I'm fcking confused. What if old memories come back. but memories that were never important before. they just come back because you're on a place you used to be with someone. i had that lately. I was driving home from a friends' and I suddenly rememberd that at the end of her street he wanted to say goodbye to me once- one and a half years ago- but, at that time, I said we didn't drove that way, and he just followed me. driving even more away from his house than he already was. I didn't thoought he should come so far. but I was happy he did :) when I got home and turned on my pc, not much later he was on his pc as well. I hadn't got hus messanger yet. but we were friends on Netlog. He asked me in a privet message, my messanger- there were a lot of blushes in he's message-. I was sooo happy .. less than 3 weeks later he was a couple with my sister. I got over him soon, 'cuz i'd never steal my sisters boyfriend. Never. After less then 3 weeks it was over. I didn't spoke to him for a really long time .. a half year later we started to talk again. not that we had a fight before, it was just strange. But then, the time came, that i'd been a year. it was strange, knowing how much i loved him the year before. And, I hatet, but i fell in love again. And it was worse than before, 'cuz now, after 6 months or something, I'm still not over him. And, i start thinking, and Gosh, it hurts, now, I didn't saw him for like, a month. It hurts, but, sometimes, he message me. And it confusses me. Can he love me? if he's the ex of my older sister? if he's 2 and a half year older รถ? being confused is harder than i could think
