I'm making this story in my head, how I want my life to be.. But it's all going in the wrong direction--' I can't do what I wanna do, & it's really depressing... In that story, I have someone that loves me & that I love. In reality,there's nobody... I have friends that will support me. I don't have all of that... I would be loved & respect like everybody else in the world. No way,you have to battle alone & it's hard but you can't give up..
I'm just hoping that,that story in my head won't go away... Pleas,don't leave me here standing alone-'
I'm not good in math. So what? You can't be good in everything! & besides,I've got other things to do then stupid school. I HAVE A LIFE ! Maybe you,teachers,don't have a life . Doesn't mean we can't have one! so back of & let me do the things I love & where I'm good in.!
Is the past meant to be forgotten? or do I just forget the past, because I don't wanna remember it. I don't know.Do I ? I just do freaky things when I think about 'we'. The time we spent together, just make me realize that we had so much fun. But it's over, Because you're gone now. & in my hands I'm holding my past and hoping that the wind will blow it away..
I'm always thinking about my future, How I'll look in 10 years,what my job is..those things. Trying to make a picture in my head.. Maybe I'll be married,have a home & have kids..only god knows--' But now,I'm happy. Am I ? I think it's normal to have ups & downs.Isn't ? But I'm gonna take it step by step & live from day to day.
Why should I change? I mean.. seriously,everybody is changing just to make other people happy& to fit in. I understand they want friends but I believe for everyone there's someone who just accepts you like you are and who you feel happy with. Don't speak of love,but I speak of friendship.. At my school I see groups of girls,groups of boys, They look really happy.But there's always someone standing alone but they don't see it. I don't wanne play a game,I just wanne feel free,feel happy,feel strong being myself..
Is the world turning so blind? Or is it me standing alone,I don't know.
I just wanne tell y'all that I'm gonna try from now. To blog everyday,what's happening,how I feel,just my story c: Hmm..I know it's been a while that I'm back on my blog,but I had a hard time.. I you have questions or you just wanne talk I'm here (:
nobody told me, you have to be perfect to be happy. Well excuse me.I'm happy & I know I'm not perfect & Nobody's perfect. Maybe people think I'm a barbie because I wear make-up. You're all wrong,I wear it because It makes me feel stronger. But a lot of people don't understand that & with a lot of people I mean a lot of boys. Seriously guys,try to do something good & don't try to hurt us cause we're with a lot & together we're stronger then ever!
why do I live in this shithole? I mean,I've got dreams. I wanne do things, but everyone is holding me back for what ? To lurn, but I don't wanne think. I just wanne live my fucking life. No more or less,just my life.
Yeah,I know. I'm not perfect. But hey,nobody is. I'm maybe fat. I'm maybe little. I'm maybe ugly. And that's clear to me, so don't tell me every fucking day. that I'm not good enough. so.. FUCK OFF
I'm sorry, for the things I've done for being there when you didn't want me for the mistakes I've made for the questions I've asked for being your friend for listening for talking for everything I'm so sorry ...
I'm not just a girl. I'm Britt & I'm different. I've got my own style, my own piece of mind. so don't tell I'm like the rest cause I'm deffenitly not. Don't try to change me if I don't look how you want me to look.Sorry for that really. Cause I think that's bullshit.. I am who I am & you have to be pretty amazing to change that.
