It doesn’t matter anymore

cause I walked into that door

and I won’t ever come back

I go black

In the darkness, I will disappear

no worries, no fear

just gone, forever

it’s now or never

I won’t go back

cause I’m going black

I have no choice

I have to do it

it’s that voice

but I won’t admit it

it’s there , in my head

I get sad, I’m mad

It will not go away

not now, never

I’m down, forever…

19-04-2009 om 18:02 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

underneath my smile

deep inside of my soul

something’s dying

someone’s crying

and it don’t stop

maybe it will never end

there they are again

and again

I hate it

the screaming

I’m bleeding

It keeps killing me inside …

everything is fallen apart again

I can’t take this anymore

let it stop, forever

but it won’t end

never

never

never.

Because I’m to weak to do it

but I won’t admit it

I wanna get of this world

even if it was one second

I would do anything

for that

19-04-2009 om 18:01 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

I hate it

But I won’t admit it

It’s not okay

when you say that

I get so mad

in my head

I’m exploding

inside, I’m crying …

I will not take this

she doesn’t may act like this

I love her, but not that way

for me, that’s totally not okay

[to R.S.]

19-04-2009 om 17:59 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

Sometimes I’m happy, sometimes I’m sad

other times I’m crazy or totally mad

but when I look into her eyes

it’s like… she dies

everything in your mind, so much despair

for a girl like you, it’s so unfair

there’s so much I want to tell

but don’t think about other people now,

they go anyway to hell

I know you’re full of doubt

you need to get out

out of this world …

but yeah, these are only words

I’m here for you, but still …

Know that I love you, and I always will <3

19-04-2009 om 17:58 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

I try to break

break out

no-one aloud

for god’s sake

I try to break

break away

my own way

leave me alone

it’s my life, my own

I don’t wanna do this anymore

I just want to give up

walk out that door

I want to get away

My own way …

fly away, and break away

but I can’t promise I will return

in time, I’ll learn

how to survive,

how to live a life

breakaway

fly away

runaway

and if I may choose

I would not come back

I would go of this world

I would go black

but I have to move on

swallow my tears

and just keep laughing

but underneath this smile…

there’s so much

angry, sadness, and tears ..

19-04-2009 om 17:57 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

The fire that burns deep inside

is slowly going out

we just go on and ride

protesting is not aloud

I have to swallow my tears

but they are already streaming

from my heart flow

though, it’s not easy

to swallow it all

cause when I’m sad

it’s like I’m gonna fall

deeper, into the darkness

but it isn’t less painful

I really am a mess

how do you get out of this ?

19-04-2009 om 17:55 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

It’s gonna start all over again

again, the screaming, the fights

where is the light?

I wanna flight

far away, as far as possible

and breakaway

but that’s impossible

I’m stuck in the middle of it

but it’s hard to admit,

that I’m crying

cause I’m still dying

I’m sorry I lied

I didn’t wanna make it worse

I’d just wanna cried

It’s like we’re al cursed

I’m sorry I lied

But I’m afraid

that I’m going down …

19-04-2009 om 17:53 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

I don’t know where I go

And I don’t know if it’s going to be alright

But I know I’m going to be here for you

Now and forever

So don’t be afraid,

I’m not going anywhere

I promise

I will do anything,

anything,

to stay alive

I’ll fight, till I fall

Till I fall down

and I’ll beg to stop

If I lose control

I’ll try to make it stop

to calm down

But about that ..

I can’t promise anything

Sometimes I just lose control,

and than I don’t know what’s happening

But I promise

I’ll try …

19-04-2009 om 17:52 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

I will not smile,

If I don’t wanna smile.

I won’t talk, if I don’t wanna talk.

I won’t hide my feelings for you,

Cuz you know they’re true.

If you trust me, I will trust you to .

But I’m afraid that I make you sad …

You can say I don’t, but maybe …

Maybe deep inside, you are mad

But we’ve already talked about it,

And I guess I don’t have a reason to hesitate .

But still, if you want me to be quiet,

I’ll be quiet.

If you don’t want to talk,

I’ll leave you alone.

I just hope you can forgive me

For all the things that I said wrong

For all the stuff I did wrong.

For all the sentences I made to long.

For the words I said, that wasted your time

It was all not what I meant,

And I know you think that I don’t have to say sorry.

But yeah,

Still …

Sorry …

And know, that I don’t care anymore

what other people think

We have a special band ,

And I’m proud of it .

19-04-2009 om 17:50 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

I would do anything for you

I would lie for you

Die for you

Wipe my tears and hide everything for you

But I know you wouldn’t ask me to do

‘Cause I love you, and you love me to <3

You mean a lot to me (read : de world! )

And you will see,

I’m nothing without you

My dear!

With you, there is no fear

With you , I am myself

And no one else!

Now, I really don’t wanna lose you

Not today, not tomorrow

NEVER !

Because I love you

for Ever ! <3

19-04-2009 om 17:47 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

Hope

It’s such a cruel word

Specially in our world

Cause when I’m crying

I’m really dying

And on that moment, hope,

Doesn’t mean anything

But when I’m with you

Nothing is the same

But I’m the one to blame…

I think it’s my fault, I make you sad

But honestly , it’s not what I meant

I hope you can forgive me

‘Cause you see,

I’m with you

I love you ..

With you I’m not afraid

Not to laugh, not to smile

With you, the pain is less, for a while

I hope we’re gonna get through this, together

So, here is this letter..

19-04-2009 om 17:44 geschreven door BehindMyMask  

When it’s hard to hold on

to carry on, and go on

with your life

then think about me

think about all our beautiful moments

think about ‘we’

‘cause we’re together

now and forever

I’ll be there for you

I promise

till the end of my days!

19-04-2009 om 00:00 geschreven door BehindMyMask