a place for my head... <3 er zijn momenten dat iemand nood heeft aan een plek voor zichzelf en zijn gedachten...
26-04-2009
oh, bitch!
baby it doesn't matter you're rich 'cause as person, you're a bitch you make me sick everyday, every minute, every second oh you're not a diamond maybe you think you are but you are NOT ! you're a bitch a rich bitch you can be the sweet girl at school but it's all fake I'm not perfect but I'm real you try to be perfect but you're not real B-I-T-C-H !
do you see her ? that girl in the mirror... a tear is falling down her face her hair is hiding her eyes nobody can't see how she's feeling just in her eyes... her eyes say more than she wants she hates it to live she wants to run away and maybe she wants... dead.
everyday I fight to get trough the day I want to lay my weapons down but you try to let me holding on I cry myself to sleep it's my lullaby the pain cuts too deep why ? why me ? do you wanna tell me what did I wrong where I belong God, let it end I don't wanna fight and defend please, I beg U I hope you do if you don't I do
I can say so many words but I'm silent I can tell my own story but I listen to yours I don't say something to you 'cause a hug tells everything I can scream but I write this silence can be killing but I need it I need silence in my head I need rest in my mind silence don't say anything 'cause my eyes do already no words.. just let me be silent.
maybe this is the last goodbye maybe this is our last hug maybe this is the last time I see you maybe this is the end ... but if this is the last goodbye it's a goodbye, tells everything but if this is our last hug I want to hold you in my arms like never before but if this is the last time I see you my look tells everything I wanna say a look, you'll never forget but if this is the end... I want that you live, live your life with ups and downs.. but don't stop 'cause you can't stop... do it for me... x.
you're my diamond I love every moment when I'm with you you're my everything without you I'm nothing the one I live for the one who try to take me away from that door baby, we're forever I don't forget her, NEVER
if you don't wanna talk do you just wanna walk walk with me maybe I can let you see I let you see something of what I'm feeling I let you see a bit of what's going on inside of me you don't have to say anything just listening but if you don't wanna see a piece of me if you won't... tell me so I don't let you see what's going on inside of me
I'm totally broken nothing left every second is a second too long it's over I don't try anymore to be happy everyday I fall deeper and deeper and this pain is just too real to hold on I beg you take me away...
She is running 100 Miles an hour In the wrong direction She is trying But the canyons ever widening In the depths of her cold heart So she sets out on another misadverture just to find she's another 2 years older and she's 3 more steps behind
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Lord does anybody even know she's going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple with all the lost and lonely people Searching for the hope that tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
She is yearning For shelter and affection That she never found at home She is searching For a hero to ride in, to ride in and save the day And then walks in her prince charming and he knows just what to say A momentary lapse of reason and she gives herself away
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Lord does anybody even know she's going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple with all the lost and lonely people Searching for the hope that tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
If judgement looms under every steeple If lofty glances from lofty people Who can't see past her scarlet letter And we never even met her
If judgement looms under every steeple If lofty glances from lofty people Who can't see past her scarlet letter And we never even met her Never even met her
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Lord does anybody even know she's going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple with all the lost and lonely people Searching for the hope that tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Lord does anybody even know she's going down today? Under the shadow of our steeple with all the lost and lonely people Searching for the hope that tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
He is running 100 miles an hour in the wrong direction
sometimes I wish I'm a butterfly I can fly to a world that people don't know a world without worries where I can be myself and then I take you with me then we can be alone just you and me smiling or crying it doesn't matter 'cause no one can see us in our world ... I hope wishes will come true
If the pain won't stop I'll stop.. forever. nothing can change my mind I'm sure of what I'm writing now.. life don't make any sence to me it just sucks and maybe it all gonna be alright but maybe... and then you have the word hope oh I hate that word for me it have to end now 'cause I can't hold on anymore.. no, I can't...
I don't wanna feel bad I don't wanna feel good I just wanna be dead.
hey you there do you see me ? hey, hello !! I'm speaking to you oh whatever I'm just a teenager you know...
if no one wants to listen and if no one wants to see they say I'm a happy, beautiful girl but they only look to my mask they don't wanna look into my eyes 'cause then they'll see the truth, the pain oh no,, here we go again...
chorus : don't look at her she's just a sad teenager don't look at her tomorrow she'll be happy she's just a teenager, she's just a teenager... don't look at her !
oh damn don't be so blind you don't wanna see it I'm not, I'm not the happy girl or just a teenager but you don't listen so, whatever... it doesn't matter what I feel 'cause you're scared to look into my eyes then you'll see the truth, the pain oh no, here we go again...
chorus
it doesn't matter what I say it doesn't matter what I feel you're afraid to look in my eyes 'cause then you'll see the truth and the pain... stop, I won't hear it again.
I write so many texts but not only one can say what I'm really feeling a feeling like never before a feeling so bad like a knife is killing everything inside me and it doesn't stop there's nothing left anymore my mask falls down tears stream streaming like never before but I have to go on I can't give up... for them x.
sorry dad I have to do this maybe I mean much to you but you don't let it see it hurts me you're not my dad anymore you're a strange person for me I'm sorry for these words but it's just the truth I miss my dad I haven't a father anymore I know it's hard but please, forget me and be happy live your own life I gonna do the same I think, no, I'm sure it's gonna be better you're forever my father and I'm forever you're daughter but we both know that it is all fake enjoy your life without me I'm gonna do the same...
life can be like a flower there are good times and bad times there are summers and winters you can be happy and beautiful and you can be sad and dark a flower can open flower but she can fade too.. maybe my life is a winter... a winter without end a life without a spring or summer maybe the spring will come, sooner or later... but now.. I'm freezing like nothing can warm me up, cheer me up like nothing helps you can try it but it feels like I'm hopeless ...
here I'm sitting again tired and down need some help but won't ask feel the pain more and more I'm falling down deeper and deeper haven't a hold on don't see anything it's dark, where's my light ? can't find it... maybe I won't find it 'cause whene there's no light the end is not far but for me it mays end right here then I can rest in peace but still living in your heart
Do you believe me when I say that it wasn't your fault ? Do you believe me when I say that I'm sorry ? I hope so... I know I'll never be the perfect girl but try to love me as I am can you forgive me for all my mistakes ? I don't ask to forget just to forgive and I hope you do... 'Cause I need you more then you know and if you don't believe me look me in the eyes... they say everything.
