you tell me, makes me giggle. Every time I hear your voice, my heart melts. When you tell me something sweet, my heart beats one hundred times faster. Everytime I see your name pop up on my phone, I cant help but to squeak out in excitement. You are just so cute, I cant handle it..
Love
Once I get attached, its really hard for me to disconnect from that guy. Physically, I am just drawn to him. Being around him make me feel complete. Corny, I know. But, I really do feel like I belong somewhere, as long as hes there too. Mentally, hes mostly what I think about.Corny, I know. But I really do wonder about how his day is going, what hes up to, whos he with, how hes feeling & if hes with another girl or not, cause I dont even want to share him mentally with another girl. Emotionally, he has my heart.Corny, I know. But he really does affect my mood cause if hes upset,I am sad I cant calm him down. If hes sad, I am upset cause I cant cheer him up.If hes happy, then I am happy. Period.
Living. Dying is easy. Everyone can do that. But living is another kind of story. The weak people chose the easy way, instead of dealing and fighting with their own demons.
Important lesson
If you wanna achieve something, you gotta put your ass at work and get it. Your dream won't chase you because you're lazy. :) Even though you think that you are young and you need some time for you to have fun, don't give up. You have time for fun too. But don't give up at your dreams for a temporary pleasure.
Teenagers in this society
First of all. They're a generation filled with hate. Hate towards themselves and hate towards others. Where does this hate come from? They like to manipulate others in order to make them feel bad about themselves. They do it because they can and they actually enjoy it. It's a shame. But not everyone is like that.
Its hard when you miss people. But, you know, if you miss them it means you were lucky. It means you had someone special in your life, someone worth missing.
Worst feeling
That feeling you get when someone gives up on you. Its one of the worst feelings ever. To know that someone gives up on even though they said they wont do it to you no matter what. No matter how hard you tried,or you did everything and gave everything you have,it wasnt enough to keep them in your life. It absolutely breaks your heart knowing you did everything you could but it wasnt enough for them...
Afraid
I'm afraid Ill be a book that no one reads. Music that no one listens to anymore. Im afraid Ill be abandoned like a movie playing in an empty theater.
Its funny how big of an impact he has on me. Its like when I see him, he doesn't even have to speak. All he has to do is smile, and it can make my day and thats how I remember all of my reasons for loving him.
Lost someone?
To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You dont get over it because it is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people,but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no-one else can fit it.
Why would I want them to?
Phrase you should use more often
'I forgive you' People are so filled with pride and they lose people they love because they don't want to apologize.
It's worse never trying. Ive decided I need to be more spontaneous , stop thinking about things so much and just do them. Or else nothing that I want is ever gonna happen. Like today, there were so many things I wanted to do,that I should have done,but I waited too long and missed my chance. So tomorrow, Im gonna try much harder to just do the things that I want,not think about it,so hopefully it will be better.
Meaning of life
Life can be long or short,it all depends on how you choose to live it. Its like forever, always changing. For any of us our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. You can never know for sure,so youd better make every second count. What you have to decide is how you want your life to be. If your forever was ending tomorrow,is this how youd want to have spent it?
What's hard to imagine?
I really can't picture anyone having a crush on me. I can't picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep, or telling their friends about me. I can't picture anyone getting butterflies because I said Hi to them, or even just smiled at them. I can't picture someone smiling at the computer screen or their cell phones when we're talking..
I wanna do something that matters Say something different, something that sets the whole world on its ear. I wanna do something better, with the time Ive been given, and I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life and leave nothing less than something that says I was here.
What's holding you back?
Were just afraid,period. Our fear is free floating. Were afraid this isnt the right relationship,or were afraid it is. Were afraid they wont like us,or were afraid they will. Were afraid of failure or were afraid of success. Were afraid of dying young or growing old. Were more afraid of life than we are of death. This world is full with people who are afraid..just like me.
Why is communicating hard?
Oh.. I don't know. Talking is easy when you don't think of the consequences. Sometimes we need a drunk conversation with people. A drunk mind speaks a sober heart,so maybe thats the only way well be able to spill out our feelings for the other person, since we find it so hard for us to talk about them regularly.
The flutters of butterfly wings in the pit of my stomach, the tingle that surfaced under my skin when we touched,the glance from the corner of our eyes that made me smile,and the deep warm whole feeling between my chest. When he left, he didnt just take him; he took it all...
Friends insulting the boy you like?
Whenever people say hes worthless, I want to scream at them.I want to tell them just how beautiful his smile is,just how perfect his eyes are, just how cute his lame jokes are, just how funny he is when hes happy, just how lost he is, and just how much I love him.
Depressions just attention seeking?
Sometimes, when people are depressed, nothing can really bring them back up right away. Not words, not good advice, or even the people around them trying to make them happy cant make them happy just like that. We should never tell someone to just be happy and forget about whats holding them down because were not dealing with the pain in their heart. It takes time and patience for someone to get back up. Its not that easy.
A great experience is when you know that someone adores your existence. Dont you ever have that desire to just crawl into someones arms? To rest your head onto their shoulder and just stay there for the longest time. To have their arms wrapped around you and your arms around their waist and just pull their body closer to yours. To feel the warmth of their body,the beating of their heart.to entwine your legs with theirs and to keep each others feet warm. To have someone so close to you that their scent becomes one with yours. To be whispered sweet nothings into your ears. To have every inch of your skin touching theirs. To be loved emotionally and physically in the most innocent way. To be held together by someone,preventing you to shatter into pieces.
Hate
I hate being told what to do. It makes me feel like I am not in control of my life. I want to be able to do whatever I want without being corrected every second of my life. If I want to do something, I will do it. It makes me so mad when people tell me do this, do that. I know I have to, I will do it later. It really ticks me off.
Music make me feel too human. Music reminds me of all of the emotions I pretended not to feel.
Broken Heart
Everyone gets their heart broken, it just takes that special person to sit down next to you with the tape and glue, helping you put it back together so they can steal it and show you what real love is.
Players
Every girl thinks she can change a player,but the truth is,its not the player that needs to change, its the girl. Because every player is on a mission to find that one girl that makes him lose his desire to play.
Make-up
If all girls started wearing no make up and comfortable clothes,guys will have no choice but to fall for girls because of natural beauty.
Killing yourself is not the answer to all your issues. It's a permanent solution to your temporary problems, which is pointless. I know it feels like the end of the world & things will never get better, but I promise you it will pass. Talk to someone, because even though it feels like no one cares, several people do.
To Myself?
Dear me, Don't feel rushed to find love just because a lot of people around you already have. Some people find "the one" right away, & others have to be patient & wait. It's not fair,trust me, I know. But that's just the way it is. Love, Me
Love
We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened,every emotion is magnified,our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment,and hour, an afternoon. But that doesnt diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.
