a place for my head... <3 er zijn momenten dat iemand nood heeft aan een plek voor zichzelf en zijn gedachten...
16-04-2009
''just a teenager...''
song : "just a teenager..."
hey you there do you see me ? hey, hello !! I'm speaking to you oh whatever I'm just a teenager you know...
if no one wants to listen and if no one wants to see they say I'm a happy, beautiful girl but they only look to my mask they don't wanna look into my eyes 'cause then they'll see the truth, the pain oh no,, here we go again...
chorus : don't look at her she's just a sad teenager don't look at her tomorrow she'll be happy she's just a teenager, she's just a teenager... don't look at her !
oh damn don't be so blind you don't wanna see it I'm not, I'm not the happy girl or just a teenager but you don't listen so, whatever... it doesn't matter what I feel 'cause you're scared to look into my eyes then you'll see the truth, the pain oh no, here we go again...
chorus
it doesn't matter what I say it doesn't matter what I feel you're afraid to look in my eyes 'cause then you'll see the truth and the pain... stop, I won't hear it again.
I write so many texts but not only one can say what I'm really feeling a feeling like never before a feeling so bad like a knife is killing everything inside me and it doesn't stop there's nothing left anymore my mask falls down tears stream streaming like never before but I have to go on I can't give up... for them x.
sorry dad I have to do this maybe I mean much to you but you don't let it see it hurts me you're not my dad anymore you're a strange person for me I'm sorry for these words but it's just the truth I miss my dad I haven't a father anymore I know it's hard but please, forget me and be happy live your own life I gonna do the same I think, no, I'm sure it's gonna be better you're forever my father and I'm forever you're daughter but we both know that it is all fake enjoy your life without me I'm gonna do the same...
life can be like a flower there are good times and bad times there are summers and winters you can be happy and beautiful and you can be sad and dark a flower can open flower but she can fade too.. maybe my life is a winter... a winter without end a life without a spring or summer maybe the spring will come, sooner or later... but now.. I'm freezing like nothing can warm me up, cheer me up like nothing helps you can try it but it feels like I'm hopeless ...
here I'm sitting again tired and down need some help but won't ask feel the pain more and more I'm falling down deeper and deeper haven't a hold on don't see anything it's dark, where's my light ? can't find it... maybe I won't find it 'cause whene there's no light the end is not far but for me it mays end right here then I can rest in peace but still living in your heart
Do you believe me when I say that it wasn't your fault ? Do you believe me when I say that I'm sorry ? I hope so... I know I'll never be the perfect girl but try to love me as I am can you forgive me for all my mistakes ? I don't ask to forget just to forgive and I hope you do... 'Cause I need you more then you know and if you don't believe me look me in the eyes... they say everything.
